Because of the Chinese New Year, Ah Long and Li Shan have returned. Meetings are indispensable.

Huang Mao has developed very well in the county, and he opened a restaurant by himself at a young age, because of the power, the business of the hotel is very good, and many people come to cheer.

On the twenty-ninth day of the lunar month, many restaurants in the county were closed, but Huangmao's Hongyun Inn had been busy, and said that Chinese New Year's Eve had prepared a Chinese New Year's Eve dinner. A group of young waiters are paid three salaries, and these young people just like to make more money, and all of them are willing to do it.

At noon that day, a group of people made an appointment with Hongyun Inn.

I saw that it was only eleven o'clock, and it was still early, so I helped my father clean up and do some chores at home.

In fact, there is nothing to do, my father loves to be clean, Huang Mao takes care of him thoughtfully, although the courtyard is remote, but it is very clean.

"Don't do it, come, sit down and have tea with me. "My father stood at the door of the main house and greeted me.

After filling the urn with water, he set the bucket aside, wiped his hands, and walked over.

Father's eyes flashed, "Why do you have so much strength? ”

"Fitness...... If we models want to stay in shape, we have to get fit. Foreign models don't have to be thin and small in China, all of them have a sense of strength, so there will be some strength training, you see my hands, they are all grinding out of cocoons. I said with a smile on my open hand. I also wanted to divert my father's attention elsewhere and prevent him from knowing about my job as a policeman.

"Come on in," my father said with a smile......

Holding the warm black tea, his mind still hasn't come back from abroad.

I always unconsciously think of the things I did during training, and I also recall and review those knowledge in my mind, so that I always have a sense of vigilance. It's like an occupational disease.

"Feifei, Dad thinks you've changed a lot. My father put down the bowl and looked at me with a kind face.

"For the better or for the worse?" I said with a smile, a faint smile. My father doesn't get suspicious, so I don't hide my heart too much.

"It's an indescribable change, but it's matured a lot. You were precocious when you were young, and now you feel more mature than before. The father said, his eyes suddenly became more worried, "A person should look young when he is young, and he should look old when he is old, but you are different. Dad is worried that you are so mature that you will not be able to stand it in your heart. ”

"I think it's good, don't worry. I laughed.

"You can't be serious about doing things, but don't take it too seriously......," my father said strangely.

"......" I looked at him puzzled, but the thought in my mind was Steve, who had been training together in Canada.

You are an extremely eccentric, but extraordinary police officer.

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Steve is American, and he has the cheerfulness and uninhibition of an American police officer. His personality is the most special among the students, and he has tried not to listen to the words of the instructor, so that he has been punished many times. However, it is still my own way. But I have to say that he is really very smart, and his grades are always at the top.

However, IQ is not the main reason why the American police sent him to Canada to study, the main reason why he was sent to the training is that - this guy has a very high crime solving rate - the sword is biased but always makes criminals fall to justice.

Of all the students, he was the most curious about me...... He even invited me to go to the United States to find him.

However, that guy had too many ideas, and when I went to the United States for the catwalk, I didn't dare to contact him.

At this moment, the reason why I think of him is because he also said something similar to my living father, except that it is not "serious or not serious", but - never let the thinking of the superior limit his thoughts.

There is a feeling that the king's life will be affected by the outside.

He said very bluntly that he would go undercover when he returned to the United States in the future, and it was a very dangerous undercover agent.

At that time, I had a hunch that I might also be an undercover agent, but Section Chief Qin never said it, and I didn't tell Steve. But admittedly, I was curious about his thoughts.

"How would you go undercover?" I asked Steve.

Steve smirked and said, "I'm telling you, don't tell anyone." ”

"Of course...... Believe my mouth. ”

After hearing this, he asked me very mysteriously: "Do you know how many undercover agents died?"

"Dead after being discovered?"

"No, it's because they care too much about their identity, too much about their undercover identity......"

"Yes. I replied with a smile and no comment.

"Mo, I'm very curious about you, I feel like you'll definitely be an undercover agent in the future. However, you have to remember that you are a person, not an undercover agent, and even less a police officer. You have to be like an actor, when you play that role, you have to tear apart your former self and then reintegrate it into your life...... Remember, human consciousness is visible. When any of your 'undercover' or 'police' thoughts are rippling in your mind, others will suspect your ...... even if they can't see it."

"I can understand what you say, but we are indeed police. Even if we are undercover, we will have to meet with our bosses later. ”

"yes, that's the point...... Many undercover agents, in the final analysis, were killed by their bosses. Steve smiled mysteriously again: "...... Remember, when you become an undercover agent, not only do you have to forget who you are, but you also have to get rid of your boss! Do whatever you want, as long as you don't forget your purpose! And the best thing to do is to make your purpose the most normal desire...... For example, if we go undercover and want to get our hands on the most important secrets, what are we going to do?"

"Try your best to get close to the main drug lords......" replied without thinking.

"No, a really capable undercover agent will tell others that I am a drug lord! I am going to be the most powerful drug lord! and then he will approach the drug lord as quickly as possible. ”

After hearing this, I had a feeling of being sudden, and I tasted it and asked, "What if you go undercover in the underworld?

"Of course, how else would you have access to the deepest secrets?" he said with a smile.

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"Fei Fei?" my father called out to me again.

"Oh?" I hastened to gather my thoughts, "what's wrong?"

"Look at you, are you still distracted when chatting with Dad? Dad just told you that you can't be too strong and too serious about your work in the future. After all, you're a girl. Don't say that Dad is patriarchal, it's just that Dad wants to see you live a plain and happy life, don't take your career too seriously, you know?"

"Huh...... Dad, I don't feel like I'm in control of my own destiny right now. I am being pushed by others and by this society. I smiled bitterly and drank the tea, the tea was very fragrant, and it was warm after it soaked into my heart and spleen.

"Why does Dad feel that you are becoming less and less like a model?" said Dad suddenly.

At that moment, my heart suddenly tensed, because I had to keep my identity as a model......

So, I hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?"

"I can't tell...... If you have to describe it, it's like the aura that people say. Your aura is very positive now. ”

"Right?" I asked.

"Yes, it's like the leaders of those troops I've come into contact with before, and it's like the police officers I've seen, and I can feel that righteousness in me. It was supposed to be a good thing, but when I thought about you being a famous model, it felt a little wrong. Hehe, maybe Dad is thinking too much...... Hehe, hehehehe......" Dad smiled and poured me tea, "but Dad really feels that way." ”

At that moment, I suddenly felt a little suspenseful in my heart.

Although my father's vision is a little more tricky than many people, he is not the sharpest. If he can see the clues, I will naturally change this righteousness. Because I'm most likely going undercover. Moreover, I don't want Wei Guhai to feel the police smell on me.

"Thank you, Dad...... You always get to the point. I hurriedly raised my teacup and saluted him.

His eyes widened suddenly, "You kid, I'm not praising you, how can you be like a child who has made a mistake?"

Naturally, I couldn't explain to my dad that I was actually a police officer, but through my father's words, I also knew my own shortcomings. The two-and-a-half-year training seemed to brainwash me and filled me with a sense of mission as a police officer.

However, I now realize that I want to hide this sense of mission and righteousness deep in my heart.

"Dad, I was just wrong, I should be like a red model. Tell me, how I look like a red mold. I asked. After all, the way others see themselves is always different.

"You watch ...... on TV" He turned his head to look at the TV, there happened to be a news with entertainment news on it, "Since you said that you want to be a model, Dad often watches these stories in the entertainment industry, and he is used to watching those people all day long, so he thinks you are different from them." You see," he pointed to the actresses on the red carpet on TV, "Look at them, they are beautiful, but do you look at their eyes are a little ......"

I looked at the actresses standing at the end of the red carpet, signing on the signing board, and when they turned around and posed for the camera, their eyes did drift.

"When you say that, you're a little floaty......" I said with a smile.

"Do you know why they have those looks? I feel like they're off the ground. Especially those female stars who are the same age as you and are not deeply involved in the world. Father said meaningfully.

"...... "I didn't know what my father meant by leaving the ground, so I quietly waited for his explanation with a tea bowl.

"Dad looked at people's abilities and talked about the past, so I wondered what was going on with these children......? I've figured it out a little, but I don't know if it's right......"

You say. ”

"I thought they weren't grounded off the ground. They are different after they become famous and stars. Being held by the stars like the moon, changing in many roles, in such an environment, people will not feel satisfied, but will be particularly empty...... As the old saying goes, it's like losing your soul. But they're right, don't we all call those people stars? They are like stars in the sky, they are not grounded. When you look at them closely, you can feel their loneliness and emptiness. ”

At that moment, I inexplicably thought of a sentence in my mind: behind the prosperity is loneliness.

Although I am lonely inside, the reality has pressed me to the ground, and if I leave the police profession, I may also float to the sky. Become a lonely star and constitute a lonely soul.

"I also watch a lot of entertainment news...... said that there are the most depressed patients in the entertainment industry, and many commit suicide. So, Dad thinks you're in a good state like this. Down-to-earth, too, soul!" said my father very happily.

However, at that moment, I knew what it would be like to go back to Kyoto.

I want to be weak and boneless, cold, lonely, and proud.

I looked at the clock next to me and it was already half past eleven, and I quickly stood up and said, "Oh, it's time!

"Hehe, go ahead! Dad feels that your righteous body has something to do with them! There is such a righteous anger that Dad likes! Go...... Don't rush on the road. ”

"Got it, Dad!" I smiled and took my coat and walked out the door.

When I turned around, I saw my father standing at the door of the main house with a stick, and I hurriedly waved at him and stepped out of the door.

Suddenly, the sun shined a lot brighter in my heart. Father, always at the critical point of my life, can push me down.

However, it was my father's education that caused me to have some unexpected chemical reactions when I returned to Kyoto.

"Empty, lonely, cold. By the way, be a little more arrogant and a little colder. Yeah... Celebrities are right, and they must not be down-to-earth. I couldn't help but laugh as I pondered these things.

It's just that after returning to Kyoto, will they really let me go undercover as a red model?