The best way I can love you is to stop loving you. I hope that you will have someone to accompany you when you are lonely, someone to help you when you are helpless, and someone to know when you are crying.

I miss you, but I can't tell you anymore. In the memory, your appearance, beautiful eyes, peach cheeks with dizziness, is the most beautiful, chic and coquettish, smart and childish, is the most worthy of nostalgia.

In the past year, even if you and I are separated, although I am alone to recuperate, although you have no news, I finally have a thought, wait, and hope for you in my heart, always accompanied, day and night, I not only do not panic, but sweet as honey. The back light and the moon are in the shade, and it has been ten years of traces and ten years of heart. I look forward to the stars, I look forward to the moon, but I can't hope for you, I can only trek through mountains and rivers to see you.

Oh my God, what did I do wrong? You're going to punish me like this! I didn't tell you, I just wanted to stand in front of you suddenly and surprise you. Along the way, I couldn't help but laugh at the thought of your tears of joy, I couldn't help but laugh at the thought of my hug spinning, and I couldn't help but laugh at the thought of us going home holding hands. I'm here, I saw you, ten meters away, I saw you smiling happily, grinning like a fool, I saw you holding Lan Xinyan's arm, leaning your head on his shoulder—I was immobilized by God, stammering—watching you go away, farther and farther, until you couldn't see! I hate God, why didn't you put a blindness spell on me? I'd rather not see anything! Why didn't you put a madness spell on me? Just make me crazy! From that moment on, I looked around, opened and closed my eyes, and saw that you were interlocking your fingers, shrouded in light smoke and mist, invisible without looking back, melting side by side in the mountains and rivers—real and illusory, not earthly people.

At that time, I opened my mouth and stared straight in the direction you were leaving. It wasn't until someone slapped him on the shoulder that he came back to his senses. This man wore gold-rimmed glasses, looked polite, but his eyes were poisonous, and he pouted in the direction you left, "Look at your dejected appearance, you are the predecessor of your senior sister, can you tell me? Do you want me to help you analyze and study, are you being sold, or are you being dug into the wall?" I ignored him and turned back to my home in the basement.

Although the past is unforgettable, the good and the bad have learned to bear it themselves. I didn't cry, you didn't look back, you will never get together for the rest of your life, one will be separated and two will be wide, and everyone will be fine from now on, and no one is good or bad, and no one is right or wrong, it is really a coincidence. People are floating in the rivers and lakes, sometimes, many things, really can't help me, and I have resisted. The bitterness is only known to those in the bureau, stumbling, ups and downs, who is not miserable? I am just an ant and a speck of dust in life. The thing of using the mantis arm as a car, when you are young, it is enough to do it once, and if you do more, you are tired, and after that, it is meaningless. The sadness that can't shed tears, the grievances that can't be explained, don't say it, accumulate in the bottom of the heart and form a scar, when I think about it, I break my intestines, and say, for this unsatisfactory world, it is inevitable to feel hypocritical and vulgar.

As soon as it is said, the peach blossoms fall to the end of the moon and the west. I don't regret meeting you, and I don't rebel against your decision. If one day you will wear your wedding dress and become a mother, please don't let me know. Love is all-encompassing, but for me, it's hard to accept. I just want to silently bless you, may you get true happiness, you deserve a better life, and a better future. I can't bear to think that when crossing the street, he will hold your hand, when it rains, he will hold an umbrella for you, when you are sad, he will comfort you, when you are angry, he will smile and coax you, when you cry, he will hold you tightly in his arms and say: Baby, you still have me, I have always been here!

I don't know how to deal with it, past and present. I think of your low eyebrows and smiles, your soft whispers. I will never forget that in that abandoned playground, reflecting the sunset, I saw your side face, which was the most beautiful silhouette I have ever seen. We have walked through so many ups and downs hand in hand, and we have also longed for a better future together. Although I always let you down, we can always believe that everything will get better if we work hard. Only this time, I really can't save this stopped love. Maybe too much disappointment, unhappiness, has long drowned out the original passion. Standing on a low place looking up at the mountains, standing on a high place and longing for the flat river, when you see me again, I lose my previous eagerness, replaced by impatience and disgust. I can imagine how much sadness and disappointment you have accumulated behind your "giving up", and I understand that my performance should be over. At this point, I accept it, and I really have to accept it. But no matter how reality changes, don't forget our past. Although this relationship is full of flaws, there is no sound appearance, and it is not favored. But we have all wanted to run well, learned to embellish our lives with new recipes, learned to plan a few movies we must see every week, learned to watch a few TV shows, learned to start tidying up our cluttered little home, learned to discuss some life philosophies, and learned to summarize the bits and pieces of life.

I don't know if you've ever thought about it, but those memories are really indelible to me, and they will always remain in my heart for a lifetime. I don't know how long I can live in this former two-person world, and every day when I look up is your shadow, and there are traces of you everywhere. I have one of your hairs, turned over in the quilt, and lies there quietly. I was reluctant to lose it, it was still warm at first, and now it is the same as our feelings, sometimes clear, sometimes vague, as if it never existed, just a black line. I'll clip it into your binder and let it go back to its owner. I really want to keep you, there are too many complaints and reluctance, but in the end I can only say that no matter what happens in the future, I hope you must live in good health. I used to be very worried about your genetic disease, and only a positive and optimistic attitude can handle anything that comes your way. Do more aerobic exercise, pay attention to the changes in your body, and go for medical check-ups from time to time. Don't delay or despise being busy or other things. Although I don't have any money now, if one day, you really call me, don't worry, all my account passwords are your birthday, and I won't change them in this life. I don't think about him, I just want to repay the season of Fanghua that I owed you in my previous life.

Don't be a housewife if you can, I really don't want to see you become a woman in the kitchen, dining room, bathroom. Don't be like that, I will be very sad to live up to my talent! Remember to wear light and ankle-friendly cloth shoes for running, don't wear sneakers that squeeze your feet, it's more troublesome to change shoes, at least you can suffer a lot less, and your feet won't always be swollen. Don't ride too fast, it's not a race. Maybe you don't need to ride a bike. Baby, may you be healthy and happy for the rest of your life! You rarely wear skirts, I know why, it doesn't matter anymore. And when you sleep, try to cover as much quilt as possible, you always roll up the quilt, every time I wake up from the cold, I have to chase the quilt, two people are easy to catch a cold. And the way you sleep, so ugly, you can't close your mouth, as if you are always dreaming of delicious food. If it weren't for the separation, I would never have told you. Don't put the pillow too high, it's too soft, if it fits, you won't snore when you sleep, but I can't hear it anymore.

Don't be too wordy, when you write, try to choose a curved inner arch back in the chair, and don't put too high cushions. The waist should be moved regularly. If your shoulders are sore, you can call someone to rub them, and I don't have a chance. I hope he has a bigger hand than me, and is willing to pinch your shoulder for the rest of his life. Be careful when driving, you have a well-developed right brain and an atrophied left brain, and I'm worried about you driving. The road is not safe in any way, you must remind him yourself to pay attention to safety.

Finally, don't forget about me. I held back my tears and said goodbye to you, these words were soaked in tears, I will write more. From meeting to holding hands, from acquaintance to acquaintance, there is not a day when I don't think about you. Not a day goes by that I don't miss my dearest you. In those years, those crazy days, I forgot that I was a person with parents. In those years, those years of struggle, I was completely a wild child who jumped into the quagmire and forgot to be happy, just because I saw your eyes on the shore, and since then I have been deeply fascinated by you. For the first time, I had the opportunity to give a girl a gift, for the first time, I had the opportunity to compete for the leading role for a person, for the first time, I had the opportunity to go out for a person, for the first time, I had the opportunity to kneel down for a person and beg for forgiveness, and for the first time, I found that I had found a love, not just a companion!

Now, after all, I have to go out of the house alone, or face all this alone. You've always been by my side, I don't know how to prepare for my life without you, and I don't know how to live without you. The simplicity and happiness you want, now I can't give it. Every time I think about it, I have to cry for my incompetence and helplessness. Faced with a dazed situation, I just want to cry, longing to be taken in and redeemed by souls I know well. My dearest person, the person I couldn't afford to lose, left me without looking back, and in the end I had to go on my own.

My love, don't forget me.

I don't know if you ended up saying goodbye to me, but I love you forever!

Be happy!

If you are not happy, you can't find love, come back to my arms!