Wang Zi'an hated Yuan Qiuhua's non-cooperation and hated her kind. The children of cadres do not have backache when they stand and talk, and the full man does not know that the hungry man is hungry, and he cannot understand the pressure and suffering that poverty and fatigue bring to the children of the toiling masses. They ate winter cabbage and five-point bean popsicles, wore chalk-smeared white sneakers with boss pants, were once disturbed by the ignorant feelings in "Sixteen-year-old Flower Season", and pasted Weng Meiling and Yamaguchi Baihui all over pencil cases.

Originally, rural students and urban students had different food and clothing than ordinary people. Yuan Qiuhua felt that the winter was particularly cold. Before going to bed, she drank the remaining half bowl of boiling water, put it on the table at the head of the bed, and when she woke up in the morning, she turned the bowl upside down, and it was a semi-circular ice mound. The hands, feet, and ears of adults and children are not a single one. The pain is not terrible, but the most annoying thing is that as soon as the temperature warms up, the chilblains scratch the heart and itch. It is said that newborn rats without hair can cure frostbite, so many people catch a lot of red mice, hang them on the window to dry, and boil them with sesame oil, imagining that they can cure frostbite.

Rural students have to get up at 5 a.m. every morning to rush to school to read early. In fact, everyone is cold and sleepy, they don't even drink hot water after waking up in the morning, and they are so hungry that they can memorize a few passages of text? But the school requires this, and the teacher will make irregular rounds in the classroom, and if he is napping, he will immediately give him a few sticks. At the end of the morning self-study, children who pass the test one by one and can't memorize it are often punished and not allowed to go home for breakfast. The teacher said, "Hungry and hungry." Go to school, after school, the students on the road hum in unison, the sun shines in the sky, the flowers smile at me, the bird says, early, why are you carrying a * bag. I went to blow up the classroom, but my husband didn't know, and as soon as I pulled the line, I ran, and the classroom disappeared with a bang.

Students farthest from school get up at 5:30 a.m., walk for an hour, and climb several mountains. In the coldest weather, wearing a thin coat, rain, snow and ice flowers on his head, and pedaling on torn rain boots to rush to school. In order to repay the cultivation of his parents, in order to not have to do farm work when he grows up, he stubbornly walked through eight or nine miles of mountain roads, walked into the classroom that was not warm, literature, history and philosophy, mathematics, physics and chemistry, and imagined the future that had nothing to do with farming.

Yuan Qiuhua didn't have new rain boots, only his mother's old broken rain boots, with small holes in the soles of the boots and large cracks in the upper of the boots. She had to take off her socks, stuff a handful of whiskers ripped off the cob in her rain boots, and make it to school. One day, Yuan Qiuhua walked halfway, her hair, eyebrows, and eyelashes were all frozen out of ice flowers, her feet were almost numb from the cold, muddy and sticky with rain boots, hard and heavy like iron boots, she thought about my life goal, and it was not to practice a pair of scuds, in a hurry, she simply went barefoot, carrying rain boots, and walked to school.

Students from Jicheng, neatly dressed and with clean hands and feet, arrived at the classroom early, with charcoal braziers under their desks and snacks hidden in drawers. The rural classmates with their heads full of ice flowers were the happy objects of ridicule and teasing, and they ended up a little humiliated.

They are not the same kind of people as each other, living in two worlds and forming two camps. But the rural classmates also have something that makes them slander - wild fruits. On the way to school, I often climb the slope to pick wild fruits, thorny raspberries (raspberries), goat's milk fruits, camellia buds, mulberry leaves, August fried (three-leaf wood), jujube (citrus aurantium), honeypot (golden cherry seeds), hawthorn (fire thorn), mountain grapes, wild cherries, chestnuts, bayberry, tang pear, sour tube stem (tiger fight), thatch root, folded ear root (Houttuynia cordata), wild hawthorn, black rice seeds, hairy kiwifruit, wild persimmon, etc., there are four seasons, many to count, eat soft and moist and juicy, some are crisp and sweet, implying the wisps of bitter tail, some are sour and refreshing, feel the astringency of Ding Ding, more delicious than the fruits sold in the market, more fresh and tender, and they are all natural and pollution-free green foods.

Seeing that we were eating with relish, Wang Zi'an salivated and stretched out his hand to beg: The emperor's grace is vast, reward me with a bite, taste it!

Yuan Qiuhua said: It's not a reward, it can be exchanged!

At the school entrance shop, there are fruit candy cubes, 1 handful for two cents, and various characteristics and flavors, round, square, triangular, strawberry, orange. Popcorn and rice balls, orange candy, large rolls of bubble gum. 1 cent a piece of fruit dan peel, peanut gummies, sorghum caramel, white rabbit toffee.

Wang Zi'an bought whistle candy in exchange for thorny raspberries. Whistle candy can be eaten and played, and they often compete together to see who blows the loudest.

We have to pay for expensive snacks. Alphabetical and numerical biscuits, two dimes, five cents, you can eat for a day! Bottled soda sells for 0.15 yuan a bottle. In the summer, take out a bottle of iced Arctic Ocean soda, bite the cap, take two bites, and burp exaggeratedly, there is nothing more refreshing to enjoy. Yuan Qiuhua often earns extra money, such as earning five cents for a night of movies, frying a pound of Longjing tea to earn a piece, and she treats rural classmates to taste snacks in the commissary. A dollar and a bottle of orange juice, canned sugar water, she was also sick, so she was willing to eat it.

Cadres and workers' children, even teachers treat them differently, politely, and when they do something wrong, they are willing to cover up and cover them up. But the children of the peasants are often to blame, either they are sued, or they are exposed by the same kind, they are either punished in public in class, or they are called to the office to reprimand, and every once in a while, they have to order the parties to pass on messages and ask their parents to help discipline them. Parents who do not know how to defend the dignity and dignity of the family also succumb, and also follow the wind, blindly coaxing, helping to exert pressure, and the teacher will come in a hurry as soon as he screams, and stand like grandchildren with his head bowed and his hands, listening to a long lecture and nonsense. Parents who are busy doing farm work in the countryside are still going to the crops but are aggrieved, sulking, and going home with black heads and black faces, and they don't ask the reason, they just beat their children and don't allow them to eat.

As soon as Wang Zi'an opened his mouth, they attacked him in groups, pointing at Yuan Philosopher and saying that there were leprosy sores on his head, often tickled, scratched so that blood flowed for a long time, bloody, fleshy, scratched to the smell of fishy, scratched to the bloody heart, as if they had come to the slaughterhouse, how could they not be afraid and not disgusting? Turned around, turned around, and pointed to Zhao Furong and said that there were chilblains on their heels, and they often took off their shoes and socks and rubbed them, and pus flowed, and there was a strange smell.

They laughed at our sore spots, but we could only laugh silly. We turn our faces and they'll say you can't afford to joke. Is it our fault that we don't have money for treatment? Should we be laughed at if we don't have shoes and socks to wear? Our self-esteem is torn apart, and they can never perceive it, so we are embarrassed, helpless, embarrassed, lonely, and miserable, and we can only lose face.

The homeroom teacher of the first year of junior high school is an unmarried young man. He was admitted from the countryside to study at the regional teacher's college, and after graduation, he was assigned to work as a public teacher in his hometown township from the city, and he considered himself a national cadre who ate "national food", and wanted to distinguish himself from his past self, his parents, the farmers in his hometown, and the private teachers by maintaining the habits of paying attention to hygiene, loving cleanliness, and loving cleanliness in the city. He listened to the guidance of the children of the cadres and the children of the workers, and then looked at the leprosy brains of the rural dolls, and his first reaction was to feel the churning of the stomach and intestines, and he couldn't help but vomit. After throwing up, the first thing I feel about is that I feel sick to them, and then I agree with them, accept their ideas, and adopt their suggestions. He rearranged the seats with the table and let them sit in the front row, allowing them to combine freely and choose their own table. Rural students can sit in the back row, or they can choose to share the same table.

The advantage of sitting in the front row, even if it is a wooden person, who has been a student, can understand. In the past, in order to settle the dispute between the seats before and after, the seats were generally arranged according to the ranking of the best and poorest academic performance. Only those who study really poorly, who have no hope at all, who do not have to waste time, who have no delusions, who are too lazy to take care of it at all, are relegated to the back row, put in the back row, let them come and go freely, and let them take the blame for themselves.

Yuan Qiuhua has the best academic performance, just because his parents are farmers, he is a farmer's child, and he also enjoys the same treatment, but he was also thrown to the back row by the head teacher and abandoned. She felt scorned, insulted, angry, and indignant.

She stood up and said: Report to the teacher, I personally believe that adjusting the seats is the next policy, and the best policy should be to divide the classrooms, so that the children of cadres have one classroom, the children of workers have one classroom, and the children of farmers have one classroom.

The head teacher said, "That's a good idea, I'll ask the principal to try it."

Yuan Qiuhua said: I will write to the Education Commission and suggest that the existing education model be completely changed, that teaching reform be carried out, and that there should be one school for the children of cadres, one school for the children of workers, and one school for the children of peasants.

The head teacher said: There is no need for this kind of proposal. In big cities, there have been party schools for party members, cadre schools for cadres, engineering schools for workers, and agricultural schools for peasants, but you don't know it.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Before the May Fourth Movement, Mr. Cai Yuanpei advocated independent personality, freedom of thought, inclusiveness, and education.

The head teacher said: Let me remind you again, after failing in the high school entrance examination, the children of cadres can also go to the organs of their direct departments to study in various internal training courses, and the children of workers can also go to regional technical schools for further study, but the children of farmers have no school, so they can go to study again, and can only go home to farm.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Just because the royal family has private schools, the nobles have private schools, and the landlords have private schools, the common people do not have equal opportunities for education, and the general public does not have the freedom to express their speech. Mr. Cai proposed, "Open the door to run a school, inclusive".

The head teacher said: If he can live until now, I will definitely tell him that he is wrong to think like this, wrong, big, wrong, very wrong.

Yuan Qiuhua said: The principal, dead, but the school motto is still there, "Tianxingjian, a gentleman should be self-improving, the terrain is good, and the gentleman is virtuous."

The head teacher said: This is a rural middle school, Peking University is in Beijing, you have the ability, you go to Tsinghua University? Sorry, I'm not far away!

On that day, Yuan Qiuhua was absent from school in the morning and skipped school in the afternoon.

The principal criticized the head teacher, and personally went to the door of the student's parents, explained the cause of the incident to Yuan Huanxuan, and informed Yuan Qiuhua to go to school tomorrow.

The next day, Yuan Huanxuan personally escorted Yuan Qiuhua to school, and asked her to speak up for her impulsive faux pas, rush, disrespect, and bow to the head teacher in front of the whole class, and apologize. Later, Yuan Huanxuan specially asked a doctor to go to the school to treat Yuan Philosopher's leprosy, and each of the students with chilblain was given a bottle of chilblain plaster. Soon, he also helped poor students win a stipend of 5 yuan a year. This subsidy, which is equivalent to half a year's tuition, gave them the strength to continue their studies and warmed their teenage years.

Yuan Qiuhua thought that she was right, not only could she not find comfort, but she was forced to apologize, made a fool of herself in public, and the hurt she suffered was even deeper, and she held her breath in her heart, and she was so aggrieved that she burst into tears. In an instant, she suddenly discovered that this world was different from the education she had received over the years, saying that she was so good that she had to be the same as what she had said, that she had to speak up righteously, that she insisted on the truth, that she had to study seriously, that she did not deceive, that she flattered her, and that she had done what she had in the textbook, but it seemed so abrupt, isolated, and out of place. Since then, she has changed, she is not obedient, she is not well-behaved, she has become a naughty bag, a tomboy, a game made by boys, she is in the line, swimming and picking lotus, going down to the river to fish, going up to the tree to dig birds, climbing over the wall to pick fruits, nothing is difficult to stop her. In class, whistling, snapping fingers, dozing off, reading villain books, cheating on exams, skipping school and watching movies, naughty trick-or-treating is the leader, corridor punishment is commonplace, and the teaching office lecture is a few days to go here.

One of the most common things that teachers say to parents is, your daughter, you can't say that you lack intelligence, but unfortunately your energy and mind are not used in learning, as long as you urge and catalyze a little, the future is limitless.

Yuan Huanxuan said: You can't change the world, you can only change yourself, adapt to this society, and calmly accept everything you encounter in life.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Now he has become like Wang Zi'an, who is rude and arrogant, who does not learn and has no skills, who is a dog who plays with people's strength, and who bullies the sick and weak! In the future, he will become like his Lao Tzu, who is domineering and domineering, who preys on the common people, and who despises culture and cultured people.

Yuan Huanxuan said: Don't be unbalanced, you are still too short-sighted, and you can't see that in addition to family and school, there is also a society, a mainstream. The tide is rolling and the waves are sweeping the sand, and those who are backward and outdated will eventually be eliminated. The current turmoil, the temporary loss, is not worth mentioning at all, and it will all be earned back in the future, as long as you are willing to work hard and keep pace with the times.

Yuan Qiuhua said: I no longer respect books, and most of the written knowledge does not work at all in real life, and I can't get the desired results.

Yuan Huanxuan said: Studying culture can improve the humanistic quality, which mainly refers to the spiritual pursuit of nobility and the ideological pursuit of excellence, which is the difference between humans and animals. Learning knowledge can improve livelihood skills, which is reflected in the yearning for comfort in life, and the yearning for interest in emotion, which is an instinctive need, but it is also divided into high-level and low-level, and the difference lies in how the individual controls it. If you are poor, you will think about change, and it is not shameful to be humble, but you are afraid to give up your efforts, and you will not want to be motivated, but you will fall.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Cultural knowledge is not as good as opportunism, and it is better to die a good death if you go straight on the right path, and it is better to die a strong death, and it is better to live as a scoundrel.

Yuan Huanxuan said: Maybe others are too shrewd, maybe I am too pedantic, but I still think that it is good to be simple, to do things practically, and to live life naturally.

Yuan Qiuhua said: There is no point in talking in the vernacular, do it, implement it, let people see it, believe it, and accept it.

Yuan Huanxuan said: You are my child, we are flesh and blood, watching you grow up day by day, I feel happy in my heart. Since childhood, I have asked you to be motivated, only allowed to read, not allowed to play, it is indeed too strict and harsh, not to ask you anything in return in the future, I only hope that you will be safe and successful, healthy and happy.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Talent is both a reward and a punishment. Excellent means lonely, the soul walks alone on the lonely road, cold in the heights, cold when it is dark, mixed with pain, hurt and suffering, and if you don't become a talent, you will become crazy. Being an ordinary person is simpler and happier.

Yuan Huanxuan said: No matter how bad the world is, your life must be wonderful, silent and focused, and don't live up to your dreams. No matter how dark your heart is, your heart must be bright, contented and happy, and worthy and peaceful.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Everyone can say the truth, how many people can really do it well?

Yuan Huanxuan said: In addition to the so-called talent, acquired education and one's own efforts are also very important for a person's success. To be a person in advance, kindness is the highest shrewdness, self-help is helped, accumulation of luck and accumulation, accumulation of momentum, momentum like a rainbow, knowledge and bosom change fate.

Yuan Qiuhua said: How easy is it to change fate? Let's agree, if you can change from a worker to a cadre, I will change from a poor student to a good student!

Yuan Huanxuan said: Only if you study hard, can you reach a different height from others, be admitted to a different university, and understand a different scenery, so that you can be qualified and have the capital to live the life you want.

Yuan Qiuhua said: My life? My life is planned by you, studying at a prestigious university, studying abroad and teaching, getting married and having children, this is your idea, not what I want.

Yuan Huanxuan said: What's wrong with this? If you don't want to study, you will regret it too late in the future.

Yuan Qiuhua said: No one can guess what the society will be like in the future, and even if knowledge is not popular, what kind of "movement" may be engaged.

In a person's temperament, there is always a hidden thing he has passed, the road he has walked, and more than 40 years of wind and rain and experience, which has already turned his heart into a jar of old wine, condensing the strong fragrance of the years, and still being innocent as a child after the vicissitudes of life. Those words of consolation also seem to be excusing themselves. The direction of the headwind, which is more suitable for flying. Only after experiencing hellish torture can you have the power to conquer heaven, and only the bloody fingers can play the swan song of the world. Be obedient to words, sensitive to action, small victories rely on wisdom, big victories rely on morality, and there should be awe of life. It is precisely because I have experienced too many things that I know more clearly how cold fate is and how fragile beautiful things are.

He spoke the truth in front of others, but there were some "truths" that were ineffective for Yuan Qiuhua. In the eyes of outsiders, he is an elegant and dignified uncle, playing treasure in a bright and bright way, a talented teacher, and shamelessly shaking the material. In the face of Yuan Qiuhua's doubts, he is a strict father, he must be a philosopher, he must be strict with himself, he has always been in a sense of proportion, when to praise, when to be angry, he must be particular in order not to be despised.

Ignorant teenagers, their minds are still unopened, their feelings are poetic, and they are far from the difficult transformation of complex thoughts. Society is the real university, and experience is the real teacher. Just like the famous book "Dream of Red Mansions", he often heard young people say, "I can't read it", "I can't understand it". In fact, Cao Xueqin's indescribable loneliness, loneliness and sorrow about life, as well as deep gentleness, lingering, sadness and dreams, where can she understand it?