When I opened my eyes the next day, it was already ten o'clock in the morning.

I sat up and felt a terrible headache. Last night's wine made me feel sick and uncomfortable as if it hadn't been digested.

After getting up, I took off the super thick bra I wore yesterday, and when I went to the first floor after washing, I didn't see Feng Yan.

When she came back at noon, I noticed that her right eye was dark.

"Your face?" I asked, getting up from the couch.

"You're a pig, and after drinking a little wine, you're like a dead pig. I didn't even know I was beaten down there. As she spoke, she put down the pile of things she had bought, took out the bruising medicine from it, and began to wipe it in the mirror.

While applying the medicine, he looked at me through the reflection of the mirror and asked, "Silly Li Fei, I saw that you were quite intoxicated on the stairs yesterday?

She said that the movements of her hands stopped, and she looked at me with a smile instead of a smile.

I gently fiddled with what she bought, a little squirming and didn't reply.

Thinking about men? I feel like I'm still at that point. I don't know what it's like to be a man.

"Oh, look at your stupidity. Hurry up and wash the dishes, there are guests at noon. She continued to apply the medicine.

A man came at noon that day. It's a nearby thug named Ah Meng. Usually it's Ah Meng who guards this piece of street girl. When encountering some debts or troublemakers, they are usually the ones who deal with them.

Ah Meng is in his thirties and has a sideways face. Feng Yan flattered him very much and persuaded him to drink again and again.

Ah Meng put his arm around Feng Yan's waist and asked me who I was, and Feng Yan said that I was her daughter for the first time. After hearing this, Ah Meng didn't say anything more obscene.

When I was drunk and had my heart's content, they broke me away. After the two of them rubbed in the hut below for a long time, Ah Meng was ready to leave.

Before leaving, he didn't forget to ask Feng Yan for protection money.

"I said we both were like that just now, so you can get less. Feng Yan said while taking out the money.

"... Seeing that the end of the year is approaching, the wives and children at home are still with their mouths open! Hurry up!" Ah Meng stretched out his hand a little impatiently and said.

Feng Yan reluctantly took out a small pile of money, Ah Meng grabbed it, and left without looking back.

I knew that after Ah Meng left, I went downstairs. Feng Yan poured herself another small half glass of wine with a sad face, and saw that I didn't make a sound when I came down, and drank the small half glass in one gulp.

"Fuck ......," she cursed as she lay down on the back of the couch as she lowered her glass.

Without saying a word, I stepped aside, took the bottle and poured it for her again. She lay on the backrest and looked at me slightly drunk.

"Li Fei. After she shouted, she straightened up and looked at me a little dazed, and said, "Take your pants off." ”

"Huh??"

"Just let you take it off, what do you ask?" she said impatiently.

I had a vague sense of what she wanted to see, and I did as she said.

"What a child who doesn't have any hair, that happened early!"

She shook her head a little dissatisfied, and picked up her glass.

Hearing her say that, I was still a little disappointed in my heart.

After putting on her pants, she asked, "Why don't you go to school again?"

"Didn't you let me go to school?" I asked.

"If you don't go to school, you'll be a chicken all your life? Really, don't you see my suffering? It's hard to make some money, and it's not fucking enough to honor those crumbs! You say, if I provide for you to go to school, will you honor me when you grow up?" she asked very seriously, looking at me very seriously.

I nodded, but immediately shook my head and said, "I don't want to go to school, though." ”

When she heard this, she was stunned for a moment. Picked up the glass and took another sip.

"yes...... What's the use of going to school? The Cui'er who came to look for us yesterday is nineteen. I went to college for half a year and came back to do this. Alas, they are all smart people, and the old lady just entered the industry too late. The bigger stores don't want old ladies like me, oh the fuck ......," she said, and began to complain to herself.

Looking at her erratic state, I was disgusted. One will let me go to school, and the next will be unspeakable. It feels like she's such an unassertive person.

However, I have an "opinion" - I just don't go to school.

Because, when I go to school, I will see Zhang Liang, and his parents should come to me after seeing Zhang Liang.

If I had just started, I would have let them find my mind a little bit. But I don't have those thoughts anymore. After all, I have lived with Feng Yan for four or five years, and although I don't like her, I don't need to hide or hide anything in front of her.

And in the short time at Zhang Liang's house, it would feel like a brief dream.

A sweet dream that is becoming more and more unreal for me.

After Feng Yan got drunk, she sat on the sofa and shouted to herself like a nervous person.

I ignored her and went upstairs, and after a while, Ah Zhu came.

I heard her shout, so I hurriedly found the super thick bra and put it on. As soon as she put on her sweater, she pushed open the door to the second floor.

I stood up and looked at her in a bit of a panic.

She looked me up and down, perhaps because I didn't wear makeup, smiled, and asked suspiciously, "Why do you look so much younger than yesterday?"

"I'm not small. ”

"Silly, it's a good thing to look small!Do you smoke?" she asked, taking out her cigarette case, it was General Bai's cigarette. It's one of the same with Li Sheng.

I shook my head. After she lit a cigarette, she sat down on Feng Yan's bed opposite, took off her shoes and leaned back, half-lying on the quilt against the wall.

"Are you really a chick?" she asked curiously.

"Hmm. I followed her example and moved back against the wall.

"What are you going to do with us?"

I didn't know how to answer, but I nodded.

"Sister Yan forced you?" she asked, squinting.

"Nope. I felt that I was too bored, and I was afraid that she would think I was still a child, so I straightened up and raised my voice.

"Oh, are you sick in the head? Aren't you stupid?" she asked, leaning over and flicking down her cigarette ash.

I am particularly sensitive to the word "stupid", looking at the free and clever A Spider, I suddenly don't know how to reply to her.

Spider threw half of the cigarette to the ground, lay back and looked at me with a smile and asked, "What's the matter?

"Why is a virgin doing this stupid?" I asked directly.

When she heard this, she laughed and ran over.

After leaning against the wall side by side with me, he reached out to touch me.

"What......" I asked, tightening my waistband.

"How do you get into the business when you're so scared, let go, I'll see if you're really that!" she said with a seductive smile.

I looked down and saw her hand grabbing the waistband of my pants, and the black spider in her hand was a little frightening, a little scared.

Before I could react, she pushed me down on the bed and held me down.

"You're not sixteen. ”

In the dark, she spat out these words faintly. I can't tell if I'm happy or angry......

"Bang!"

The sound of broken bottles coming from downstairs.

All of a sudden, our movements stopped. She propped herself up gently, the quilt revealing a gap. The light came in and sprinkled softly on her slightly messy hair. That fair face is particularly beautiful. She looked at me and smiled, her eyes so pure.

At that moment, for some reason, I felt a feeling of warmth in my heart, and I laughed unconsciously.

Spider has many, many secrets.

When I asked her how old she was to do this, she said it was very early, and when I asked her why she did it, she wouldn't tell me. She hid a lot of things on her own and never told anyone......

Just like her suicide, it came without warning.

She brought me into her circle. She asked me how old I was, and I lied that I was sixteen. She didn't believe me, but she brought me into her circle anyway.

At that time, my cognitive abilities were limited.

I'll just imitate......

Imitate their tone, imitate their speech, imitate their makeup, imitate their breath, and imitate their posture with a cigarette in their mouth.

Although, I didn't know how to smoke at the time.

Many people think that when a group of young ladies gather together, they are all talking about men?

What do we talk about the most together? is love......

Can you believe it? Really.

It's the real relationship between men and women. Cui'er will say that he fell in love with a man in his hometown, so-and-so will say that a man seems to be sincere to her, and so-and-so will smile and say that she is in love with so-and-so.

No one talks about customers, no, never......

Sometimes, that's what this society is. In the group of people you think are dirty, sometimes there is a kind of innocence that is so real. It's just that kind of innocence, which makes people feel so ...... Wretched.

So, compared to them, Ah Zhu is a miracle. Of course, I didn't understand what kind of person Ah Zhu was at the time. However, now every time I think of her, I feel that she is an absolutely extraordinary woman.

Whenever I recall Ah Zhulai, I can't believe that she was a girl who had just turned sixteen.

So, when I think about her, I feel a sense of extreme fear.

It was like that gloomy afternoon, and she showed me a long scar and loose stretch marks on her lower abdomen!

It's like her suicide, and she came so suddenly.

When Ah Zhu died, it was the twenty-eighth day of the lunar month.

Before she died, migrant workers in the labor market also went back for the Chinese New Year.

During that period, Feng Li came to look for me, and Fu Xiangqin also came to look for me. However, none of them found me. Because during that time, I played with Ah Zhu in the big store.

Business in big stores was also the most deserted at that time.

Feng Li looked for me, Feng Yan said that I had not come, Feng Yan was very good-mouthed, Feng Li did not get any news and went back.

And Fu parsley is more bitter.

She couldn't say Feng Yan, she couldn't scold Feng Yan, but she sent a thousand yuan. She gave her money and begged her to be nicer to me.

Feng Yan said that it was my social maintenance fee. Put it in your pocket, and don't appreciate it.

The business of the big stores is deserted, not to mention Feng Yan's small door. After having no business and no prostitutes, the rent and management fees gave her a headache.

The more distressed she became, the more strange her gaze became.

She didn't seem to be able to wait for Sister Mei to come back after the year. I understand that she wants me to help her earn money quickly.

She couldn't help but call Sister Mei, but Sister Mei was busy with the New Year, and she couldn't hold her breath. She was holding back the fire in her heart, but she didn't dare to send it to me. On the contrary, they have to serve me with delicious food and drink.

On the twenty-seventh day of the lunar month, the entire labor market was deserted like a dead city. Not only the migrant workers, but even the women who stood on the street closed their doors and went home.

In the evening, Ah Zhu called Feng Yan and asked me to find her.

I'm naturally pleased.

The bathing center is closed for the holidays, but there are still a few homeless women who spend the New Year here. A spider is one of them.

She led me straight into a red box.

The first time I went in, I knew that this kind of room was the room where they were "working". Whether it is the bed linen or the decoration, it is all ambiguous.

There were just the two of us in the room, eating, talking and laughing as usual.

As before, when I asked her some questions, she still avoided answering. When he smoked, he smiled and spit out cigarettes at me to tease me.

Before leaving, she leaned on the door frame, smoked a cigarette and smiled and said, "Li Fei, you come over at eight o'clock tomorrow morning." ”

"What are you doing?" I asked, standing in the doorway of the box.

"If you want to come, you will come. Don't ask so many questions. I'm going to sleep in this room tonight, and I'm coming here tomorrow. ”

I said yes and left.

On the twenty-eighth day of the lunar month.

Feng Yan didn't have much business, so she went to the market early to prepare some New Year's goods.

I looked at my watch and it was only seven o'clock, thinking that I was going to see Ah Zhu later, so I put on makeup.

The door was wide open and it felt cold outside. went to the second floor to find a coat for Feng Yan.

Wrapped her scarf around her and put on her red hat.

Seeing that his sneakers were too single and dirty, he found a pair of Feng Yan's boots.

The first time I wore those kind of boots with heels, I walked crookedly. Fortunately, the heel is not very high.

After wearing "fashionable" and going out, I thought about how to shock Ah Zhu along the way. I wonder if she will be amazed when she sees me.

Suddenly, a young man of more than 1.6 meters came to him. I recognized it as Feng Li at a glance!

After instinctively stopping, he thought - he should not recognize himself when he is wrapped in this form, right?

I lifted the scarf up, pulled the brim of my hat down, and pushed my feet out of the straight line.

As I walked past him, he just glanced at me. Looking at his slightly contemptuous eyes, my heart trembled slightly.

He didn't recognize me, and his eyes told me he thought I was a street girl......