Suddenly, Lin Zijin got up and went out.

After waiting for a long time and not seeing him come back, the moon quietly got out of bed, looking around and calling: "Zijin ......"

He snuffed out the half-burning cigarette butt in his hand, pushed open the balcony door, walked into the house, and answered, "Here I am." ”

"I thought you were gone!"

"No! just come out and smoke a cigarette. ”

"Zijin, stay with me, okay?"

Since he came, he didn't plan to leave immediately, but he couldn't open his mouth and offered to stay, and the moon's words gave him a step, and he agreed casually: "Well." ”

She didn't know: on such a quiet night, lonely men and widows are in the same room, or old lovers, it is easy to spark. It's just that nights like this are too lonely and scary for her, and she needs someone to keep her company.

The two of them moved chairs and sat on the balcony with a cool night breeze and chatted.

"Zijin, do you know how to play the guitar?"

The moon was the first to break the silence, she was afraid that such affection, such tenderness, would overwhelm them in a moment, as turbulent and surging as in the bedroom just now.

"No, it won't. ”

"Let's learn together, shall we?"

Lin Zijin smiled lightly and responded: "Okay, why did you suddenly think of learning guitar?"

"I suddenly wanted to do something that I had always wanted to do, but was so constrained by all kinds of constraints that I didn't put into action, like learning to play the guitar. ”

"Hmm. ”

"Do you know? I especially envy the girls who sing with guitars on TV, their literary style, their freedom and ease, their unrestrainedness, their enthusiasm and cheerfulness infect me, and even make me have an impulse to leave everything behind and wander, but unfortunately I am an ordinary man after all, with too many ties, too many responsibilities, destined to not be able to wander the world, unable to go to distant places. ”

The moon remembered those beautiful girls and their beautiful voices, how many times it warmed her heart that was about to be stiff as a stone.

She could only simply admire, watching them fly freely, fluttering their wings like birds across the sky and disappearing in front of her eyes.

And she couldn't do anything, she could only secretly dream and imagine in her heart, and find a free direction and wide mountains and rivers in their songs.

This time, even if she still can't sail freely, at least she can choose to sing freely, looking for the direction of the future and the wings of happiness in her own singing.

"And what about those handsome guys who hold guitars and play and sing?"

Looking at her intoxicated expression made him jealous: the girl with the guitar still made her so excited, what if she changed to a handsome guy?

Lin Zijin began to regret why he didn't learn to play the guitar in college.

"Well....... I ......"

She dragged out a long tail note, intending to tease him, but turned her face and found that the tenderness in his eyes was like the fragrance of boating on the lotus pond in the dark night and the reflection of a crescent moon on the water.

"If you want to be rated, then you are a full score of haute couture, only for me to exist! Other handsome guys, in my eyes, are at best assembly line products, mass production and sales are very good, but not exquisite enough, not a unique existence in this world, so I can barely give a three-star bar, you are the undisputed five-star. ”

Lin Zijin's calm heart was like a hailstone, hitting his heart fiercely, and the ....... couldn't be calmed down for a long time.

"Xiao Qi, it turns out that you, like me, still have a hot heart, youthful, let me tell you a story!"

"Yes!" the moon responded happily.

"For a while, everyone was popular to "re-walk youth", men and women, young and old, all wanted to grab the tail of youth, and then live a fearless and courageous youth, crying happily, laughing heartlessly, heartless and heartless, and straight into the heart of sadness!"

"Well, I remember! It seems to have originated from a TV series. ”

"I have a classmate, at a party, he told us that he gave up the high-paying position he already had, and the life in the city where he had stabilized, and went to the far south, a strange big city to find a new job, and planned to adjust for a while, ride a bicycle, visit the great rivers and mountains of the motherland, and enjoy the beautiful scenery that we once missed along the way!"

"Ahh

He told us that he wanted to "regain his youth" to make up for the madness and excessive precociousness and calmness that he had not had in his youth. His family conditions are not good, he took out a loan to go to college, in addition to low self-esteem or inferiority complex in college, only by burying himself in his studies endlessly can he give him some happiness and balance. After graduating, he paid off his loan and bought a house with a loan with his own hands. ”

"Your classmates are amazing!"

Just when his family was proud of his small success, for him to finally earn enough face for his family, and to have a small sky of his own in the city, when his classmates and friends envied his high salary, and applauded him for his hard work and sweat finally being rewarded, he was like a clockwork that had been wound up, and he kept turning tirelessly until he felt exhausted, physically and mentally exhausted, and he was already overwhelmed, but he couldn't stop under the action of inertia like a spinning top. In the end, he chose to start over, to do what he wanted to do, to live only for himself, no longer for his family, no longer for fame and fortune. ”

"Your classmates are very brave! In other words, I may not have such courage, just to give up a stable life for happiness, especially the house I bought, which is my own comfortable nest and my own warm little home!"

"Xiao Qi, not everyone dares to interrupt the not so beautiful or even somewhat uncomfortable past, not everyone has the courage to start over, just like the old saying: It is better to be broken than to be complete. It's always so simple to talk about it, and when you really put it into action, you will find it so difficult, so difficult that you can't imagine, so difficult that you spend more time and energy to suffer, to chew on the fragmented past, until they become fine residues and are swallowed with difficulty. ”

Lin Zijin's words were eloquent, and the moon almost cried.

For a long time, the emotions suppressed in her heart, those pains, those struggles, those loneliness, those loneliness, all of them tortured her sensitive and fragile nerves, her loneliness, her helplessness, her tears, her nightmares, and finally someone could understand, understand, comfort herself, and iron her already wrinkled heart.

"Xiao Qi, let's start over, shall we?"

Lin Zijin's eyes looking at the moon were full of tenderness and sweetness, which instantly submerged her will.

"Zijin, are you sure you want to do this?"

"Xiao Qi, no matter what the future holds, whether it is difficult or difficult, I just want to be by your side all the way. ”

At this moment, the power of action is far greater than the paleness of words, and the moon nodded vigorously.

Who can stop the pace of love, it doesn't ask whether it's right or wrong, no matter the reason, it only cares about their hearts, whether they care about each other, and they still can't let go of each other.

As for the past, let the past pass, and start over is not a more magnificent landscape.

"Xiao Qi, I heard that learning guitar is very hard!"

"I know, I have a friend who did. When I was learning guitar, he told me that my fingers were full of blisters and my palms were full of calluses. ”

"Xiao Qi, when we have learned, we will sit side by side on the long steps of the park, on the grass by the river, in the woods in the mountains, on the beach by the sea, before dawn, when the sun sets, we play the guitar and sing together, and have simple happiness, no worries, no sorrows. ”

Such a beautiful vision is Lin Zijin's yearning for the future life, and it is also the moon's.

She didn't tell him that if he was a big tree in the forest, deeply rooted in the earth, growing strong and straight towards the sky, then she would never be that dwarf bush, let alone a climbing plant that clinged to his big tree, and she would also strive to grow into a big tree, not necessarily towering to the sky, but able to move forward side by side with him, no longer looking up.

"Then aren't we two angry young men holding guitars and singing loudly?"

"Two fools, two madmen. ”

That night, sleepless night, the two moved all the way from the balcony to the sofa, snuggled quietly together, watched TV and chatted until dawn.