"Lu Li gave it to me?" I asked.

Zhang Liang's face suddenly showed embarrassment, as if he was hiding something.

"It's been three or four years, and I've collected all the letters he wrote to you for you," Zhang Liang said, also a little twisted, "I don't want you to come and go." ”

"You!!!" I felt like I had exploded!

I don't know how I reacted so much, but I was really resentful!

"How can you do this!" I said, snatching the black plastic bag!

"Hey, I'll keep it for you, and now it's good to give it to you! My dad is a police officer, and I know that reading people believe that it is illegal, or I would have seen it a long time ago!" he said with some excitement.

There was a "squeak", and the door suddenly rang.

"What are you two arguing about inside?" Officer Zhang pushed the door in, "Hurry up and wash your hands and help with the cooking." ”

&

At noon that day they stayed for dinner.

After all, Zhang Liang is a person who grew up in the city since he was a child, and he has never suffered hardships. Smelling the smell outside, I can't eat it at all.

Fu Parsley was also uncomfortable to eat.

After eating, send them away.

Along the way, Fu Xiangqin grabbed my hand tightly, very reluctant to me. I can't bear her.

At that time, I really wished that I would grow up quickly, and when I had money, I would take my father to live in the city and not let him collect waste anymore. At that time, I could take care of him and be with Fu Xiangqin.

However, it feels so far, far away.

My youth, this will just begin.

Holding Fu Xiangqin's hand, when he let go, he still couldn't help but shed tears.

I feel that life is so cruel and helpless sometimes.

Send them away, go back to the house, and see that all your school registrations and so on have been completed. And the day after tomorrow is the day of school.

I suddenly had an uneasy feeling, this county is so small, I have been collecting waste for so long, will anyone among my classmates know me?

Will they really hate me?

……

When he helped his father clean up the table, he kept a shallow smile on his face.

I don't ask, and I know why he's laughing.

He laughed for the five thousand dollars.

I didn't ask for the 5,000 dollars, which was a great honor for him.

I know him, and although we haven't lived together for a long time, I can feel the purity of my father. He is the purest man I have ever met.

Whether it's character, or thought.

"Let's go take a nap. After he instructed me, he went to work in the courtyard with his crutches and the sun.

When I went out to help, he turned around and smiled and said, "Fei, be obedient, go to sleep......"

I didn't want to sleep, but when I saw the shallow inferiority in his eyes, I "laughed" and said, "Well, don't be too tired." ”

When my father heard this, he smiled brightly.

At some point, what people need is not help, but a kind of spiritual self-esteem and encouragement.

&

Back in the room, I couldn't wait to open the black plastic bag.

I counted thirteen letters.

It's been four years, and I always thought he was gone, but I didn't expect my brother to never forget me.

The envelope was dated and I opened the first one.

I sent it four years ago, shortly after he left. However, Xiao Liang obviously broke his promise, the envelope was opened, and he should have read the contents of the letter.

After pulling it out, I found that the content of the letter was very simple: "I am safe, and it has started now." ”

I looked at the simple line of words, and I was puzzled.

At the beginning, he and his father Lu Feng were forced to flee because of the * incident. This matter, including Zhang Liang, is known to them.

Second, third, fourth......

I looked at it one by one, and then, as if his experience in the past few years flashed in front of my eyes.

He went to Nanyun Province, because Nanyun Province was close to several chaotic countries in the south, and because his father Lu Feng was very strong, he was very open to his father over there.

His writing is relatively poor, after all, he has not gone to school, but although the handwriting is ugly, it is very serious, so it looks much easier to understand than Ah Zhu's suicide note.

The letter talked about a lot of things in life, and at the age of eighteen, he saw a lot of things that ordinary people couldn't see and couldn't understand, and he didn't tell me, just said that even if he told me, I couldn't understand it.

Indeed, I don't know anything about *. However, I knew he was still doing illegal things.

In the penultimate letter, he expressed a decadent state of mind, firstly because I had never replied to him, because he thought that I had treated him as a bad guy and did not want to contact him, and secondly, because the things he was facing were very difficult and he was in a dilemma and did not know what to do.

And the last letter, similar to the first one, is very short.

There are only a few simple words: "Fei Fei, I just write to you habitually." You'll be sixteen this year...... It's like seeing what you've become. It's just that it may be difficult in the future, and it will be difficult for you to find me. Brother, I miss you. ”

Looking at the simple letterhead, I carefully put it away, and then sat down at the head of the bed and fell into a quiet chaos.

I don't know what he's doing, I don't know what kind of things happened to him, I hate Zhang Liang a little, why didn't he write these letters to me earlier. Perhaps, he had already read it and knew that he would never be able to contact me again, so he gave me those letters......

The more I thought about it, the more angry I became, and my breathing was a little uncontrollable.

After standing up, pacing back and forth in the bedroom, how could I find him?

Trying, find an address left in his other letters, in Ruili County, Namun Province.

So I took out the pen and wrote him a letter, telling him my new address and my new life, and I hoped that when he would come back that day, he would come here to find me.

I'm not afraid of him, and I don't care what he does, I just know that I feel from the bottom of my heart that I need him. I didn't want him to disappear into my world, and it was a feeling from the beginning to the present.

That afternoon, the letter was sent.

I thought that after sending the letter, I would be somewhat comforted, but after sending it, my mood became even more depressed. It feels like there's just one more expectation, but one less hope.

Looking up at the sunset that was about to fall on the horizon, I suddenly felt an indescribable sense of loneliness.

Let's start school soon......

Let your studies enrich you.

&

The night before school started,

I didn't get much sleep all night.

If I was in the city, Fu Xiangqin would prepare my new clothes early for school, and would tie my braids, and then I would be happy and beautiful.

I also wanted to dress up decently and make an impression on my classmates. But what if they found out I was a?

For the first time, I realized that the so-called "face" is such a clear existence.

That night I decided to dress a little simpler, but when I woke up the next morning, I unconsciously went to grab something pretty.

My father told me to report on it.

When he saw me struggling in the room, he pushed open the door and came in.

Seeing that I had several clothes on the bed, I knew what I was thinking and asked, "I don't know which one to wear?"

"I... I don't know if it's pretty, or ......."

"Nowadays, I wear a school uniform to school, but when I first started not wearing a school uniform, I should dress up nicely. What girl doesn't love to be pretty?"

After hearing what he said, I reached out and picked up the beautiful pink dress.

&

There are a lot of people at the school gate.

When a tall boy like me appeared in No. 1 Middle School, it immediately became a small focus.

After all, I'm too tall, although there are many tall girls in the north, but I developed early, and there are still very few people who can grow to my size at that age.

When I saw their gazes, I regretted it a little.

Fathers all over the world love their daughters, and my father must want his daughters to be beautiful.

However, when I looked at the eyes of those classmates, there was obviously a kind of 'this girl is so beautiful, is the family very rich'.

It makes me very uneasy, a kind of mismatch, a kind of uneasiness.

When I went through a set of procedures and found the dormitory.

Dormitory for eight people.

I came late, they took up the bed early and went to class, I quickly found the top bunk in the corner, put things away, and went to the class.

There were already more than thirty people in the class.

As soon as I stepped into the classroom, it caused a small commotion, you know, I was already 1.75 meters in the third year of junior high school.

As soon as those long legs walked into the classroom, the boys' eyes lit up!

Then, I felt that I was so stupid to dress so beautifully.

If I go to school in the city, I will smile confidently. However, I heard a voice in my heart clearly.

"I hope you don't know me, and I hope you don't know my background. ”

That kind of extremely contradictory heart made me not know how to lift my head.

After the teacher arranged the seats, I panicked and went to the back seat and sat down.

There were more and more students, and when I sat in the back row, I saw many students in front of me looking back at me from time to time.

"Ahh......h

A cool thin boy, with a pure white T-shirt on his upper body, denim on his lower body, and slender legs on black and white canvas shoes, should be one meter eight tall.

He looked in from the doorway, gently brushed his hair down to his eyes, nodded to the teacher, and handed the form to the teacher.

The teacher gestured to the seat next to me.

He turned his head and saw me, then ...... The corners of his mouth smiled.

He is indeed very handsome, with straight eyebrows, bright eyes, sharp edges and corners, and a strong sense of three-dimensionality.

However, I don't like it.

I don't like that kind of cool drag... Little white face.

I'd rather my table mate be an honest guy than a bad kid.

"Which school did you go to before, I don't remember that there was such a person as you in the county junior high school......" He asked as he sat down and looked at me.

"I used to go to junior high school in the city. I looked down at the messy portrayal on my desk.

"What's your name?" he asked.

"My name is Murphy......"