The room finally fell silent.

Wei Zizhou held a bottle of beer, stood on the balcony, facing the window and drinking to himself.

It was as if there had never been an argument at all, or if it had been too frequent lately.

However, I can't forget the look in Xue Xiaotong's eyes when he left, as if he suppressed a great hatred for me.

Oh, yes......

She originally fantasized that she could go to the provincial capital and live a happy and sweet world with Zhang Yang, but she didn't want to be destroyed by me and Wei Zizhou.

Zhang Yang and Wei Zizhou have feelings after all, and the two quarrel and quarrel, but it is impossible to disperse if the relationship is said to be scattered. In the two days of the provincial capital, Zhang Yang must have been very depressed.

In order not to make Zhang Yang depressed, the first thing Xue Xiaotong did when he returned to Hongren County was to take Zhang Yang to Wei Zizhou, but he didn't expect to touch the ashes of his nose again.

Especially, when I yelled at her at the end to get out, she must have hated me to death.

……

Sort out the garbage on the table, put the leftover meat in the refrigerator, and clean up the mess with a broom.

Looking at the can I threw down on the ground, I felt guilty again.

Zhang Yang was still kind after all, and he kept pressing Xue Xiaotong to prevent her from talking nonsense. However, I was angry mainly because of Lu Li. If I had to choose again, I would have received that bank card directly when I saw Daoji.

Then, I won't see He Lily in the future, and I won't be depressed, angry, jealous, and uncomfortable like now......

After cleaning the floor, I saw that there was still a bottle on the table, but I couldn't drink it anymore.

Feeling a little dizzy, he walked to the balcony and stood beside Wei Zizhou.

The afternoon sun shone on the two of us, warm and warm......

Everything was quiet as if nothing had happened,

However, after a little awakening, it became clear that many things had changed.

Zhang Yang and Xue Xiaotong are no longer so easy to separate, and the future of Lu Li and He Baihe is not something I can speculate.

Love, in ways I didn't expect, changed in ways I didn't expect.

"I'm very depressed......" Wei Zizhou said softly.

"It's fine. "I said it very depressedly.

"Are you alright?" he asked rhetorically.

"It's not good, it's not good...... I didn't want to drink, but when he asked, I took a few sips of his wine.

He opened the window very depressed, and a cold wind blew in, making the already cold beer in his stomach even more cold to his heart. However, it is very comfortable to be cold.

"Zizhou, you said I was only a freshman in high school, but I almost got involved in nightclubs, drinking, and smoking...... Do you think I'm rubbish......" I asked.

Actually, I also want to think about me in Lu Li's eyes through his eyes.

"No one is the same. Although Zhang Yang may be a little naïve compared to the two of us, he is already more mature than many of his peers......" He involuntarily involved Zhang Yang.

I hurriedly pulled him back and said, "I'm talking about me, what kind of person do you think I am?"

"You?" he took back his beer, took a few sips, let the cold wind outside the window rush to him, and said with a cold gaze, "You are very good, but also very bitter." Sometimes, when you stand in front of me, I always have the feeling that you don't feel like a sixteen-year-old girl at all, but like a woman in her twenties. ”

"You're saying I'm not youthful, right? I said as I looked out the window at the withered trees.

"Mr. Xu looks at you professionally, and I look at you from life. I've lived with you for half a year, and I know better than him. Maybe it has something to do with your experience......"

"I feel like it has something to do with stress. I said with a wry smile. When I think of my father's illness, the medical expenses, and the dilapidated yard, I feel very bitter. Fortunately, there was Lu Li later.

"Why are you asking these questions suddenly?" Wei Zizhou turned his head and looked at me with concern.

At this moment, the two of us are like two people who cherish each other and lick each other's wounds.

"I want to know what I look like in Lu Li's eyes, it's the hardest time for people to see themselves clearly. I said helplessly.

"You're different in everyone's eyes. However, I think you are mainly trying to ask about love, which is a very selfish thing. Selfishness makes people breathless. However, it would be nice to grow up......" Wei Zizhou said as he closed the window.

"Why is it good to grow up?"

"Because you're a woman...... Later, you will get married, you will have children, and when you have children, your attention will shift to children. Of course, I'm talking about general, common phenomena, and I feel that the two of us will be different. He smiled and turned to walk inside.

I followed up and asked, "How is it different?" ”

He turned around helplessly, looked at me and said, "You know what? Everyone's growth is related to family. Your alternative family has shaped an alternative you, but my alternative family has also shaped a different me. Both of us think differently than the average person. We think of ourselves as mature, but, in the eyes of ordinary students, we are other people who don't know what to do...... Smoking, drinking, fighting, not learning...... If I hadn't followed the path of modeling, I would definitely be another copy of my father in the future. Gambling, opening casinos, and mixing social ......"

"What about me? What should I take?" I asked.

"If you learn modeling, you have unlimited potential in the future...... If you don't learn modeling, with Lu Li's sponsorship, you will slowly embark on an ordinary road of studying, taking exams, graduating, and getting married...... I don't need to tell you these things, you can imagine them yourself. As he spoke, he turned to go to his bedroom to sleep.

"Zizhou......" I called out to him.

He turned around slowly, and when he saw that there was something wrong with my expression, his eyes became a little more serious.

"What do you think...... What do you think of Lu Li?Do you think we will be possible?" I asked. Asked expectantly.

At that moment, I really want someone to tell me, it's okay! Lu Li loves you! It is impossible for Lu Li to be with He Baihe! Even if they live for a long time, Lu Li loves you!

"I don't know......" he said honestly. The gaze is honest.

"......" I listened and silently lowered my head.

A wave of disappointment was spreading, deep, deep......

"Mo Fei, I've seen a lot of people like Lu Li, and I've heard a lot of ......" He walked over slowly, stared at me very seriously, and said, "You must know that you can't go into a circle with him anyway." If he is an inconspicuous gangster, then he will have a way back into mainstream society...... However, when I see him today, and when I see that lily again, I know that he is no longer the Lu Li he used to be, and he is not the gangster he used to be...... He's supposed to be a drug lord now...... Do you know what a drug lord is? rich and powerful! an existence that anyone who sees it will be afraid of, but it is also an existence that can never live under the sun......

"I love him......" I said, looking up with tears in my eyes.

"Don't be stupid...... He can't be whitewashed, and you can't be black. He looked at me and said.

That light and serious gaze made me slowly sober up, and then, there was a burst of pain.

At that moment, I suddenly felt the cruelty of "impossible".

For the first time, I deeply experienced the helplessness of love and the heart-piercing pain!

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On the way home, I walked very slowly.

It was still a clear sky, but at the moment, it was cloudy......

The cold wind swept the residual leaves on the ground, and it came in gusts......

The sparse pedestrians on the road and the garbage swaying in the wind make people feel like they are in a long time ago.

Watch as the sand and dust fly up the sky, blurring the path in the distance......

I suddenly remembered my birth mother.

How old was he when he fell in love with the officer?

When he was accused of being "impossible" by so many people, what was it that grew in her heart and supported her to move forward?

Even if you go crazy, even if you are tortured, even if you die in the end, you have no hesitation?

When I think about it, I feel like I've really changed.

Once, I felt that since she was dead, then I should cherish the present and live without asking about the past.

But when I learned love, when I realized what a great thing she had done, I suddenly wanted to find out what the mystery was!

I'd love to know about all of her past!

……

At that moment, the wind and sand were pervasive......

I seemed to see a ragged woman in the distance......

That's the birth mother......

All the memories of youth, instantly evoked!

She carried my hand and wandered through the night, rummaging through the garbage cans.

She took me to sleep under the overpass, and screamed when she faced the homeless people!

She was crazy and screaming something I didn't understand......

She's a woman who loves crazy.

At this moment, in the wind and sand, she slowly turned around......

I stopped and just looked at her......

And she looked at me like that......

We all stretched out our hands to each other, and everything was empty.