It was already early hour, and the sky and clouds outside the window had faded from the gray fog and blue, and became clear and distinct. The shadow of the flowers in the yard is reflected on the screen window, and when you look out from the house, you can vaguely see the spring color.

Yun Huai lay on the bed and opened his eyes slightly.

The red sleeves standing on the edge of the bed saw that she was awake, and hurriedly said: "Girl, today is a good day, the flowers are blooming outside, why don't you help the slave and maid help you out for a walk?"

Yun Huai thought for a while and said, "It's okay, take out the red pomegranate skirt in the cage." ”

She has been sick for a long time, and sometimes she doesn't even have the strength to eat, Red Sleeves really didn't expect her to agree, and she almost cried with joy for a while, but finally held back her tears, took out the pomegranate skirt pressed at the bottom of the box, and held it in front of Yun Hao.

Looking at the brightly colored pomegranate skirt in front of her, a trace of nostalgia flashed in Yun Hao's eyes, she lifted the brocade quilt, came to the red sleeves, and said softly: "Change clothes for me." ”

Redsleeves whispered.

The Luo skirt that was fitting back then is now worn on the body, and the belt is getting wider. Seeing the red sleeves tie the ribbon around her waist, Yun Hao's lips suddenly smiled a little: "It seems that in the past few years, I have cleared up." I thought that if I raised the decoction every day, I would be plump. ”

"The girl is gorgeous, not less than the year. ”

But this is true.

Before Yun Hao came out of the pavilion, he could have the name of Kyoto. At that time, because she liked to wear red dresses, she drank and gathered, and no one dared to wear red clothes when she was there. Then he married Duanwang as a continuation, although he never attended various flower banquets and poetry meetings, but because there was such a person in Kyoto, no one dared to be popular.

Now, even though she has been sick for a long time and has lost a lot, her hibiscus face has not damaged her beauty in the slightest, but has neutralized her too sharp color, making her look forward to the beauty of her gaze with more loveliness. It is just like a sick peony that has passed through the rain under the jade steps of Jintang.

Yun Hao listened, and his eyes were also dyed with two smiles. She sat down at the dresser, her thin, beautiful face reflected in the yellowed bronze mirror. She called Red Sleeves to come forward to pull the fairy bun for her, and traced her eyebrows in the bronze mirror and wiped the lipstick.

After the makeup was made, she looked at herself in the mirror obsessively, and a tide of hopeless sorrow surged up from the bottom of her heart. Red Sleeves said that she was gorgeous, and occasionally she was in better spirits, and when she sat under the window, she would also hear the little maids walking under the porch outside the window chatting, saying that although she was sick, she still had the posture of falling into the city.

But only she knows that her body has lost a lot, and I'm afraid she won't be able to survive this spring. When she dies, this gorgeous look of Kyoto is just a sand under her tombstone.

"Help me to the lake, and the peach blossoms by the lake will bloom." She stood up and said to Redsleeves. When she first entered the palace, Pei Yan and the gardener planted a peach tree by the Ruixue Lake in the palace.

She said to herself, one more look, one look would be enough.

The old dream is gone, and the flowers and trees still exist, which is also very good.

A look of unbearability flashed in the eyes of the red sleeves. She tightened her voice and said, "Concubine Ning...... I love pear blossoms, and now all the peach trees by the lake have been cut down......"

"Chopped?" Yun Hao repeated her words, her eyes became clearer, and her tone was still calm: "It's okay to chop." Zhu Yan's rhetoric is a short-term thing, and it's useless to keep it. Let's go to the lake, peach blossoms and pear blossoms, and it's all the same in the end. ”

The red sleeves lowered their eyes, put on a white fox cloak for her, and then carried her out of the yard. When she arrived at Ruixue Lake, Yun Hao suddenly stopped, she pressed the itch in her throat, and said to Red Sleeves: "Go and invite Pei Yan over." If he refuses to come to see me, you can ask him, do you remember the kindness of Yun Hao who sacrificed himself to save him when he was besieged in the palace? ”

Red Sleeves suddenly panicked in his heart. However, she couldn't grasp where this panic came from, so she could only nod heavily: "The slave and maid will go now, and the prince will definitely be invited." Girl, wait a minute. ”

Yun Hao nodded, after the red sleeves left, the itch that she had pressed before hit again, she covered her chest, a mouthful of blood spurted on the ground, and soon soaked into the dirt, leaving only the rust-like red floating on the surface, at a glance, there was no difference.

The late spring wind blows slowly from the surface of the lake, with a slight chill. In a trance, Yun Hao remembered that when she and Pei Yan first met that year, it seemed that the wind was also like this, blowing off the peach blossom in her hand.

......

When Pei Yan arrived at Ruixue Lake, he saw Yun Hao wearing a red Luo skirt and a white fox cloak outside, and the spring breeze blew her Luo skirt and danced, she stood there, her back was thin, as if she would ride the wind away in the next moment.

He was about to step forward and grab her.

But she turned her head. Then he came to his senses again, and said to her in a cold voice: "Twilight Spring is cold, you go back early." ”

Yun Hao sighed in his heart and said to Red Sleeves, "You go back first." ”

After the red sleeves retreated, she looked at the person seriously, and after a while, a withered smile suddenly bloomed on her lips, but her voice became brisk: "Pei Yan, I figured it out." ”

"Now all these things are what I forced to get, so you snub me, let the concubines in the palace bully me, frame me, and even poison me, all of which I deserve; you never believe that I did not harm Concubine Ning's children, nor do you believe that I am sincere to you, and I have nothing to say. ”

"But you shouldn't harm the lives of my Yun family, what I did alone, I will do it with all my might, why do you want to affect my family? You are really ruthless!"

Pei Yan frowned, and said softly: "You are weak, can't you leave these words until you go back to the house?" I'll send you back, huh?"

Yun Hao closed his eyes slightly and sighed, "You will always be like this." ”

Whether he is happy or angry, he is always so gentle, teaching people to see clearly, what he thinks in his heart. If it weren't for this, she wouldn't have planned in every possible way back then, just to marry him.

A gentleman is like jade, gentle and square. In her life, she had never seen such a person, and there seemed to be a gentle spring water between her eyebrows. When I looked at it with a pair of eyes, I brought the deep affection of the country and the city.

When she was a child, she often thought that she must grow up quickly, and when she grows up, she can marry a good family and no longer be bullied. From the first time she saw Pei Yan, she felt that she had been bumpy and thorny in her life, and her weak kinship might be just to meet him. She doesn't want to marry a good man, she just wants to marry him.

Therefore, she gave up her clothes and food for him, knelt in front of the monk's house full of autumn rain for three days and three nights, and finally begged the strategist to go out of the mountain; she entered and exited the barracks for him single-handedly, and said that the commander of the Imperial Forest Army who was defending Kyoto sent troops to rescue him from besieging the palace for several days; and she broke into Dali Temple for him to kill Xiaoxiao, and he was covered with blood and dirt to protect him from dust on his clothes, and his honor did not change.

She was really wrong, if she had known that because of her willfulness, she would have harmed the entire Yun family, she would definitely not marry him.

"Pei Yan, there is a sentence I have never asked you, but today I want to ask, has a person like you ever had a sincere heart?" Yun Hao took off his cloak and smiled miserably, "I hope you have it, but I hope you don't have it, I am afraid that you will have it, but I don't want to give it to me, and I want you to understand me, understand how I have loved you passionately and hopelessly all these years." ”

Yun Hao asked again: "Do you remember, when I first saw you, I wore this red dress." ”

Pei Yan bowed silently.

How can you not remember. At that time, under the peach blossom tree, she was the only one dressed in snow, and she was the only one in red. At that time, his friends next to him saw that his eyes were amazing, and said to him: "This is Yun Shangshu's beloved daughter, not only born with a brilliant color, but also played a good chess hand, well, Fang just won a game of Master Jiming, this time it is estimated that he came out to enjoy the flowers." ”

"What's the use of remembering?" Yun Hao glanced at him one last time, turned his head, faced the mighty lake breeze, and said lightly, "It's better to forget." ”

"If there is an afterlife, I only wish that what you want will be in the blink of an eye, and that glory and wealth will be a cage—" With that, she leaped forward, and her body sank into the icy lake in an instant. closed her eyes, and the last thing she remembered was what her grandmother said to her before she got married:

"When you are born in the world, you are like a turbulent river, never stopping to rush forward. No matter who you meet, what you meet, you must remember to move forward, only forward, you can understand that the people who have been left in the past do not have to worry. ”

But she didn't have the strength to move forward.

In this life, after all, she took the wrong path.