This is?

At first glance, this notepad taken out of the tin box is very old.

The outer skin style is the same as it was in the eighties and nineties of the last century, and the paper has been yellowed, but it is only well preserved because it is contained in a sealed and moisture-proof iron box.

This book shouldn't be a study notebook or anything like that, because there's usually not just one thing, and there's not much need to hide it that deep.

Of course, this thought was only a fleeting thought, and what was recorded in the notepad only had to be opened and looked at.

Putting the notepad on the table, Min Xue turned on the flashlight in one hand and flipped through it with the other.

Although the notepad is well preserved, the handwriting on it has finally faded with the passage of time, and it is barely legible.

The owner of the book may be a primary school student who is learning to write?

The font was very naïve at first, there were a lot of typos, and even many words that could not be written were replaced by circle symbols, so many sentences looked difficult to understand.

Fortunately, the owner of the notebook didn't want to express any profound literary thoughts, but just recorded some daily trivial matters, so Min Xue didn't have so much trouble reading.

After reading a few pages, Min Xue knew that this was not a primary school student's diary, but Li's mother's, because the perspective of the notes in the book was completely from the daily life of taking care of the Lei family.

Thinking that Lei Jinghui once mentioned that Li's mother was originally illiterate, but the old man taught her by hand later, Min Xue was also stunned.

At a glance and ten lines, Min Xue turns the page very quickly, not that he is not meticulous, but that Li Ma's vocabulary is limited, and the content expressed is very limited, often a few words are the content of a day, such as the following.

"The weather was fine, and Mr. I wrote a few words, so happy. ”

"Sir, you're really nice, and you'll tell me today. ”

"Today I gave Young Master Jing his favorite osmanthus ○. ”

"Young Master Jing is angry and worried about Mr. ○ today. ”

“......”

From these short and incomplete words, it is not difficult to see Mama Li's feelings for the Lei family.

At the back, Min Xue's page turning speed involuntarily slowed down, because as time passed, Li Ma knew more and more words, and the content of the record became richer and richer.

Of course, Mama Li is still writing about how Mr. is doing today and what is going on with Young Master Jing tomorrow most of the time, and rarely records her own situation.

When turning to a certain page, Min Xue suddenly paused.

"My heart is very messy, today Young Master Jing actually called me Mom, is it a joke?"

The content of this sentence is a little large, it seems that Mama Li has the idea of becoming a real family with the Lei family, otherwise she would not be upset by Lei Jinghui's words, I don't know if it is a joke.

If you think about Old Man Lei's reaction when he learned that Mama Li died, you know that Mama Li is not unilaterally self-inflicted.

Since Lang has a concubine, why haven't the two of them pierced this layer of window paper after so many years?

Min Xue continued to flip back, and in a large number of daily lives, a record finally appeared one day to give the answer.

"I know that I shouldn't think about it, I'm a married woman, and I don't have much culture, so I'm not worthy of Mr., not to mention that Mrs. pulled me in the most difficult time, how can I be sorry for her now and rob her of her position?"

Here's the answer...

After that, Li's mother's records gradually became fewer, from daily to weekly, and then to monthly, and she may not have written it once in the last two years.

But every record reflects her growing concern for her husband and her forbearance and suppression of her feelings.

The feelings have always been more and more depressed, and Li's mother is getting older, but her heart has not faded with time at all.

In order to make herself die, Li's mother decided not to record anymore, and sealed the notepad in an iron box and put it in the cellar, as if she also put a shackle on her heart.

It is not difficult to imagine the situation between the two, they both have each other's intentions, but they don't dare to show it, and it is quite embarrassing that decades have passed.

Think about the current large number of junior superiors, compared with Mama Li's restraint in the decades after the death of the original partner, one is radical and the other is conservative, and only I can understand the taste.

The time span of the notepad is very large, but it doesn't take long for Min Xue to roughly browse it, except for knowing a "sadomasochistic relationship", it seems that there are no clues to the case that he expected before?

Blind for a hidden plot item!

Min Xue put the notepad back in the tin box, put it on the table, and did not dispose of it easily, the value of this thing is worthless to most people, but for Li Ma and even Lei Lao, it must be worth more than a thousand gold.

Wait a minute!

Priced at more than a thousand gold?

Min Xue suddenly thought of something, he recalled the direction in which Mama Li crawled after falling, as if... It's really straight in the direction of the tin box!

So the motivation for Li's mother to crawl more than two meters in severe pain under a serious injury and near death may not be due to the coercion of the murderer, but out of the obsession in her heart?

Mama Li came to the cellar again, maybe just to take a look at this notepad again?

"Ding".

At this moment, Min Xue's mobile phone text message prompt sounded, and it was the result of the drug photo consultation just now.

It's fast enough!

Min Xue secretly praised his consulting object in his heart, the new forensic doctor Lu Mantong who arrived in Mr. Xing, is professional enough!

Forensic Doctor Lu conducted a large number of professional terminology analysis in the WeChat message, and Min Xuemian swept it with an unchanging glance.

In the end, he only came to one conclusion, that is, some of these drugs are mixed, and the main effect is anti-tumor, which is quite serious, and acts on the brain.

But from Lei Jinghui's "memoirs", there is no mention of this, which is not normal.

The only possibility is that Li's mother concealed her condition, and she deliberately put it in the middle of a large batch of medicine for fear of being discovered.

This shows that she knew that she was terminally ill, and in order not to worry the Lei family, she chose to bear it alone.

So what is it that makes an old man who is so sick have the idea of going down to the cellar alone?

With this feedback message confirmed, the matter must have been clear.

At the end of her life, Mama Li either wanted to reminisce about the past alone through the notepad, or she wanted to dispose of the notepad and let the secrets of her life become dust.

And Lu Mantong's feedback results also provide a possibility, that is, Sun Yong may really not be lying, and Mama Li really can't stand on her own and fall.

According to Lu Mantong's popular science, the visible symptoms of brain tumors are obvious vision loss, dizziness, headache, nausea, emaciation, and some will even be bedridden for a long time.

Presumably, Mama Li learned that she was suffering from this disease, and she didn't want to go to the hospital to suffer from radiochemotherapy when she was old, so while concealing her condition and giving up treatment, she was not worried that Old Man Lei had no one to take care of her, so she took Xiaomei over to take over her shift.

It should not be difficult to prove whether Mama Li fell into the cellar because of a sudden illness, as long as a special autopsy is conducted.