Xinya often behaves weirdly, and the doctor approves of it, but she just doesn't think she is sick. I think I'm normal, Xinya seems to be terminally ill, and I cried and wiped tears for my safety at every turn, and I just refused to believe that I didn't do those things.

However, Xinya and my problems belong to the category of psychology and spirituality, not as innocent as headaches, brain fever, lack of arms and legs, and even psychologists can't say that they are ugly at once.

Calm down and think about it, if Xinya and I are both sick, my sleepwalking syndrome really seems to be more dangerous than Xinya's fantasy disorder. During a sleepwalking episode, you may do something unexpected indoors, and if you run outside, you really can't guarantee that you won't be so lucky to come back alive one day.

Fortunately, I don't sleepwalk that often.

The onset of Xinya's fantasy is getting higher and higher, any previous details of life can make Xinya sit down, although some details I can't confirm whether it is something I have experienced, but most of the time, as long as I cooperate with her, Xinya is like living again, she says a word to me, a certain piece of life in the past can be reproduced in front of me.

However, Xinya's abnormal behavior, in addition to making me feel a little embarrassed and embarrassed sometimes, if it does not deteriorate into wanton play, it seems that there is really no direct harm to Xinya in the near term, it comes and goes quickly, and although she can sometimes be aware of her behavior afterwards, sometimes she has no impression at all, but she can always quickly return to normal as if nothing happened.

But I have to admit that when I miss my wife on some specific days or occasions, Xinya's fantasy and active substitution behavior give me the opportunity to relive many warm moments with my wife in the past, sad and warm.

Sometimes I even think why I insist on taking Xinya to the doctor, since it doesn't really hurt her, she loves fantasy and let her want to go.

But this kind of thinking and peaceful life will be attacked and harassed by Wenwen from time to time.

"You know what, you're really irresponsible. ”

Wenwen's child is about to turn one year old, and Wenwen was going to discuss with me how to celebrate the child's birthday, but as she spoke, she talked about the relationship between men and women and family marriage.

I admit that Wenwen's criticism is not wrong at all, I am not mentally prepared to marry Xinya, and at the same time, I am more and more aware that I am also very reluctant to see Xinya leave me, especially this time Xinya left home for three weeks, my heart is empty, I always feel that I lack a life partner and spiritual support.

It's just that I don't have the courage to admit the latter point.

"Yes, I also think I did something wrong, but Xinya she refused to leave, you see she walked for a few weeks and came back, she said that she is still in my place and has a sense of belonging. I said that this would delay her, but Xinya said that she didn't feel delayed, it was her own choice, and she was willing. Isn't this ......?"

I originally said that Xinya was very similar to Wenwen in this regard, but seeing that Wenwen's face was no longer good-looking, I had to swallow the second half of the sentence back.

"Xinya guards that little hope, just like when you rejected me, I still don't give up, and I'd rather watch myself become an old girl day by day. She can wait now, as I have watched for so many years. But your situation is different now, the two of us have children, I am no longer the lone girl who comes and goes without care, you won't let people scold you for ruthlessly abandoning your own flesh and blood, right?"

Wenwen can always maintain a calm attitude and a peaceful tone when talking about this, which is still reassuring. I also know what Wenwen means, but I don't know how to respond, and now let me turn a new page like this, I can't convince myself.

"To tell you the truth, I'm really confused, very entangled, between my wife, Xinya and you, I don't know how to choose. ”

"Do you think I'm not worthy of you?"

"You might as well scold me directly! I know that I have a few pounds and a few taels, I have no talent, no appearance and no virtue, I am neither rich nor expensive, how can I afford to waste my youth on a good girl like you! You say that you have such good conditions, you have to be knowledgeable, you have to have good looks, you are more than ten years younger than me, if you want to say whether you are worthy or not, it is that I am not worthy of you. ”

Wenwen smiled: "So that's the case! So be it, I don't dislike you, I can reluctantly marry you by myself." ”

"You still have the heart to joke. "I know that Wenwen is joking, but the content is "fake" and true.

"Who's a joke, I certainly can't take your deceased wife's place in your heart, as long as you give me a chance, I will try to live as you want, and I am at least confident enough to do no worse than Xinya. ”

"The problem is not that you are not good enough, but that I have failed to live up to your excellence. If I marry any of you into my house, and I can't bring you near to my heart, do you think it's fair to you?

"Obsessed! I can't help you. ”

Wenwen threw me a strange look, then pulled out a napkin from the table and reached out to help me wipe my mouth, I tilted my head, avoided Wenwen's outstretched hand, took the tissue and wiped it on my mouth, took it to my eyes and looked at it, and found no traces.

"Don't say I'm stubborn, let's be considered each other!"

"Can that be the same? The person you miss is in another world, and you can't come back, and the person I want is right in front of me, alive. ”

"Okay, okay, don't talk about this headache. "I put on a two-skinned face. "Aren't you here today to discuss the issue of your child's first birthday, or don't forget to get down to business. ”

Listening to Wenwen's somewhat emotional voice, I'm afraid that she will be getting farther and farther away.

"Okay, since you think what I just said is not the right thing, then I'll start talking about it now," Wenwen's tone was still calm, but her expression was no longer so gentle: "The child's first birthday, I'm ready to do it." ”

"What do you mean?

Wenwen said that she wanted to invite all the colleagues of the company to celebrate the child's birthday together, and she said that she would not accept any gifts and money from them, but she would invite them to have a meal together, which was huge and lively.

My aunt, what are you doing here!

As soon as I heard this, my heart immediately felt like a heavy burden: Wenwen must have been well thought out and purposeful.

But what purpose or effect is she trying to achieve?

"Isn't it nice to celebrate on a small scale, why bother with such a crowd?"

"On a larger scale, I want to tell you that even though my child does not have a father by my side, as a single mother, I have the ability and confidence to raise my child well and educate me responsibly. Don't you think that's okay?"

I think Wenwen's move is very poisonous, obviously to psychologically destroy and mentally suppress me, and also to secretly call out Xinya.