After the power rationing at night, it was raining outside, the decision to go to the Internet café suddenly swayed, I lay on the bed and hesitated to go to the Internet café, lay down for a while, I was about to fall asleep, and the insomnia symptoms that had been troubled for many days did not appear, and I remembered that I had not hesitated to come up with a result, so I quickly got up, sat on the bed and continued to hesitate, before the decision, I could not sleep easily, and finally I called her, and wanted to ask her if she wanted to eat, because I saw her QQ signature saying that she had no appetite today, if she answered yes, I would go out with an umbrella, and after going online, I would buy good things and hand them to her through the iron window of their dormitory, if she didn't want to, I don't go to the Internet café, after the phone gets through, there is no signal in a few seconds, so I sent a text message to ask her, but she hasn't replied for a long time, while waiting, I think of what happened these days, as if since I confessed to her, I have been a lot farther away from her, and I haven't been in touch with her much, I have expected this feeling, but when it really comes, I still feel unaccustomed, maybe if this continues, we will become the most familiar strangers, thinking about thinking that I actually fell asleep, the symptoms of insomnia have not yet appeared, I slept for a long time, suddenly the phone rang, pick it up and look, I have been asleep for half an hour, Finally waited for her message "Do you go outside to surf the Internet every day?" I looked at it, put down the phone, and pondered how to reply to this message, and fell asleep again when I was brewing, is today a suitable day for sleeping? This sleep is more than half an hour, and I vaguely remember that there are still text messages in the dream, so I woke up quickly, picked up the phone but didn't know what to reply, looked at the dark night, and couldn't help but be in a daze, what am I doing? Am I chasing a girl, or am I chasing a result? Her reply that day was very hazy, she didn't know if she would promise me in the future, she didn't know herself, she had never been in love, her heart was pure like a blank piece of paper, like an angel, why would I want a result? If I want to continue to chase her to show my insistence on her, then why don't I dare to contact her, for fear of disturbing her? Is it because I don't have confidence in myself? If my decision is to forget her, why do I keep thinking of her? What kind of entanglement is this? I suddenly became dazed, grabbed my phone and couldn't press it anymore, I couldn't write a word anymore, it turned out that I didn't even understand myself. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

The rain outside the window has long stopped, but I have no desire to go out to surf the Internet, get up and turn on the computer to update the dungeon, write a diary, but I still haven't figured out that question, I like her yes, but do I have to ask her to give me a result?

2010-05-21