The world is impermanent2013-9-620:13

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Today, I wrote 9,000 words at home for a day, and tonight this book will exceed 1 million words, becoming my second novel to break 1 million words. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info In a blink of an eye, this book has been written for 6 months, almost half a year, and it seems that there has not been a day off during this period, and it is updated every day.

Sitting in front of a computer is actually a hard job, whether it's developing games in the past or writing full-time now. A computer is like a constant radiator that continues to radiate your life. Recently, my eyes have been very uncomfortable, and the whites of my eyes are covered with bloodshots, which looks very scary.

When I finished the third chapter today, I suddenly heard my sister say that Li Kaifu had lymphoma.

In fact, I admire Kai-Fu Lee more, although he has recently been troubled by events such as the well-known big V, but no one is perfect, and everyone has their own advantages and disadvantages. He often writes about science and technology on Weibo, and he is also very approachable, and I often read his Weibo. Unexpectedly, such a normal person was diagnosed with cancer.

Presumably at this moment, when I write this journal, Li Kaifu may be enduring the most painful torment in his life, no matter how much encouragement and cheer from outsiders, it can only cover a layer of armor on the outside, but deep in the weak heart, no one can touch it, only heals himself. There have been many times when I have suspected that I have a terminal illness, and I can't put into words, you feel that the world around you is getting farther and farther away from you, and all the people standing around you seem to be no longer in the same world as you.

Kai-Fu Lee posted a Weibo today, lamenting the impermanence of the world. Indeed, things are impermanent after all, no one can predict what will happen in the next moment, and some things that could have been expected may not be done because of some will.

Before I left my job, I thought about leaving this city with cancer cells floating in the air, away from this noisy source of pollution, returning to my hometown, watching the clouds roll up, flowers blooming and falling, raising a dog and cat, feeding a bunch of chickens, going to the old forest of Moriyama every day for a run, writing novels, and living a leisurely life. But when I actually left my job, I found that I was still in the city, and I hadn't started to act, and I didn't do what I expected to do, and it was more than a month in the blink of an eye. I used to fantasize that I shouldn't spend so much time in front of the computer every day, I should go to exercise, run, swim, but now I don't do any of that.

suddenly remembered the sentence in the promotional video of Sword Network 3, "Heaven is not permanent, and Zhou Xing is not slack." "That's a really good thing to say, the way of heaven is indeed impermanent, and we are just cautious and walking on thin ice in this world.

Speaking of Sword Net 3, I haven't played it in a long time. A while ago, I received a cricket's WeChat.,She said she misses 2010 very much.,When we were still playing together.,Now I don't even remember that account.,I actually admire her.,You can play in a game for so long.,Look at a familiar person AFK.,Forever gray.,And watching a strange face arrive.,If it's me.,I guess I can't stand it.。

I re-downloaded Sword Net III today. I just went up and walked around, and found that Yangzhou had become night, and there was a layer of shadows everywhere, no longer the bright spring appearance of the beginning. It's been 9 months since I've played this game, and those friends were my closest friends at the beginning, but now I don't know where to go, and when I open the guild list, only a few people are online, and the friends list is gray. Walking in that night, looking at the bustling and crowded world, there is no one who knows, the rivers and lakes are still noisy, but I always feel that it is no longer lively. I still remember last summer, there was a girl who played Sword Net 3 and loved me very much, but I had a bad temper and let her down. Now she doesn't play anymore, and now I'm the only one who walks with her.

In fact, AFK is not bad, at least you can come back to see, at least you can walk in the green shade of Yangzhou, and recall those past things and people. I remember when I first AFK, there was a player who was also terminally ill and died, and later his image was made into an NPC, standing forever in the beautiful sea of flowers in the Valley of Ten Thousand Flowers, which touched many players. In fact, there are many things in this world that you can't control.

It's been a long time since I've written a diary, but it's been written for a long time and it doesn't feel like a diary. At this moment, people are coming and going outside the window, and a piercing ambulance alarm bell is whistling by, we are all in this world, and everything is impermanent.