After losing all of today's happy beans and eating the instant noodles, I burped, put a cigarette in my mouth, and put on the 20-kilogram weighted lead plate training suit, ready to go out for a run to empty my mind, after all, last night's abnormal behavior was really a bit unbelievable, causing me to return home for nearly a day and a night without closing my eyes to think about this problem.

After I went out, I threw the instant noodle bucket into the trash can on the street, when I heard someone behind me shouting to me: "Dou Bao, it's only four o'clock, what are you running, open the door, and I'll tell you something when I go back to the store." ”

I glanced at his obscene face, and said helplessly: "Something came back and said, I said, why do you want to go to the store, can't you go to Xiao Zhao, you kid won't plan to follow Lao Tzu's divine oil again, you said that you are only in your thirties, and you use that thing every day, see who you cry with when you run out of oil and the lamp is dry." ”

This person's nickname is Broken Finger, Natal Duan Zhi, extremely lustful, because of a mission to lust, resulting in the failure of the operation, in order to punish himself, he cut off a little thumb, he is equivalent to my agent, and the only external interface person in this team, greedy, philistine but ruthless.

Severed finger said: "That ticket did a good job last night, and the whole Z province was a sensation." ”

I flicked the cigarette butt out and said to him, "If I come back, I will talk about the praise, you go to Xiao Zhao and wait for me first, and I will move my body." ”

My shop is in a suburban university town, this living area is very large, but in our street, almost except for restaurants and hotels, we are not enemies of each other, because there are several universities here, and the business is very good, but my location is a little out of the way, not easy to find, but this is also in line with my heart.

The less hectic daytime gives me more time to squint.

Since I have lived here for a long time, I am very familiar with the security guards in the security department, and I said hello and went straight to the playground.

Today is the weekend, there are a few classmates on the track who are sweating, out of professional instinct, I know how to eliminate my sense of existence to the greatest extent, even if I meet the kind of girl with the big white rabbit on my chest to jump out during the run, I won't see much of the same.

Because I'm wiping a nosebleed.

That's why I love running in the college playground, it's so eye-catching.

Someone once said that people must always have a hobby, just like Teacher Yu's smoking, drinking, and perming of his hair.

Whether it's healthy: music, exercise, traveling, or eating a big meal.

Or vices: pornography, gambling, drugs.

You have to have something that makes you obsessed with it.

After a long day of traveling, you always need to do something to completely relax yourself to distract yourself from the worries of the day, at least force yourself to forget, or pretend to forget.

I won't say that kind of self-deception, tomorrow will be more terrible than today, and the days will not be better, they will only get worse, but we have to accept it and try to make ourselves happy.

I don't know how long it took or how many laps I ran, until it was a little darker, I stopped and lay down on the plastic track.

The students who were originally in the playground also left one after another and went straight to the cafeteria, if you go late, maybe your aunt won't shake your hands for you, and you won't be able to make much soup.

Because it had rained the day before, there were places on the runway where the water had not completely dried, and there was a puddle of dirty water next to me, and there was a terrible stench from soaking on the not very good quality plastic.

After a carp jumped up, he groped for a cigarette on his body, but before he could find it, he heard a pleasant girl's voice: "Are you looking for a cigarette, you are not allowed to smoke it here!"

I said, "I know, but the old smoker always makes this kind of action subconsciously, sorry, I'll leave now." ”

She smiled, it was sweet and cute.

Then he took out a box of Marlboro from his bag, handed it to me and said, "This is what I just bought, I just smoked one, I'm not used to it, I'll give it to you." ”

I frowned and took the cigarette, I didn't want to have anything to do with others for some reason, but I still couldn't help but ask: "You little girl, don't touch these things, it's not good or bad, it's just that it's a terrible thing to develop a dependence casually, and you have to get used to restraining that feeling." ”

What the hell was wrong with me, why was I talking to a stranger.

The girl's eyes revealed a hint of sadness, and she said to me: "I fell out of love today, and he went to study abroad. ”

I didn't say anything, but she didn't stop, and while watching the sunset, she said to me, "He likes to play, I'll accompany him, he likes to ride, I'll accompany him, and when he's gone, I want to go over and spend time with him." ”

The girl stopped, tears streaming down her face.

I asked her, "Then why are you still here?"

The girl said, "I wanted to go, I was wondering what he would smoke abroad, and if I could get used to the smell of him?" So I bought a pack of Marlboro, but when I took the first puff, I choked, and when I burst into tears, I realized that I didn't like the smell at all. Like, it's like I've always been with him to do something he likes, but none of those things I like, and what I want to do, has never happened. ”

I asked her, "What if he hadn't left?" ”

The girl looked at me and shook her head and said, "I don't know, I don't know when I'll find out, but the choking made me understand one thing: I liked him, it was the most sincere emotion in my heart, and I have never regretted it." However, it is too painful to like someone and be the one who gives, if I can, I will choose someone who likes me, because although love is equal, it is also selfish, and if there is such a person, I can enjoy what I like. ”

I've never been in love, so I don't know what it feels like, but when the girl said that, I distinctly felt that the aura emanating from her body had changed, and it had become a little scary.

Sure enough, love is the catalyst for changing nature.

After I sighed, I said to her, "Let's go, I know that there is a small hot pot in the canteen that is particularly delicious, I invite you." ”

The girl smiled and nodded, and then asked me, "I saw that your carp was stiff just now, and the things on your body are so heavy, you can still do this, it's amazing." ”

I smiled coldly in my heart, and I am a person who covets my beauty and does not pay attention to my soul, and there is only one sentence for this kind of delusional person:

"I'm sorry, no!"