After Misato Katsuragi left for something, Rei Ayanami continued to stay with Shinji. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

"Ayana, this tube is a gift for you. ”

"Gifts?"

"Let's open it and take a look. The plastic tubes were all smashed, and Shinji was worried about the damage to the paintings inside.

Seeing that it was inconvenient for Ayanami to hang with one hand, Shinji's left hand was also injured, "Come, I'll fix it, you unscrew the lid." It took one of them to open the tube.

When he opened the painting, Shinji noticed that Rei Ayaami's eyes lit up visibly, it was a portrait of her front, the classic smile of the goddess. Although it is a cool color, it gives a warm feeling.

"This is my ...... Photos?" Rei Ayanami was amazed by herself.

"No, I drew it one by one, I hope you can always smile, do you like it?" Shinji asked with sparkling eyes.

Rei Ayanami's mind suddenly appeared like Shinji was bitten bloodied, but he still prevented her from getting closer.

"Loved it...... I'm sorry, but I don't know what kind of expression to put on at this time. ”

Shinji was immediately touched by this sentence, and the standard answer was, of course, "Just smile." ”

So, in the afterglow of the setting sun, Shinji saw the goddess for the first time with a grateful smile: "Thank you!".

Rei Ayanami was still in an extremely closed state before, and now she may have opened a small gap in her heart by Shinji. How did Ayanami Li form this three-no-character? Of course, it is the result of Lao Ikari's deliberate cultivation.

The first Ayanami Rei was raised as an ordinary child, but she was strangled to death by Naoko Akagi because she had no mouth to cover. Lao Ikari accepted the lesson, and when he cultivated the second Ayanami Rei, he strictly proceeded from the needs and created a puppet that obeyed his word.

In an environment of complete isolation from society, Rei Ayanami has been forcibly instilled with the concept of obedience to orders since her awakening consciousness, and stays in a dark and gloomy underground laboratory every day, completely cut off from communication with other people, except for a limited number of people such as Ikari. Even these few remaining exchanges are rigid and rigid commands.

She didn't know what this body was.

She doesn't know what her true identity is.

She didn't know why she was alive and what she was pursuing.

She didn't know anything......

There is no emotional communication, no matter how much she longs to communicate, how much she longs to love and be loved, she cannot recognize this emotion, let alone act on it. It doesn't matter, this is the state that Lao Ikari wants, enough, reliable enough, and it won't arouse suspicion.

In the rigid and closed environment of NERV, Rei Ayanami thinks calmly, using an unusually rational and mechanical method to feel the world, not doing useless things, and not doing things that waste time. So in front of others, she is three nos from beginning to end.

It wasn't until she met Shinji and was forced to interact and come into contact with others that she realized the complex experience of "emotion". Rei Ayana's smile means that her heart has begun to thaw. Shinji taught her the first lesson in emotional expression: just smile.

This was probably the first time she knew about her inner emotions.

This was probably the first time she knew that her inner emotions could be expressed.

This was probably the first time she had shown her emotions to others.

Shinji saw the smile of the goddess and even had the feeling of dying without regrets. My hands don't hurt anymore, and my balls don't swell anymore.

……

That night, Rei Ayanami was lying in bed with a portrait in her hand, and the moonlight outside the window cast dappled light and shadows on the floor through the window.

"Smile...... Warm ......," one muttered to himself.

"Thank you...... Say thank you...... The first time she said it, she didn't say anything to that person...... "The smile of Commander Ikati, the person she trusted the most, came to mind......

After 3 days in the hospital, Shinji couldn't stand it and ran home. In fact, ordinary people do not need to be hospitalized, but EVA drivers need special treatment.

The lower body is injured, and the skin must be prepared before the adhesive tape, and the hair is shaved, but now it has just grown a little bit, and the summer heat and sweat make Shinji die and live, and he can't grasp it with his hands, it's ********. And you can't take a shower these days, you can only wipe it with a wet towel.

So in the living room, Misato Katsuragi saw that Shinji was neither sitting nor standing, writhing like a worm, with an uncomfortable look.

"What's wrong, Shinji?" Misato put down the book and asked.

"I'm in so much pain, Misato-san. Shinji's face was dead.

"Is the wound painful, do I want to take you to the hospital?"

"No, it's ...... that was pierced by stubble," so Shinji 1510 said that there was no shame in saying that there was something to say about the personality.

Misato Katsuragi couldn't help but laugh after hearing this, and comforted: "It's so pitiful, I'm sorry, Shinji, I can't help you with this." ”

Shinji can only lie down in a "big" shape to be comfortable.

Seeing that Shinji was still trying to read and study, Misato Katsuragi glanced at the cover of his book, and the result was "The Temperament of a Mature Man".

The corners of her mouth twitched, "Uh...... Shinji, why do you read books like this?"

"According to Xiao Q's analysis, Ayanami likes strong men who are mature and attractive, like my father. ”

"So, who is that little Q?" Misato Katsuragi raised an eyebrow.

"The personal intelligent assistant I developed is very capable!" Shinji said with a sense of accomplishment.

"Really? Shinji is amazing. ”

"Of course, little Q, what type of man does Sister Misato like?" Shinji immediately took out his phone and showed it off.

"Wait, Shinji, that ......" Misato Katsuragi sweated.

"Understood...... Analyzing...... The results are in. Love expert Ko Q quickly concluded, "Miss Katsuragi likes men who have the warmth of a father." ”

Misato Katsuragi was struck by lightning, and her movements stiffened.

"Oh, Sister Misato, is Q right?" Shinji looked curious.

"Of course it......" Misato Katsuragi hurriedly concealed the anger in her heart, "Nonsense!" Said with a smile again.

"Can even a machine see through me?" Misato Katsuragi thought depressedly.

Of course, this result is not calculated by Xiao Q, but set by the personality, and the result of Xiao Q is, of course, a "domineering president". But it's really not authentic to always grasp the pain points of Misato Katsuragi and make fun of them, so Riki quickly came out to stop this topic.

"Ahem, uh...... Sister Miri, why did you watch "Han Feizi" and "The Monarch"?" Shinji pointed to Misato Katsuragi's book and asked, in fact, he wanted to change the subject.

"Huh, you're out?" Misato asked.

"Can you see through that?" Shinji was shocked, he had always wanted to pretend to be a little white sweet and eat Katsuragi Misato tofu.

"Hmph, your eyes betrayed you. Misato Katsuragi said proudly.

Misato Katsuragi doesn't wear bra at home at night, and she has bare white legs, and Shinji's eyes can't help but be connected to certain places, and women, especially beautiful women, are really familiar with these gazes, very sensitive, and a 0.1-second glimpse of a man passing by on the road can also be perceived, and it's useless to pretend to see the scenery. The little white sweet who shows his personality has not yet opened his mind and does not understand this. Misato Katsuragi has been with him for a year, and she is so familiar that Shinji knows what shit he wants to pull as soon as she pouts her ass.

"Ahem, the eyes of the contemptible people are more wise and sharp -- "The Monarch" is a strange book with mixed reputations, discussing the way of being a king, emphasizing that the monarch does not have to be bound by secular morality, and can do whatever it takes to achieve his ends. "Han Feizi" is a classic work of Legalism, which advocates extreme utilitarianism, believing that there is only interest and no benevolence between people. Are you reading these books to be a better commander in battle?" Shinji's topic turned a bit stiff.

(These two books are not apocryphal, they appear in the picture of Misato Katsuragi's sleeping phase.) )

"No, it's to get to know my father better. You've seen it?" Misato Katsuragi Road.

"Uh, I didn't do anything to flip it once. ”

"You know, my father was a workaholic. It wasn't until my mother died that I couldn't regret it, and I went back into research by saying, 'I deserve it,' and I only felt the pain of being ignored by him, and I felt like an abandoned child, and I hated him at the time. Misato Katsuragi took a sip of beer and continued, "It wasn't until he left me the only survival pod that I finally realized that I loved him." ”

"He must love you, too. Shinji asked.

"But I couldn't understand him, and it was useless to read these two books. Misato Katsuragi said in frustration.

"People always have to change, and they can't dwell on the pain of the past. Shinji comforted.

"I know...... I am...... I'm just ......" Misato Katsuragi took a sip of the rest of the beer.

"What does it feel like to be a father?" Shinji decides to comfort her with a misery.

"Compared to me, Shinji seems to be more pitiful. "And it worked.

"Would you be sad if your father did that?"

"No, it won't. ”

"I want to thank him for paying me tuition regularly, which has cost him a lot of money over the years. ”

"Shinji...... Maybe your father loves you too, but he doesn't express it well. ”

"Oh, that's okay, for me, childhood is just an experience. ”

"How?"

"I didn't feel abandoned, abused, bullied. In everyone's growth, there will be experiences of 'not being loved' and 'lacking love'. It is the inner dissatisfaction with love that causes this pain.

I never expected my father, nor did I feel his love, and if I didn't experience it, I didn't lose it. Besides, I don't feel like I'm lacking love, and the care and concern of my mother and teachers is enough for me to grow up healthy, if it weren't for autism.

I live alone because I feel more comfortable and at ease, and it also gives me independence and problem-solving skills.

What's more, my genius personality has emerged because of this, I used to say that I was born of Shinji to avoid problems, but in fact, from another point of view, I am Shinji's strong desire for psychological self-healing, so as to integrate into society and become an excellent normal person. So you don't have to look at me like a poor little animal, Sister Katsuragi. “

"Shinji......" Misato Katsuragi said as she approached Shinji.

"Huh?"

"Sometimes I wonder if you have another mature soul hidden in your body. ”

“……”