"Chang'an is full of snow again"

Chapter 1: Ji Changan has never been at peace

Chang'an may be dying.

In recent days, my body has become heavier and heavier, and every time it rains and winds, the chill from my bones hits my whole body, cold as frost.

In the drowsiness, Chang'an can always dream of the past scene.

When she was young, her parents Qin Se and Ming, she also accepted the joy of the knees, and the family of three enjoyed a great family, and later her father went to Beijing to take the exam for many years without any news, leaving her pregnant mother to raise her and her younger brother alone.

When they met again, his father had already become a famous champion in the capital, and he had also become the son-in-law of the Great Wei Emperor, and married the beautiful and noble eldest princess.

She also suddenly fell from a wife and daughter to a ...... raised by the Ji family outside Outer Room......

Later, Chang'an learned by chance that it was only because the princess had been married to her father for many years that she had never had a male heir, and she was forced to think of her bad wife, and only after inquiring about her son did she allow their mother and son to enter Beijing, otherwise, no one would know that they would die in the countryside.

The eldest princess was arrogant, and their mother and son were humiliated, and it became a joke that their father did not want to meet.

But even so, my mother never complained, and the love for my father in my heart was still the same.

In order to get his occasional favor, in order to be able to enter the princess's mansion, and accompany his father day and night, his mother went out and knelt in front of her with a face and begged her to get on the sedan chair, marry someone she didn't love, and seek prosperity for her father.

Chang'an was reluctant.

But her mother has worked hard for more than ten years, and it is difficult to pull her and her younger brother alone, Chang'an is not clear in his heart, and it is not too much to let Chang'an repay it with his life.

She also knew that her father was her mother's life, her everything, and looking at her mother who was lingering on the sickbed, she still couldn't resist the grace of nurturing after all, and Ji Changan agreed to get married.

I thought that the rest of my life would be so little, but I didn't want it to be the earth-shaking fate of her.

The sedan chair was changed, and what was waiting for her was not the old man of the Mo family who was fifty years old, but Gu Mingzhi, the powerful governor of the dynasty.

Her husband is actually the person that the girl in the Shengjing Boudoir is looking forward to marrying!?

Gu Mingzhi is handsome and rich, and the power is tilted towards the government and the opposition.

Chang'an even thought that God had taken pity on her for being too bitter in this half of her life, so she gave her a good person, and she didn't want Gu Mingzhi to wait for her, but it was just a big net full of sweet words, covering her all over her body.

Gu Mingzhi loved her very much and spoiled her, Ji Changan once felt so, until she had her first child, and before she could tell him happily, she was kicked by him and had a miscarriage.

Ji Changan was grief-stricken, and afterwards Gu Mingzhi kept apologizing to her drunk, saying that he didn't mean to, but the situation was unstable at that time, and he didn't know that he was pregnant, so he would speak and act excessively, and accidentally hurt himself and his child.

Chang'an forgave her and deceived herself even more.

The doctor said that she fell ill when she was pregnant for the first time, and it would be difficult to get pregnant again in the future, and she didn't want to be pregnant, but she was poured by Gu Ming's bowl of abortion medicine and could no longer give birth.

This time, Ji Changan couldn't fool himself.

She just felt tired.

finally understood that Gu Mingzhi's so-called gentleness and care were just hatred, and through her hatred for another person, Ji Changan wanted to find it himself.

Gu Mingzhi ordered people to save her repeatedly after committing suicide, and then threatened the lives of his mother and younger brother, so that Ji Changan didn't dare to die even if he wanted to.

It's a little ridiculous to think about it, her mother took Chang'an for her back then, hoping that she could stay with her beloved for a long time and live in peace, but unfortunately Ji Changan has never been at peace in his life.

"Is it raining again?"

Le Fu's eyes were red, "Madame, but I feel cold and uncomfortable again? ”

It has passed early spring, but Ji Changan's body is still afraid of the cold, and the charcoal fire in the house is no less than that in winter.

Ji Changan shook his head, "It's okay, I'm not cold." ”

"Go open the window, I want to look outside. ”

"......"

Le Fu lowered his eyes, not letting Ji Changan see the sadness in his eyes, and then listened to the order to open the window sash.

Ji Chang'an's pale face showed a rare smile, leaning on the blue and white auspicious cloud pattern pillow, looking out from afar through the window sash.

After the faint thunder, it rained a dashing spring rain, and the dry branches of the trees had a hazy layer of pale green color, and the rain dripped down the tips of the trees, mixed with a faint earthy aroma, which smelled much better and fainter than the sandalwood in the incense burner of Rui Beast in the house.

The begonia in the corridor had bloomed earlier, the flower bones were watered by the rain and drooped down the branches, the wind blew outside the window, and Ji Changan unconsciously shrank his neck.

The sound of hurried footsteps outside the door came, an angry face broke into view, the sword eyebrows and eagle's eyes were full of anger and anger, Gu Mingzhi's forehead was bruised, "Ji Changan, how dare you?"

"How dare you die?"

Somehow, Chang'an actually laughed slowly.

At first, it was a chuckle, but it involved a sharp cough, coughing up blood and tears.

Warm tears slipped from his eyes, and Ji Changan looked at the person in front of him and muttered pitifully, "I don't dare to die." ”

If she dared to die, she would have died by herself when she was carried into the mansion five years ago, instead of living secretly for so many years and lingering on the sickbed for so many years.

She didn't dare to die.

She also has a mother and a younger brother.

Although her mother is devoted to the husband who doesn't love her, and although her brother hates her and refuses to bow his head, they are the only relatives in her world after all, and they have given her warm relatives.

But now, Ji Changan is going to die.

Her younger brother made a mistake in his early years, and was assigned to serve in the frontier, but he happened to come to the country, and the soldiers and civilians of Yuncheng did not survive, and her mother was unbearable to the blow of her father's death, so she followed in a few days.

Now it's her turn.

It's not that she took the initiative to seek death, it's that her body has exhausted her mental strength in the past few years, and she has become ill, and she has already reached the point where the oil has run out.

Finally going to die.

She had waited too long.

She may have started to be in a trance again, and she actually saw tears in Gu Mingzhi's eyes, and the tip of her nose was sour, Ji Changan thought for a while, "I don't hate you, blame myself." ”

"It's that I don't know people. ”

"After five years of being a husband and wife, and now I'm finally free, shouldn't I be happy for me?"

"You too...... Stop hating, okay?"

Ji Changan wanted to reach out and help Gu Mingzhi soothe his frowning brows, but he didn't want his body to be weak, so he couldn't move for half a minute.

Ji Changan slowly closed her eyes, her expression was quiet and peaceful, and her hand fell silently under the bed, there is no one she cares about in this world.

No more worrying about living on your own.

The sound of rain outside the window is getting louder and louder, as if it is happy with her, the breeze is blowing, and the faint fragrance of begonias is permeating.

Gu Mingzhi roared like a mad demon, constantly shaking Ji Chang'an's skinny body, "Ji Chang'an!

"If you dare to die, I will ......" Gu Mingzhi's eyes were full of bloodshots, and he took Ji Changan's hand dejectedly, what else could he use to threaten her to live?

Nothing, nothing.

Gu Mingzhi's voice suddenly choked, "Chang'an, don't die, please......"