After struggling for a long time, I decided to be honest with you......

Because the work was not going well, I wanted to try full-time, so I opened a new book on the basis of this unfinished book, signed a certain Jiang, and was writing about Tanmei...... You should have seen that I was rotten (:3_ヽ)_ because there were several pairs of male CPs in Qingyunjian...... So I followed my heart to write about Tanmei...... Trying to use it to try to be a full-time author...... I originally thought that this week's update, that daily update (I want to use the book to make money at least to keep the daily update, otherwise there will be no one to bird you at all, in fact, to keep the daily update, it is likely that no one will bird you...... Then I lasted less than two months and found it hard to go on like this.

The direct reason is that my signed Tanmei novel has entered the charge, and I don't have a job and want to make money with it, so I tell myself that I have to change it every day, so I put more time and effort into that book, so that I can't take care of this one.

The fundamental reason is that I am not capable, I have just switched from hobby writing to full-time attempts, whether it is experience or speed, it is far from good, even the regulation of psychological pressure is a problem, I am very nervous, very scared, I stay up late every day, I am very scared, I am afraid that I will finally be proven by the market to be what I think I like the best and what I am best at, but so, the self-confidence that you have praised in the past is just your kind encouragement and support for me...... And I got caught up in this self-congratulation, thinking I could really do it......

Since the contracted Tanmei entered the fee, I want to write it every day to prove that I am real, I can do it full-time, as long as I want to do it, I am willing to do it, I am willing to make up my mind, and I am willing to put my mind to it, I can use the novels I wrote to support myself...... So I hollowed out my mind and was doing it, so that I simply didn't have more time and brain power to conceive a new chapter of Qingyunjian......

And Qingyunjian's book is not something that can be fooled casually...... I don't want to fool around, this is my own book, I've spent seven years writing a million words on and off book, as long as I'm alive, I can still spend ten or twenty years to finish it according to my heart, there's really no need to fool around.

But I know you're waiting for me.

If it's really just about me, I can put it there with peace of mind and bury my head in writing the beautiful love story that I use to make money...... But because I know that you still like the characters in my book and have been accompanying me and supporting me, I feel very uneasy to keep you waiting like this...... I feel very sorry for postponing the Saturday update time again and again, I don't want you to wait longer, and I don't want to disappoint you, but I feel that you still have to be disappointed in me if this continues, because the quality of the new chapters that have been held back is really poor...... I can't write the beginning of chapter 324...... It's a mess in my head......

I'm afraid that Xiao Yunzi and Master will collapse in my hands, and I'm more afraid than not being able to finish this book, so thinking about it today, I'd better be honest with you......

When I discussed it with my parents at the beginning of the year, my parents only gave me a year to try to be a full-time author, and during this time, they supported me, and I had no worries, I just had to give it a try. I have to give it my all. Now the competition in the online literature industry is too great, many people want to write and like to write, and I am just one of them.

I don't know if I'm a good fit, and I don't know if I'll be able to do it in a year's time, but writing a novel is my favorite thing to do, the thing I would most like to spend my time on, and if I have the opportunity to try it, I still want to try it. After all, I couldn't help but use the little time I used to squeeze out after work to write novels, and I couldn't help but write intermittently even if I was busy with work, making up my favorite plots, creating my favorite characters, and wanting readers to like my stories, like my characters, cry for them, and laugh for them......

I've said so much, one is that I want to apologize to you who chased my Qingyunjian book;The other is that I want to take a long vacation with you, selfish and incompetent, I want to try my best to try full-time, and I want to put it down temporarily, I'm sorry I slapped myself in the face again, and I let you down...... I'm really sorry, I'm sorry to disappoint you again and again...... It's Xiao Wing who is incompetent, can't do it and promises randomly, gives you hope and disappoints you.

The third is the last sentence, thank you for walking into my pit...... Ken looks, Ken chases, Ken likes the characters in my book...... Although you may regret it now, I really appreciate that you have been here and given me encouragement, support and companionship. My love for Qingyunjian was once the hottest and most sincere, and I believe you can feel it when I love it, it is soaked in Qingyunjian's repeated scrutiny and revision. If it weren't for love, I wouldn't have been able to make it to more than 300 chapters......

I will be back.

Maybe a year later, I tried to write full-time and wrote to death, and finally proved that I was not a full-time author, and I couldn't support myself and live the life I wanted by writing novels on my own, so I was kicked out of the house by my parents and obediently looked for a job, and I worked while intermittently finishing it after work as before, fulfilling my long-cherished wish, and giving you an explanation.

If there is a slight chance that I will really become a full-time author, I will adjust my mentality and write it with a more mature writing, so that the more efficient and faster me will give it a happy ending, so that every character in Qingyunjian will have a complete life, and draw a final end to it on the premise of not ending badly.

I'm afraid that you will scold me so I don't advertise the new book, and I'm afraid that I will disappoint you again, so I don't have a specific return date, I just hope that you can forgive me when I see it here.

I'm so sorry, and thank you so much for coming.

I'm selfish and incompetent, and I'm really sorry for some of the false praise I had in the past. I'm sorry for you.

I will cheer for what I like, and I wish you all the best in whatever you are doing, no matter what the future holds, but please do our best.

Ember Wings

2019.3.26