When I was a teenager, what I thought about was going to Tsinghua University or Peking University, which was ignorant and young and frivolous;

In his early twenties, he just graduated from school, and he is a little sober, but he is still full of confidence. I want to get ahead, I want to return home, I want to slap those who used to look down on me;

It wasn't until today, when I was twenty-six, that I realized that I was just a grain of sand in the world, not a pearl, not a brilliant gem.

I was just a mortal, living in a single room in an urban village for three hundred and fifty-five months, with fifteen haircuts and cheap street goods, wandering the edge of the city.

It's so tiring to be alive.

More than once, I want to strive to break through the class, I want to go to a higher level of society, and I want to stand higher in the food chain.

Later, I realized that I thought too beautifully.

It's that easy, there will be no class solidification in this society. Is there any hope for making money to improve life and change classes?

It's too hard.

Now, I occasionally regret not studying hard, otherwise I would be admitted to 985 and 211, at least the starting point of my work will be much higher, and I don't have to work so hard to move bricks and codewords.

It's a pity that the reality is not, life can't be repeated.

"The green years are like yesterday, and they are lost in a blink of an eye, and unfortunately, there is no next time for those lost waters. - "Thirty Men"

The past is the past.

During the break at the beginning of the year, it was also because of my own naivety and obstinacy, which overly idealized certain issues, which led to the intensification of conflicts with my family.

It took half a month to figure out how easy life is, I am not the protagonist of the system, it is already very hard to live, how can I use my own ideas to ask others so much.

So I was relieved.

Nowadays, I just want to work hard and make money.

Since you can't change the class, it's better to improve your life. People can't always be static, at least have a little pursuit.

After all, I'm just an ordinary person, I want to be extraordinary, and I can only be willing to be ordinary.

During the Chinese New Year, I was urged to marry without accident, but I felt no expectations, only hesitation. The whole world is trying to introduce me to someone, but I have forgotten how to invest emotionally, and perhaps I have learned to enjoy loneliness.

Maternal SOLO, I'm ashamed.

Saying so much,It's because I'm usually alone.,Except for games and animation.,There's basically no other entertainment program.,Now I don't even watch much anime.,Occasionally chat with friends on the Internet.,Sometimes there's a lot of things I want to say to others.,I can't find someone to talk to.。

I don't know if anyone has the patience to read my nonsense, but it's a lot better to say it.

In the process of reading the book, if you have any ideas, you can leave a message in the chapter, and the author of the spicy chicken will read it. (By the way, it's convenient for me to copy book reviews)

Finally, I wish myself a happy birthday to my twenty-sixth, even though it is past 12 o'clock.

PS: I recommend a song, "Man Thirty", sung by toluene at station A, the more I listen to it, the more I feel.