It is often said that a woman in love has a lower IQ. Actually, we are not fools, we are just insecure, and we will keep asking our men: Do you love me?

Such a question, idiotic and boring, but a sweet expression.

And I don't need to ask, the answer is already clear in my chest.

One year is enough time for you to fall in love with me.

Those three immaculate encounters marked the successful completion of my initial plan. The second step is that I will disappear for a while, and I will be absent from your life for a while, which is half a month in my plan, neither long nor short, a month is too long, a week is too short, half a month is just right.

Originally, I planned to meet you when I came back, eat and sing together, drink with you in the dim darkness of KTV, and then pretend to be drunk and lay on your shoulder and whisper......

It's a pity that you wasted my good plan and didn't give it a chance to play.

What I didn't expect was that you couldn't bear it better than me, and refused to even give me the opportunity to take the initiative, but took the initiative to come to me first, and the moment I opened the door to see you, my smile was like a flower in fact to demonstrate to you: If love is a big gamble, then you lose! The person who fell in love first is destined to fall under the seesaw loser, and leaving the scene is your final destination.

Of course, I didn't understand what you wanted to say at my house that day, but deliberately turned a blind eye. People often say: Too easy to get feelings, men don't know how to cherish, I'm not afraid that you don't cherish me, I'm afraid that you don't love me enough, then my plan will fall short.

Later, I personally found an opportunity and a reason to give you peace of mind, so that you could justifiably propose a reunion.

That nightmare of mine in the middle of the night, that dream was real, I had such a dream before, but not the night I summoned you, but shortly after Summer Blue died.

In the dream, the child I was holding in my arms, at first, I couldn't tell whether it was the sun or the summer blue, until the last moment, when he grabbed my throat, I realized: he was the child of the summer blue. And the man who scared me in my dream, the blue-faced fanged monster, Lin Zijin, is it you?

After getting back together, I keep giving you all kinds of hints, the purpose is to make you worry about me, take the initiative to come to me, the more sweet love between us, the more you will be unable to forget me in the future.

Do you remember Chinese New Year's Eve?

The phone call book of the previous day was carefully designed by me, my weak and sensible, and my desire to stop talking, the purpose is to make you feel my loneliness and loneliness. And you, sure enough, took the bait and hurried over from your hometown thousands of miles away to accompany me for Chinese New Year's Eve.

The fireworks that night were full of fireworks, and the shy woman in the back seat of the car, are you still satisfied?

Of course, I have to mention Valentine's Day, where I colluded with lemongrass to design you. I deliberately asked Lemongrass to call you and tell you about my business trip and the misery of my Valentine's Day in a foreign land, and of course my ideal Valentine's Day.

Everything went smoothly and according to my plan. Of course, all thanks to your childish ego enough, step by step to follow my rhythm, and fall towards the trap I laid for you.

Is this Valentine's Day I send you memorable enough?

The green couple outfit, the glowing cat's ear headband, the hand-painted flag on the cheeks and the little girl, and the shade of the trees in the rain at the end of the show.......

Do you know why I gave you that watch as a Valentine's Day gift? I just want you to think of me when you raise your wrist, haha......

Finally, it is the goodbye before leaving, the perfect goodbye predetermined in my heart, but you don't know it.

That day, at the playground, I refused your request to ride the merry-go-round with me, do you know why? Because you are neither my Prince Charming nor my childhood playmate, for me, it represents the carefree time of my childhood, the fantasy of my adult life, and you are not worthy!

And the water skiing that day, do you know why I took me to such a dangerous sport? Actually, I have a serious fear of heights. In order to give you an unforgettable experience of falling from a height to the ground in an instant, I overcame my fear of heights.

At this moment, are you in the same mood as when you were skiing and falling that day? For me, it was like the last moment of my life, and what came to my mind was the happy time with my parents in my childhood.

Do you remember the day I told you that I like the sunset the most, and the scientific name of morning glory is sunset? At that time, I was ready to die, and my life was coming to an end, just like the splendor of the sunset that day, and the brief sparkle would eventually disappear into the sky.

I have avenged the sun and my parents, and my wish has been granted. In the end, what I want to do is to disappear into your life forever, so that you don't have time to say goodbye, too late to say goodbye, and let you spend the long and torturous years ahead alone with lifelong regrets and guilt!

You have to remember: you have blood on your hands, and all seven people have died because of you, the sun and her children, my mother, my dad, Xia Lan and her children, and me.

Lin Zijin: You forced me to embark on this desperate road, you owe a debt to our family, and we will continue to look for you in the next life and claim back the sins you owe.

Finally, I'll give you another secret: I've never loved you.

Every time you kiss me, I desperately convince myself in my heart to force myself, I am Mi Xiaoqi, I am Mi Xiaoqi, so that I can accept your kiss with peace of mind. However, every time I come home, I can't wait to brush my teeth, you know why, because I am disgusting, because I can't stand it, I don't want to wait for a moment, I just want to get rid of those kisses that make me feel disgusted and dirty as soon as possible.

Do you remember when I told you about the first time I drank beer?

Let me tell you: when I was ten years old, my good friend Echo fell in love with a boy in a wheelchair while on a picnic in the spring. Before she could get to know him, he had disappeared into the vast sea of golden rape flowers. Later, did she pull me to drink beer with her? Actually, I lied to you, the hero of this story is not Echo, it's me. The one who fell in love with the boy who was drawing on the edge of a rape field in a wheelchair was me Moon. I have never forgotten him, he is the person I love most in my life.

Lin Zijin, you lost to a boy in his teens, haha......

Isn't it ridiculous......

Lin Zijin, if you want to live a little better after my death, then let me tell you: You are dreaming! Don't try to do useless struggles, it will definitely be in vain, because even if you are a ghost, I will not let you go!

Perhaps, from the very beginning, there was a wide river between us, one on the left bank and the other on the right bank, like two parallel lines that could not meet for generations......

Maybe...... Maybe the next time you see me, it may be in your nightmare, or maybe I've turned into a ghost and haunts you.

Finally, I wish you no peace for the rest of your life and a lifetime of nightmares.

You're welcome!

The Moon's Crown"

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After reading the letter, Lin Zijin folded the letter, put it back in the envelope, and put it in his bag. Then, leaning back in his seat, he lit another cigarette.

Between the curling smoke, the moon on the side stared at the cigarette in Lin Zijin's hand, and she couldn't wait to grab it and smoke it, but she couldn't do it and couldn't smoke it, so she could only stare at it dryly, and there was nothing she could do.

For a long time, it was not until he finished smoking a pack of cigarettes that Lin Zijin started the car and left.