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It's time for a life decision again. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

When I was younger, I naively thought that dreams were the most important thing, so I could give up money and work hard for it. But two years after graduating, after the baptism of work and the washing of social experience, my mind began to ossify, I pretended to look at all this deeply, worked hard, thinking that I had matured, but in fact I had walked in a lost path.

Every time I hear those children say that they want to be scientists and generals when they grow up, I think of my youthful dreams, although they are only the purest and most naïve thoughts, without considering any realistic factors. But from another point of view, it was precisely because the ideas at that time were not affected by the reality that they were able to conceive the future they really wanted. I was just an outsider in my life, but now I'm part of the puzzle, my vision is blurred and full of fog.

Do you really have to be locked up in an office for the rest of your life, looking through a computer screen at the beautiful world that you can touch just by walking out the door? I have asked myself this countless times, and I have given an answer countless times, but when I say it, my tone is never firm enough.

A year and a half ago, for the first time, I gave myself a clear answer. At that time, I quit my job without hesitation and wanted to live a life of traveling the world and writing freely, but the result of that book was a fiasco. That resignation was a youthful and impulsive move, regardless of the consequences, somewhat irresponsible, and after that incident, I should have become mature and wise, and not do anything that I am not sure of. But now, I'm faced with the same choice.

Everyone has to choose countless times, and I thought that the best choice was not to repeat the mistakes of the past. But since ancient times, people's minds have been in conflict with each other, and behind the repetition of the mistakes of the past is precisely the chest of the comeback. Now, I want to turn around and look at my chest, as long as the hot heart in my chest is still beating, then this thought will not die, just like the heart of the Sand Thief, it will exist forever.

But this time, the time is much more ripe than last time. The cost of writing this book is roughly the same as the current salary, but it is not as stable as the job, the job will keep rising, the salary is getting higher and higher every year, and writing the book is full of uncertainty. But I still want to try it, and in the state of work, I can't go all out to sprint this book, and my work will suffer.

One person can't do two things well, and I only want to do one thing in my life.