I hugged Lu Li, but Lu Li didn't hug me.

He gave me a simple pat on the back and a little comfort.

When I let go of my hand, I looked up and saw a dark cloud on his face. It's very depressing.

Then, he took my hand, and for fear of disturbing my father, he quietly walked along the courtyard wall into the distance.

After stopping in front of a stone pier at the end of the field, he reached out and swept the snow away from it, and the two of them sat on the stone pier and quietly watched the snow in the field.

I asked him if he had received the letter I had sent him, and he said no, but the contents of the letter were relayed to him. That's why he came to Hongren County to look for me after a few months of brewing.

I told him that the letters he gave me in those years were all withheld by Zhang Liang, and he smiled disapprethoughtly and asked, is Zhang Liang still bullying me like before?

I said that Zhang Liang had changed and grown up, but I didn't tell him that Zhang Liang liked me.

From Zhang Liang, talked about Fu Xiangqin, from Fu Xiangqin to Li Sheng who was released from prison, and then from Li Sheng, his biological father Lao Mo was brought out.

I told him all about my father's misfortune and the medical expenses and the scams about the medical expenses.

When I told him this, I did have a desire to justify my depravity.

I don't want to explain to others, but for Lu Li, I really want to explain.

That kind of explanation is like trying to erase the dirty me in his heart, and that kind of explanation is to whitewash himself, trying to tell him that - I am pure - I want to be the pure Murphy in his heart.

However, as I spoke next to him, he became more and more absent-minded.

I noticed that it was a state that my father showed when I talked about how he picked up my mother.

Therefore, he didn't seem to listen to the self-exculpatory words at all. I kept looking at the snow in the field in the distance, and I was worried.

"Are you listening to what I just said?" I asked, turning my head.

"Hmm......" He frowned, slowly turned his head to look at me and said, "Just now you said that when your father met your biological mother, he was in Hongren County, right?"

"Yes, that's the season. I said.

"That's right......" He said to himself, lowered his head and raised his head, sighed, then turned his head to look at me and said, "Do you remember four years ago......?

"Remember, you gave me this ring that day, and I've always carried it. I said as I pulled it out of my chest and showed it to him.

After a smile and a satisfied look, he continued: "That time, my father and I fled directly to Hongren County, because the money was in that house, and it was sealed by the police and couldn't be taken out. My dad needed money, so he took me to Hongren County to find the leopard master......"

"I've heard Zizhou say this, but Zizhou was relatively small at that time, and I didn't know you, only your father. By the way, I've seen photos of your dad with his dad and the leopard at Zizhou's house...... The photo at the entrance of the Hangang City Hotel is the entrance of the nightclub. ”

"Yes, my dad was an old man with Leopard Ye and Wei Ye at that time, but ......," he said, the expression on his face even more twisted, "...... However, because of your biological mother's affairs, they were all forced to leave the Han River. ”

"Why?" I asked curiously.

"Four years ago, I followed my father to find the leopard master, and the two of them chatted about the things of the year, but there was very little information, I only knew that my father ran to prison and turned himself in to avoid the enemy, and at that time I also guessed that the leopard master came to Hongren County to hide from the enemy, but that day I learned that they came to the Han River to find a talent. That person is your biological mother, Su Xiaoguo......"

"What are they looking for my mother for?"

Lu Li took out a cigarette from his arms, lit it and glanced at me, hesitated for a moment and handed it over.

I shook my head and said, "I don't smoke." ”

I only think about smoking in that kind of place or when I'm with that group of people, and I rarely smoke on a regular basis. Perhaps, it's because I don't have any addiction to smoking.

After he took a puff, he frowned and said, "I didn't hear anything of value that time, but after I went to Nanyun Province with my father, I asked him when I had the opportunity, and he didn't want to tell me. But, at the thought that you must be wondering about that, I went a few more times, and finally one day he told me something. ”

"What did you tell you?"

"Listen to me slowly...... We were going to sell a very important shipment that day, and my dad felt that there might be an insider who betrayed us, but the buyer demanded that we go. I advised my dad not to go, because if you are not careful, you may even get killed, after all, the anti-narcotics police over there are too powerful......"

"Finally went?"

"Well, on the way, I asked about your birth mother again, and my dad probably had a premonition that he might die, so he told me something. He said that there was a very powerful person who came to them to do this, that is, to arrest your biological mother. The reason is that your biological mother fell in love with someone she shouldn't love. ”

When I heard this, I said, "Your father mentioned that person, that person's surname is Chu, and he is a very young officer...... My father also said that my mother has a tattoo on her belly, and she must have given birth to a child before, which should be related to the surname Chu. ”

"The one who asked my father to do bad things was not the one surnamed Chu, it was the wife surnamed Chu......"

"Does the guy surnamed Chu have a family?" I asked in surprise.

"I don't know, when my dad was talking, I never interrupted him, he said, the wife surnamed Chu came to Hanjiang to find your biological mother, your biological mother was pregnant at the time, and his wife surnamed Chu wanted to find someone to kill your biological mother. ”

"What's that man's name?"

"I don't know, the man didn't leave a name, but I heard my father say that the woman was quite ruthless...... The woman found Master Leopard, and at that time she knew that Master Leopard was running a brothel, so she wanted Master Leopard to take your biological mother to a brothel and spoil her. However, after the leopard master knew that your biological mother was pregnant, he did not agree...... At that time, my father was short of money, and after hearing about it, he discussed it with Wei Ye, and Wei Ye also wanted to do it, and in the end, all three of them obeyed the woman's instructions......"

When I said this, I saw that Lu Li's face was already very ugly.

He was embarrassed because his father was also one of the murderers.

"The reason why your biological mother went crazy is related to Lord Leopard, my father and Master Wei, in a sense, I am the son of your enemy......" He said, turning his head to look at me with some sadness.

Actually, he thought too much.

I've always known my biological mother's secrets, so many times, I'm guessing and thinking without a clue......

I've thought about all kinds of possibilities, whether it's good or bad.

From the beginning, I felt that she was a simple psychopath, but after meeting her father, I learned that my mother might have been driven crazy after listening to my father's memories. Because, she used to be normal for a while, and then she fell ill again. It is an intermittent onset after stimulation.

I heard my father say that when my mother was gentle, she would say kind things to make him loosen the rope.

However, when she let go, she would run, and she would run out several times, sometimes and sometimes she would come back on her own. Even when she was pregnant, she would run.

And when you finally run away, that's when you're about to give birth to me. After she went completely crazy that time, she began to wander around Hangang City, where no one was human, no ghost or ghost......

As for why she ran and what she ran out for, we don't know.

All the mysteries only reveal one corner after another, about the biological mother's lover surnamed Chu, about the woman who framed her, we don't know.

However, all the worst thoughts have already been thought of.

Since you can't figure it out, why bother with it and be cocooned?

I have thought that Zizhou's father is related to my biological mother, and I have definitely participated in it until Lu Feng, but I don't want to use the fault of my elders to compare our current relationship.

thereupon

I gently grabbed Li's arm, leaned my head lightly on his cold leather coat, looked at the quiet snow on the ground, listened to the cold wind in my ears, and said lightly:

"Brother, I know what you're thinking, but you have to know that you are my special existence in the world, and I don't want you to look at the relationship between us from another perspective because of the things of your elders. ”

"Really......"

"Well, don't people say that we want to 'live in the present'? the past cannot be changed, and the future has not yet come, so as long as we cherish each other in the present, we will be better in the future......" I said with a smile.

"Heh, you've learned everything. ”

"By the way, I still have a question, that is, since Master Leopard came to Hongren County and didn't find my biological mother, why didn't they return to the Han River later?"

"Maybe you can't go back, right? Or maybe it's something else, after all, Wei Ye has left ...... in the Han River."

"Didn't your dad tell you?"

"As soon as my dad finished talking about that, he answered the phone, and something happened shortly after answering the phone. Our car was forced to stop by plainclothes people on the mountain road, we abandoned the car and fled into the forest, and then, in order to get me to escape, my dad led the police away and was shot dead. He said.

When he said this, his expression was very indifferent, a kind of indifference to life and death.

There was no ups and downs in the words, but I was terrified when I listened to it.

The hand holding his arm tightened unconsciously.

"You know what? Later, after I settled down, I went back to the Han River to look for you, but I couldn't find ......" He saw that I was a little nervous, and changed his relaxed tone.

"Have you been to your mother, have you ever known anything about your mother?"

"I've been there, and I know it...... She's dead. Died of drug addiction. As he spoke, he lowered his head heavily, as if recalling Feng Yan's appearance, and the guilt in his eyes was very deep.

I wanted to say something to ease the atmosphere, but after thinking about it for a long time, I realized that in this kind of thing, there is no need to say anything to ease the atmosphere.

His guilt is for a lifetime.

It's a debt that no one can replace.

After he eased up for a while, he said in a light tone: "I found out through Mei Niang, I went to the labor market and saw that my mother's original door had changed, so I went to the bathing center to find that Mei Niang." Mei Niang told me the original story of my mother's death, and told me that you buried her. As he spoke, he turned to look at me, his eyes full of gratitude and affection.

"That's what I'm supposed to do. ”

"That day, Mei Niang also said that you would do what they did one day, and that you would go to her one day......"

"I went to her, and she wasn't as bad as we thought. I said.

Thinking of the words that Mei Niang "educated" me, I feel that she is much stronger than many so-called life coaches, she will not tell you that life is brilliant, she will only tell you what traps are in front of you. She will point it out to you very clearly, and then, whether you jump or not, and how you jump, is your own business.

"Well, I knew that woman was not simple, so I left her a contact information. ”

"I called, but it was a girl who took it. ”

"Oh, that's Lily, our sister of President He. As he spoke, a slight smile finally appeared on his face.

"Mr. He's sister?"

"Oh... It's just an ordinary girl. As if he had suddenly remembered something, he deliberately covered his eyes with a layer of frost, apparently not wanting me to mention the girl again.

I looked at his somewhat evasive gaze, and my own gaze changed.

After he keenly observed it, he hurriedly pulled his hand around me and explained: "My current identity is more complicated, I do it myself, I also follow Mr. He, and the interpersonal relationship is also very complicated, so I don't want you to know some of the things in this, knowing too much is very bad for you." ”

"Oh. When I heard him say this, my hanging heart also fell to the ground.

However, when I first landed, I suddenly asked myself: why do I have that feeling of hanging?

Why do I care so much about other girls around him? The kind of girl who even changes her expression when she talks......

At that moment, I suddenly realized that love is selfish.

Thinking of this, my heart seems to be blocked by something.

"What's wrong with you?" he asked cautiously when he saw the change in my face.

"It's okay...... But, brother, shall we not do this?" I turned my head and looked at him with a begging look. I was worried about his life and I was afraid that he would change.

After hearing this, his eyes dimmed in vain, "It's hard to turn back now." ”

"Don't you want to think about our mother, why did she choose to take drugs and drugs, why did she end her life in that way? She just wants you to stop going that way......

After he heard this, his gloomy eyes suddenly became firm, and he looked into the distance and said, "I also chose this path for her." ”

"Her intention was not to let you go down this path again, did you misunderstand?"

"Heh......" He suddenly smiled playfully, grabbed a ball of snow next to him and kneaded it in his hand, and said, "Let's not talk about this topic, okay?"

"Then you promised me that I would save my life. ”

"Look at you, and say......" He hugged me hard, stared at me with cheap eyes and asked, "Is that Wei Zizhou really your boyfriend?

"Uh...... yes, he's my boyfriend. I tilted my head and snickered.

"Really......" He lowered his head to meet my eyes.

I tilted my head to one side, "Really... Don't you think the two of us are a good match?...... Ahh

The back of his neck suddenly cooled, and he actually stuffed the kneaded snow egg directly into my neck!

"Hey!!" I jumped up and stomped my foot hard, but the snow egg couldn't shake off when it reached my waist!

I grabbed the snow from the ground and popped it in my face.

When he saw this, he immediately picked up the snow on the ground again, clutched it into a snow egg, and then stuffed it for me!

I was so scared that I immediately turned around and ran into the field!

He grabbed me, and I quickly bent down to grab the snow from the ground, and turned around and slapped him in the face.

He laughed and slapped the snow ball right on my head.

I run, he chases.

I picked up the snow and hit him, and he blocked the snow and slapped me......

"Haha!"

"Hah!"

With a tired stroke under his feet, the whole person lay in the snow nest,

Just as I was about to get up, he pounced on me and held me down!

That laughing face, staring at me panting, gradually... Gradually, I got serious......

The moonlight reflected the snow, the snow reflected his face, and his breath melted the snow on my face, and gradually melted my heart.

The thin and cold lips came closer and closer, and my heart began to swell......

When the lips were pressed together, I couldn't help but close my eyes.

The lips are a little cold, and a little stupid......

But I didn't kiss either, I was dumber than him, and I wanted to meet him, but the roots of my teeth were nervous......

The whole body was tense, and he couldn't move.

"I love you......"

I was 16 and he was 19......

In the snow nest, the first kiss.

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Thank you for your little heart!