Tian Sen went to the carport to push his bicycle,

When I was on my way to our shuttle bus shed, I thought that I couldn't go home so easily tonight, and that it would have to take a little longer to get the show going.

So, I stepped on the chain of the car, and after a few moves back and forward, I saw that the chain had fallen.

Pushing the car, I walked out of the carport quite weakly. I feel like I'm really a little bit of a kid's play for this "love".

However, it is said that women chase men, and Tian Sen has confessed to me again, so determining the relationship should be just a matter of words for the two of us, right?

After pushing the cart out of the school gate, he rode up from behind.

Turning his head again, he saw Zhang Liang and the mouse riding a bicycle and ran forward, turning back as he rode and saying, "You let Tian Sen send you back! I'll go to have supper with the mouse!"

"Got it, don't come home too late!" I said aloud.

At that moment, he was even more suspicious of Zhang Liang's relationship with Tian Sen, he even said that he would let Tian Sen send me home, and the last time he drank, he also said that I was in love with Tian Sen, and he would not object.

Could it be that he and Mr. Zheng know each other?

Could it be that Mr. Zheng arranged for him to do that?

No, no, no, I must have thought too much, he can't be so familiar with Mr. Zheng......

"The chain of your car fell off......" After Tian Sen rushed over, he lowered his body to help me repair it.

"Don't get it, I just want to go for a walk. I stopped him.

"Then you have to fix it...... Zhang Liang is so tao, he may not be able to repair it. As he spoke, he crouched down and fixed my car.

The students who passed by looked at the two of us, and there was a different taste in their eyes. Like envy, like jealousy.

I know that Tian Sen is a real school grass level, and I have heard the girls in the class talk about him, such a school grass repairs my dirty car chain in public. Seeing him so attentive, and then thinking of wanting to lie to him tonight, there was an indescribable feeling in my heart.

"Alright......" he said, shaking his foot off the car, looking up and smiling.

I took out the toilet paper I had prepared and handed it to him to wipe his hands, "Thank you." ”

"Thank you for what...... Let's go. ”

"Oh. "I said and got on my bike.

"Didn't you say you wanted to go?" he called out to me, "I'll walk with you tonight." ”

"Okay......" I replied and pushed my bike forward step by step.

And Qingfeng drove in front to lead the way as usual.

After seeing us pushing our bicycles, they turned into an intersection and stood at the intersection to guard.

"It's getting colder. He looked up at the dark night sky and said.

At that moment, the street lamp shone on his raised face, the contours were clear, the hair was thick, and even the eyelashes were clearly visible.

When he saw me look at him, his dark eyes turned to me curiously and asked, "You're a little different tonight." ”

I hurriedly turned my head and looked at the road ahead, feeling a strange entanglement in my heart.

Am I going to be in love with him?

What would it be like if I were in love with him?

"Murphy?" he stopped when he saw that I didn't speak.

"Huh?" I turned to look at him.

"Do you have something to say to me?" he said, his eyes beginning to grow a little lonely.

"Well, there is. I said.

When he heard this, he lowered his head slightly, leaned over and said, "Don't you like me very much?" You don't like me to send you home, you don't like me talking to you, and you don't like me pestering you so much. ”

I shook my head and said, "It's not that I don't like it, it's ......" I said, and began to speak, thinking of some deceptive words in my head, but under the gaze of his sincere eyes, they all slowly faded, and finally I could only say bluntly: "It's not that I don't like it, it's that I don't dare to like it, I always think you are poisonous." ”

"What?" said a familiar and good-looking grin on his lips.

"Nothing. With that, I pushed the car and continued on my way.

He happily caught up: "What do you mean? You don't hate me, do you?"

"Hmm......" I replied simply. I would have said I hated it before, but now I can't say it. On the contrary, I am going to be close to him now, and I can't let him notice it yet.

"I knew you weren't hard-hearted. He said happily.

"Put my bag in the basket, you're so tired with it hanging on your shoulder. I said.

He sent the bag up again, and said with a smile: "No, I like this feeling, it feels like carrying your schoolbag on your back." ”

"Can you not be so sensitive......" I said with a smile.

"Hehe, okay. He stopped the words with a smile.

When I saw that he didn't speak, I felt that I was too cold to do it, and I wanted to be half cold and half hot. Moreover, if you want to confirm the relationship with him tonight, how can you not speak?

"Tian Sen, you...... Haven't you really talked about a girlfriend before?" I asked. As long as this problem is pulled out, it should be possible to determine the relationship with the boat along the water, right?

"Nope. What about you? Did you lie to me last time you said you had a boyfriend?" he asked.

"I... I don't have a boyfriend, and I didn't think about falling in love in high school. As I spoke, Lu Li's appearance unconsciously appeared in my mind.

If Lu Li knew that I was "in love" with Tian Sen, he would be very angry and sad, right?

However, he and He Baihe are both engaged, and when he compares it like this, his heart suddenly feels a little more comfortable. If he really knew, I would tell him the truth. I was also forced. was forced by the police, forced by Mr. Zheng, and forced by the reality to fall in love with Tian Sen......

"I don't know how much time I have left, but I want to be around you more in the limited time. He suddenly said coldly.

Turning his head, I saw a slight sadness in his expression.

"What did you just say?", I asked.

"Oh...... It means that I want to care about you well and be by your side. He said with a slightly embarrassed smile.

I knew what he was covering, but I was too embarrassed to ask.

"Do you really like me?" I asked.

"Don't you feel it?" he asked softly.

"Yes......" I said, pausing in my tracks. I wanted to try to say something to deceive him, but when I looked at him under the street lamp, at the quiet face, and at his flickering eyelashes, it seemed as if all lies would be added with a layer of sin. I can't say it, and I'm afraid that as soon as I say it, I will disturb my inner turmoil.

"I really like you, but I'm scared to have you. He turned around and half-leaned back on his bike, staring at me with a look on his face.

I never thought that an eighteen-year-old boy would have such pure eyes, there was no impurity in those eyes, only pure love and pain.

"Why are you afraid to have me?"

"Heh......" he smiled without replying.

A couple suddenly passed by us, the boy buttoned the girl's back hat to his head, and the girl hugged him affectionately, and then snuggled past us.

We both looked at them in unison, I didn't know what was going on in his mind, but, for me, I didn't envy, only tangled.

Thinking of last winter, thinking of the snowy night I spent with Lu Li, thinking of me and him snuggling up to each other and kissing each other at Wei Zizhou's house.

The moment lips touch each other, many memories go blank.

I still remember the warmth on his lips clearly, but at this moment, I was facing such a quiet feeling.

A feeling that I knew I would be poisoned if I got it, but I had to touch it.

"Let's go......" he said, pushing the bike.

I stood still and didn't move, my fingers felt the coldness of the handlebars of the bicycle, and I mustered up the courage to look at his back and say, "Tian Sen, I like you too." ”

He suddenly stopped where he was.

When the wind blew on a winter night, I suddenly felt that it was cruel to do so.

Cruel to him, cruel to Lu Li, cruel to me.

At that moment, I realized that the physical damage was really not as good as the mental damage.

I now seem to be able to meet Tian Sen's pain when he realizes that all this is a lie one day, it must be very painful, very painful.

He turned around slowly, tears were flowing in his eyes, stared at me seriously, hooked his feet and parked the bicycle, and leaned over step by step.

"You ......," he looked at me in disbelief.

"Actually, I've been avoiding my heart all the time. However, today I don't want to avoid it, I want to face you, face my heart, I like you, I like it. I "confessed" and said.

It's just that at that moment, I couldn't tell if it was a lie or an illusion.

There is pain circulating in my heart, but there is also desire surging.

"Thank you......" he suddenly hugged me across the bike, "Thank you... Murphy, trust me, I'm going to treat you well......"

"I... Oh......"

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I forgot how I got back that night, and how I said goodbye.

My mind went blank for a while, and I just remember that after going home and turning off the lights, I cried under the covers.

Even if I knew that I was deceiving Tian Sen, even if I gave countless reasons for this deception, I always felt sorry for Lu Li.

And in that sorry, there is more of a feeling that I have been obsessed with for so many years.

When I was young, I realized for the first time that human emotions are so complex.

Moreover, reality never follows our fantasies. It always gives us war when we need it most.

It's just that I will continue this lie for as long as I want in the future.

Finally, do I have the courage to expose this lie......