Lu Yan patted Qin Xiaoran's back while holding one of her hands, groping for the thick cocoon layer and boring old skin on his hand, and sighed softly.

"When you're a little older, you know how to do things for your family, and you don't know how to maintain them, look at what this hand looks like. ”

The scar on the palm of his hand was scabbed over, tired on the thick cocoon, Qin Xiaoran didn't feel anything at first, until he heard what Lu Yan said, he suddenly retracted his hand and hid it behind him like an electric shock, and shook his shoulders with twitching.

Qin Xiaoran is most afraid of others looking at her hands and picking on her appearance, she is especially envious of those glamorous little girls, when she was in college, she was beaten by others for not wearing makeup, but Qin Xiaoran could only keep her head down, as if she couldn't hear it.

Temporary promotions in shopping malls are one of the few jobs that recruit child laborers. Every weekend, Qin Xiaoran would go to various shopping malls to find part-time jobs for temporary promotions, wear masks to cover most of her face, shout in the crowd of people coming and going with a sharp voice, hold the plate in her hand, and keep repeating the action of pouring water or cutting things for people.

The mall is full of things, especially cosmetics and skincare products, and all kinds of clothes and bags hang there, mixed with the fragrance and exude a charming glow.

The work is extremely tiring, and it is often about ten hours at a time. Qin Xiaoran's favorite thing is that she can squat down and drink saliva when she is resting, she doesn't care about food at noon, squats down and nibbles on a pack of instant noodles when her partner goes out to eat, looks at the beauty counter in the mall and is stunned, fantasizing that she will one day become a customer in front of the counter, carrying a beautiful bag dressed up, arrogantly taking the bag in the hands of the clerk, dreaming for a while, and then getting up and walking to the place where people come and continuing to work hard to promote.

"I'm disobedient, I always quarrel with my mother, but I'm also obedient, and the teachers say I'm a sensible and good child......"

The aura on Lu Yan's body was very soft, Qin Xiaoran uneasily put her hands behind her back, involuntarily rubbed against Lu Yan's body, sniffed, and suddenly said something that didn't match her.

Lu Yan took her hand, smiled at Qin Xiaoran and shook her head, Qin Xiaoran looked anxious, pointed at herself, and made a dejected expression.

"It's true, I didn't lie to you. At first, my mother always felt that work delayed my studies, so we quarreled because of this, and then my mother always didn't take my money and didn't let me buy things for the family, I think it was because she respected me, and we quarreled again. Qin Xiaoran grinned, but desperately denied it, took out another hand and raised it, wiping a handful of tears.

Mother, like most adults, always likes to say that these things are a waste of time at the beginning, and she doesn't want to get the money in front of Qin Xiaoran, so she found a job as a waitress in a restaurant outside, working tirelessly, and supporting her two children with a pitiful salary.

At the beginning, Qin Xiaoran's mother was the most distressed about Qin Xiaoran's work, and she always felt ashamed of her, and after arguing with her, she hugged her and her little sister and cried, and bought a little thing for the two children as much as possible to make up for the uneasiness in her heart, until she got used to it later, and gradually became accustomed to it, and it became natural to see Qin Xiaoran working.

Habit is really the scariest thing in this world.

This major in this university does not need money to be subsidized, and after the college entrance examination, Qin Xiaoran achieved good results, hesitated and repeatedly entered the name of the university that he had liked for a long time on the paper, felt a little lost, turned his head, and shouted to his mother in the living room.

"Mom, the original college tuition is too expensive! I'm not going! I'm going to our provincial normal school, I don't need money!"

The mother in the living room was chatting with others on her mobile phone, and when she heard the call of her eldest daughter, she responded casually, without raising her eyelids, and did not notice that Qin Xiaoran in the bedroom quieted down and did not speak for a long time.

"In my four years of college, I didn't let my family take a penny. On the contrary, I was afraid that my sister would be ridiculed by my classmates like me, and I often bought her things and tried to give her the best I could. Qin Xiaoran shook her head desperately in Lu Yan's arms, her mouth kept yelling, she was out of breath crying, and she had to talk intermittently.

"Later, I graduated, joined a good company, my salary increased, and I had a stable source of income, so I could finally add a few clothes for myself, but my mother and sister became more and more cold to me......"

Qin Xiaoran's little sister has reached the age of rebellion, she is not as sensible as Qin Xiaoran was back then, and she is not very good at studying. My sister always shouted "annoyed" and threw the door at the door, and even her mother looked at her like a plague god, walked back to her house with hatred, and became speechless in the face of Qin Xiaoran's complaints.

Qin Xiaoran doesn't know when the family became like this, Qin Xiaoran doesn't know why things became like this, if the estrangement of the closest people makes her inexplicable, then the cool words of relatives in the family make her fall into an ice cellar.

"Yo! Who should I be, it turned out to be us Ranran! Why didn't the little broom star have enough at home, and came out to harm others again? If it weren't for you, would your family be like this?"

It was an aunt from Qin Xiaoran's father's family who said this, when Qin Xiaoran was eating in a restaurant with a colleague, she bumped into her aunt when she entered the door, and the aunt looked at Qin Xiaoran, and suddenly spoke in a weird manner.

Qin Xiaoran apologized to her at the beginning, and the male colleague who admired Qin Xiaoran on the side was still upset for Qin Xiaoran when he saw this, but when he heard such words when he wanted to stand up for Qin Xiaoran, he suddenly turned his face sideways and looked at Qin Xiaoran curiously.

The aunt's voice was particularly sharp, and many people around were suddenly attracted to their eyes, Qin Xiaoran lowered her head, feeling that her face was hot and painful.

It's no wonder that the male colleague is curious about those words, Qin Xiaoran has never mentioned things at home for so many years, and her relationship history is even blank before work, and there are rumors that it is because it costs too much money to fall in love, Qin Xiaoran's family conditions are not good, and she is reluctant to spend money.

"After Dad left, he never gave anything for us. I don't understand why the people in his family say that I am a little broom star, and I can't go, I can't ask, I can only hold it in my heart, comforting myself and saying that I am still accompanied by people from my grandmother's family, but I later found out that people in my grandmother's family also said that I was a mourning star. Teacher Lu, I really don't understand, I was kind to them from the bottom of my heart, why did they do this to me? Did I do something wrong......

Lu Yan's biggest headache is that others ask why, especially for emotionally unstable patients, so when Qin Xiaoran said this "why", the corners of Lu Yan's eyes twitched, and he continued to pat her back with a sad face, groping in his pocket for a long time before he found a toffee, and coaxed her softly.

"Enough crying, drink some water to moisten your throat, and eat a toffee. Milk candy is the sweetest. Lu Yan always likes to carry toffee with her, this trick has always been tried and tested for similar patients in the past, but she didn't expect that when she came to Qin Xiaoran's place, she saw toffee, but she grinned and cried even harder.

"I don't eat toffee, only children who can cry eat toffee, I don't cry, I don't want sugar. ”

Qin Xiaoran loved sugar the most when she was a child, but since her father left, she rarely ate sugar. One day, she read a sentence in a book that said that only children who can cry are eligible to eat candy. Qin Xiaoran touched her dry face and felt that she must be the kind of child who couldn't cry.