The next day, I woke up with red and swollen eyes.

Last night, I didn't sleep well all night.

Whenever he closed his eyes, Lu Li's bloody face would emerge.

I've had countless fantasies that it's fake, and I've even looked for the TV shows I've watched in my flashbacks, and there is often that reversal in the TV series — the person is dead — but then it comes back.

I imagined that Lu Li used a special method, a special plan to escape life and death, and changed his clothes and things to the other party.

I also fantasized about the people who accompanied me, helped him escape, and created a fake scene.

Many, many ......

Anything I can think of, I have thought of.

However, it is all fantasy......

Every time I fantasize, reality hits me once! Every time I blow, tears wells up.

I love him so much, I really love ......

Unspeakable and indescribable love.

I have persevered for so many years, I have been looking forward to it for so many years, why did I have such an ending?

&

When I was eating breakfast, Fu Xiangqin saw that my eyes were red and swollen, and I didn't move my chopsticks. When he wanted to say something, he closed his mouth again, and there were no words.

She knew my relationship with Lu Li, and she even knew that I liked him.

Although Zhang Liang next to him is willful, he will not look for trouble at this time. He hates Lu Li very much, and he fought with him when he was a child, but his heart is kind, and he doesn't want Lu Li to die.

Officer Zhang gulped down the noodles and pretended to ignore me. After all, he has experienced many major cases, seen countless dead bodies, and experienced countless joys and sorrows.

He understands my pain, but he also knows it—there is nothing he can do.

"Let's eat...... Time will slowly make you forget those things. Officer Zhang said in a cold tone as he ate.

Seeing him speak, Fu Xiangqin couldn't help but say, "Feifei...... Your dad is right, a lot of things in this world are impermanent. Life and death, life and death, I have seen a lot in the hospital. Many children have never experienced anything, and a serious illness is gone. Those parents are crying and dying, but no matter how sad they are, it's useless, people, you still have to look forward......"

"That's it!" Zhang Liang couldn't hold back his comfort: "Sister...... Don't do that, let's eat! Final exams are in two weeks, so we need to prepare for them!"

"Yes, don't think about anything else now, the most important thing is to focus on studying!" Fu Xiangqin said.

When I saw that they were out of control, I picked up the chopsticks, sandwiched the noodles and said, "I know, don't talk about it......"

"......" Fu Xiangqin saw it in her eyes, hurt in her heart, closed her mouth and stopped talking.

"That...... Maybe Lu Li is not dead, right?" Zhang Liang said suddenly.

As soon as I ate the noodles in my mouth, I suddenly stopped, and unconsciously raised my head to look at Officer Zhang.

Officer Zhang glared at Zhang Liang coldly and said, "Do you think the police are child's play to announce the death of a person!?

"Will the body be brought back?" I asked Officer Zhang in a low voice.

He turned his head, his eyes changed from cold to soft, and he said quite gently, "This... No way. One is that the distance is too far, and the other is that Lu Li's identity is too sensitive. I have no reason to ask for it, and you can't ask for it. It will bring a lot of unnecessary trouble. ”

"You mean you can bring it back, don't you?"

"I can't ......," Officer Zhang resolutely refused after knowing my thoughts.

"Let's figure it out...... Let him come back, the fucking cemetery is in the southern suburbs, and bury them together, okay?"

"His body has been dissected, partly at the cross-border border of Nam Un Province, partly at the provincial team forensic dissection, and partly on our team. How can you let me get it for you?"

"......" After I heard this, I suddenly felt indescribable.

After Zhang Liang heard this, he couldn't eat anymore, and even had the urge to vomit.

Officer Zhang took another bite of noodles and said, "The autopsy room is under the control of the bureau, and I can't talk to the people over there." You, don't think about it...... Now I can't let others stop asking about you and Lu Li, so don't look for trouble outside the schedule. After speaking, he put down the dishes and chopsticks and stood up and said, "I'm full, let's go to work first." ”

"I'm full too!" Zhang Liang put down his chopsticks and left.

I slowly put down my chopsticks, and when I wanted to get up, I felt so weak.

"Fei, ......" Fu Xiangqin put her hands on the edge of the table, leaned over slowly, and said earnestly: "...... I know that you are an emotional child when you are young, and Feng Yan is her who you went to bury, but Lu Li's matter is different, what your father said is reasonable. After all, Lu Li is a criminal. ”

"I see...... I, I'll be fine, don't worry. As I spoke, I stood up on the table.

&

The snow on the road is melting, and you can't ride a bike.

Snow does not cool the snow......

The cold wind made me sober up a lot, and I walked with Zhang Liang step by step on the way to school.

Zhang Liang didn't talk much, and even if he did, I might not pay attention to him.

When I got to the school gate, I suddenly stopped.

"What's wrong?" Zhang Liang asked with a frown.

"I've been in a very low mood lately, do you know what to say when Tian Sen asks?" I asked, looking at him.

Fu Xiangqin is right, people have to look forward. However, I also know that my own pain will not heal for a while. Even, this life will hurt down.

If I appear in front of Tian Sen like this, he will definitely be surprised. But I can't tell him that I've lost a loved one, can I?

When Zhang Liang heard my question, he blinked and said, "To tell you the truth, I'll just say that you have an older brother who died." A very good, very good brother!"

"Hmm...... Then just talk about it, and don't talk about the rest. As I spoke, I walked into the campus.

&

During class, I was lying on my desk, and when my table mate noticed that the teacher was staring at me, he poked me up.

I looked at the blackboard and listened to the teacher, but I always went in and out of my left ear. Trance.

I don't know how many people have experienced that kind of heart. However, when I experienced it on myself, I found that it was not painful, but like an abyss.

At that moment, I understood what it was like for those in the world who committed suicide because of the loss of their partner.

Sometimes, when you gaze into the abyss, you do have the feeling of stepping into the abyss......

The kind that I want to want to be very much, always feel that he is inside, and summons himself in it.

However, Tian Sen appeared at the entrance to the abyss, and he blocked the deep force.

……

At lunch that day, he noticed my abnormality.

Asked me what was wrong, I didn't speak, just a bland meal.

In the evening of the same day, he learned from Zhang Liang about "my brother is dead".

When he found out, he stayed by my side safely.

He is very sensible, and he knows that when a person is sad, the most suitable thing is to sit quietly.

On the bench in the playground, he spread his coat under me and watched the sunset with me.

At the end of the evening self-study, he told me jokes, supervised me to review the test papers, and tried to create a happy atmosphere.

However, the erratic sadness in my eyes always loomed in his anxiety.

……

One day more than half a month later.

The day before the final exam, he couldn't hold back and asked on the way home: "What kind of brother is your brother? Why do I feel more and more that the relationship between you is not like a brother and sister?"

Tian Sen basically doesn't ask questions so bluntly, but when he is so straightforward, he must not be able to hold back.

After I glanced at him, I thought of Zheng Xuyin's explanation, and while pushing the bicycle, I said, "I remember, you told me about your mother." When your mother died, you should have been more depressed than I was, right?"

After he said "um", he said in a soft voice, "That's my mother, and that pain hurts more than anything else, but...... Your business is different, I heard Zhang Liang say that that brother is not your biological brother. ”

"Yes, it's not my own, but he's better than my own brother. When I needed help the most, he showed up to help me! I always wanted to repay him in the future, but I didn't expect ......."

The suspicion in Tian Sen's eyes gradually fell, and he changed to an apologetic smile and said, "Really...... It's me who thinks too much. ”

"It's nothing, the relationship between me and my brother is difficult for ordinary people to understand. Do you know? When I first started, I wasn't at Zhang Liang's house. ”

"Oh, Zhang Liang said, you went to his house when you were about eleven years old. ”

"Hmm...... Before, I was adopted by a perverted man, and it was my brother who protected me all the time. I've always been insecure, so I see my brother as the protector of my life, and you can understand that? It's like a snail with a shell suddenly removed. ”

"Alright...... I've got a gift for you, would you like it?" he asked with a sudden smile.

"What?" I asked when I saw him stop.

"When we go out on winter vacation, let's go on a trip!? I booked two tickets to Hainan. It doesn't take a few hours to get there from our Hanjiang Airport! You know? It's very warm in Sanya. I'll take you to the beach, and you'll forget all those sad things!" he said, his eyes lit up.

He's been trying to change me, to change my tired state at the moment.

However, I always made him go back again and again with a cold and blunt face......

"I would love to go, but ......"

“…… Don't but, I want you to go. Don't worry, I have often traveled by myself since I was a child, and I will take good care of you! Okay?" He looked at me with great sincerity, and when he saw that I was a little hesitant, he stopped his car, leaned over and held my shoulder, and said: "When I don't allow you to stand in front of me, you are always so cold, I love you, and I want to change you! At the beginning, your brother was your shell, and now I Tian Sen is your shell...... I will give you warmth, absolute warmth. ”

"Oh......" I listened to his love words, and I did feel a kind of warmth in my heart, but when I thought of Mr. Zheng's words and then thought of his brain tumor, there was a complex sense of entanglement in my heart.

"Then it's decided, let's go before the New Year and come back before the New Year!" he said with a smile. The crescent moon eyes bloom with a warm feeling.

It's just that whenever this kind of seems to be exciting, Lu Li's figure will always float up coldly. The face that made me smile instantly fell silent.

originally thought that after Lu Li died, I would love another person.

However, the reality is that if he doesn't die, I may follow Mr. Zheng's instructions and try to talk to Tian Sen with sincerity. But when he died, and after he died, I felt as if I had lost the strength to love someone again.

Moreover, in my heart, there is always a voice echoing - 'Lu Li is not ...... dead'.

……

"Alright...... Don't be sad, everything will be fine!" he said with a smile on my face.

"Oh......," I said, squeezing out a slight smile.

"Buzz!" suddenly the phone rang!

I took it out and looked at it, it turned out to be Zhang Yang, how long has this guy been abroad, and he hasn't been in touch, and he actually asked me to call me today!?

When Tian Sen saw my eyes widen, he asked with a puzzled expression, "What's the matter?"

"Zhang... Zhang Yang!" I stammered slightly, and immediately picked up the phone: "Hey, Zhang Yang?"

"Hehe, aren't you surprised!?" Zhang Yang said with a smile.

"You, you're back?" I asked.

"Clever! I'm waiting for my luggage at Hangang Airport now, you hurry up and pick me up! I have important news to tell you!" Zhang Yang said with a smile.

"What's the big news?" I asked.

"I'll tell you when you're here!"

"Don't sell it! Hurry up, if you don't say I'm not going to pick you up!"

"You, still have this temper, why can't they threaten you?"

"Speak ......"

"Good, good...... A few days ago, I had a phone call with Mr. Xu. Then, I asked for a very valuable place for you with a dead face! No need to compete in the early stage, go directly to their super mentor training camp to prepare for next year's National Model Contest!!"