Don’t wait for prosperity to care for the things important to you.

Since there are avatars on TV, group photos in newspapers, and signed articles, Yuan Qiuhua wants to be incognito, and it is impossible to hide, so new and old friends come to visit. Lin Qiying of the Provincial Youth League Committee is one of them.

Judging from the dress, Lin Qiying is definitely an ordinary person, from the perspective of figure and appearance, she is only average, but she is polite to others, knowledgeable, civilized and elegant in speech, decent in conversation, full of wisdom, very bookish in speech, and just right, doing things in an orderly manner, revealing a proud dignity, walking demeanor but noble demeanor, extraordinary temperament, and overflowing with self-confidence.

Pretty is the natural enemy of a woman's career, and most excellent women are not beautiful, at least not because they are beautiful. She was born in a high-ranking Kochi family, highly educated, a dignified and reserved intellectual woman, a master's degree student in law at a prestigious university, held an important position before she was thirty, lived a decent and noble life, and won the respect of all men and women. A good woman doesn't have to play a woman's tricks to conquer a man.

In the autumn of 2001, Yuan Qiuhua met her at the New Year's party of the two schools when she was studying at the Advanced Seminar for Writers at the Lu Xun Academy of Literature in Beijing. On holidays, we will accompany the Temple of Heaven temple fair, visit the Ditan Night Market, go to Tiananmen Square to watch the flag-raising, climb the fragrant mountain to enjoy the red leaves, and a Tianjin hemp flower, break it in half, divide and eat it.

After the completion of the seminar, Yuan Qiuhua worked part-time as a proofreader in a daily newspaper, and went to Peking University to take classes and work as an auditor outside the establishment. Outside of class, the two of them either went to Wangfujing to visit the store and buy cultural shirts exactly the same, or went to the Liulichang to dig out the four treasures of the study, ancient books and paintings, or drilled the four alleys in the east, explored the courtyard, and watched the big archway, or tasted the root snacks of the imperial city, the pickles of Liubiju, the roast duck of Quanjude, the spiced tea eggs of Dashilar, the rock sugar gourd of Chongwenmen, the donkey meat of Balizhuang, and the pancakes and fruits of Muxidi.

After graduation, Fan Qiying participated in the civil service examination of the provincial organs, first worked in the Provincial Party Committee Inspectorate Office, the probation period expired, and the rank was set as the deputy chief clerk, and then went down to the grassroots level, and served as a member of the Standing Committee of the District Party Committee and the Minister of Propaganda in the urban area of Huangshi City.

Yuan Qiuhua and Xiao Lizi parted ways, and returned to the county seat, first taking care of the two nieces who lost their mother, and later getting married. The two of them are separate, and they often talk about everything on the Internet, reminiscing about the past, putting their hearts in their hearts, talking about their immediate troubles, and treating them as close friends.

Friends reunited after a long absence, and the two walked along the shore of East Lake, chatting with each other, talking about the latest situation, and sighing with emotion.

In that year, Yuan Qiuhua and Xiao Li Zi went north together to study, one studied at Luxun Academy of Literature, and the other studied at Beijing Film Academy. The two girls played, Xiao Lizi appeared halfway from time to time, Yuan Qiuhua invited a treat, he was responsible for paying, Lin Qiying met Xiao Lizi from this, she saw the love affair of sharing hardships and supporting each other, but she didn't know that today, in the same city, why is it a stranger?

As soon as this remark came out, Yuan Qiuhua suspected that she was a lobbyist sent by Xiao Lizi, and came to explore the way for him, so she immediately kept silent. Before Yuan Qiuhua's trip, he didn't know that Xiao Li Zi was in the provincial capital, and thought he was in Hong Kong or Shenzhen, but after reading "Chutian Heroic Model", he knew that he was one of the heroic model characters reported in the book, and he was the real estate agent of the Li Group in the provincial capital. The Li family, who is rich enough to rival the country, was right at that time, "money can solve all problems, including normal and abnormal", and even the people from the Propaganda Department of the Provincial Party Committee had to give face to the Li family, not to mention the people of the Provincial Youth League Committee. Lin Qiying is an old acquaintance of the two, and it is perfect to invite her to an interview.

All the problems stemmed from that terrible car accident. The two rented a car to go to Xiangshan to worship the Buddha and make a vow, and halfway to the road, in order to dodge the coal truck, the car overturned, rolled down the roadbed, and fell to the ground on all four wheels. In an instant, between life and death, Xiao Lizi turned around and pounced on Yuan Qiuhua, covering her under herself, her lumbar spine was smashed by the steering wheel and fell into a coma. Yuan Qiuhua's face emerged from under his armpit, and the smashed glass slag of the front window was like a flying knife, cutting through her face, like shrenchnel, shooting into her face, dripping with blood, trembling at the sight, blurring her face, and terrifying to watch.

Yuan Qiuhua's appearance was ruined, she became ugly, and she was helpless except to cry for her disfigurement, and she was helpless for Xiao Lizi to be unconscious, except for crying.

For surgery, the family must be resigned, and the hospital will call Li's family to inform them of the condition. The Li family arrived, made a decision immediately, and was transferred to the United States for treatment by special plane, and Yuan Qiuhua was also sent to South Korea for face repair surgery.

The medical expenses of the two of them are astronomical for Yuan Qiuhua, and she can't earn them in three lifetimes, and she can't pay it back. Money is something that makes the world a better place, and it is also something that makes the world a worse place, something that no one can do without in real life. In the face of huge medical expenses, she had to admit that her previous thoughts were too naïve, and she did not understand the mundane world on which people depended, and there were many objective realities that individuals could not escape. There are indeed many injustices in society, and there are many inequalities in life, but what exists is reasonable, whether it is discrimination, humiliation, or harm, in fact, there is no way to do it. In my life, I don't know how many misunderstandings I have to suffer? In addition to enduring it with a stuffy head, swallowing my anger, and patiently guarding it, I am just waiting for the day when the sunrise of Yunkai will come.

The two fell in love, due to differences in origin, geographical differences, and the gap between the rich and the poor, both of them were under great pressure, the Yuan family speculated that Xiao Lizi was a playboy, and the Li family suspected that Yuan Qiuhua was a female fraudster, although they were not like rough people, they treated each other with white eyes, spoke coldly, and were warm and thoughtful on the surface, but many things were concealed, or bypassed them, and when they knew to ask, they either replied "This should not be your mind", or laughed and said, "You don't understand these" , don't give the burden and don't weigh it, don't have the opportunity to cultivate, and simply treat them as parasites waiting to die. Even if Yuan Qiuhua worked hard and proved his talent with "The Biography of Li Shicheng", Hong Kong is a paradise for capitalists, and dancing and writing ink are small skills of carving insects.

Time cannot be reversed, poverty and hardship cannot be exchanged for respect, only self-improvement and hard work can surpass the contempt of others. The two of them resolutely went north hand in hand, wandered alone, and resolutely sought knowledge and made a living independently. One learns literature, the other learns film, the two devote themselves to reading, dreams dictate, hearts dictate, learning will not bring any adverse side effects, and opportunism can not last. The basement life in Beipiao gave Yuan Qiuhua the opportunity to get close to the ordinary people, and found that most people lived simply, their lives were full of vitality and vitality, the simple joy of smiling their eyebrows, and the optimism and boldness tempered by the scars of their hearts, finally made her understand that frustration and demolition are nothing, one tribulation is conquered and then another tribulation comes, life is so struggling with herself, and the more and more real sense of insignificance makes her more down-to-earth.

Simple study, simple work, so that she away from the kind of superficial harmony, but behind the scenes, in order to stand out, even unscrupulous complex personnel, both relaxed and fulfilling, happy on the face. At nine o'clock in the evening, she went to bed, and her life was very punctual and regular, but in the past, she didn't sleep until dawn, didn't get up until the afternoon, and didn't go out of the room for ten days and a half months, so she gained 20 pounds. Xiao Lizi said, "You are much stronger and more sturdy, and you are also much more lively and cheerful, compared with the past one, who was tall and arrogant, reserved and stiff, it is simply a world of difference!"

Yuan Qiuhua knows that it is an independent life, which has changed his state of mind, self-esteem and self-respect, and knows how to live, if he wants to enjoy the warm sunshine, he must not be able to brush away the shadows, and he must learn to pretend not to see it. Trying to abandon all that should be abandoned, the hatred left by humiliation, the unspeakable load in her heart, the noisy and energy-consuming noise, the endless explanations, the obstinacy of power, the greed for money, the struggle for fame, her only wish is to be happy. As it is now, simply living and being happy is the true meaning. Survival is actually very simple, and in today's society, it is becoming more and more convenient to choose and choose ways to make a living. As long as we are willing to work hard and become a champion in our deeds, where will there be no chance of getting ahead? How can a person's personal value and social value be measured by money? Don't be greedy for quick profits, be content and happy, don't seek foreign wealth, and be ashamed. Don't be extravagant about life, don't be strict with yourself, in short, let it be, what do you want so much? If you don't want much, everyone can live a satisfying life!

But before they could get ahead, they couldn't wait to cause a car accident, wielding the big stick of money, and beating people dizzy. Life-saving money has become the only standard, and if you can get it, you can live, and if you can't take it, you can only wait for death. This is Yuan Qiuhua's consideration for Xiao Lizi, the most unacceptable ending, her biggest guilt is that she was stuck in her personal dreams before, and she missed so many opportunities to make money, so that now she can't get the money to save Xiao Lizi's life, she can't eat, can't sleep at night, and spent two years to gain weight Twenty pounds of meat, in just three days, turned into nothing, seven days later, her weight dropped to seventy pounds, skinny as firewood.

So far, breaking up is the only condition proposed by the Li family, and Yuan Qiuhua has no choice but to leave in silence. On the overpass of the National People's Congress, there was once a white-headed, white-eyebrowed and white-bearded Xiangshi, who stopped Xiao Lizi and showed him for free, "The heavens are full, the corners of the earth are round, the two earlobes are beads, and the future is either rich or expensive, but it is a pity that there is a peach blossom mole in the corner of the eye, and it is difficult to escape a catastrophe, but the catastrophe will not die, and the rest of your life will be blessed, and you will definitely glorify your ancestors, and your name will be at home and abroad." Every time she remembered this salty words, she blamed herself for adding a point, if she hadn't made a wish, she would have gone to repay the wish, if she hadn't dragged him with her, he would never have suffered if he didn't accompany her, she would rather die herself than be in danger. Therefore, she deduced that she was an ominous person and should no longer associate with him, maybe the two really did not agree, the five elements were mutually reinforcing, and it was not suitable to marry, and there was no fate. But after the breakup, she never regretted it, Xiao Lizi's cover move, leave life to her lover, give death to herself, let life speak, even if the two die together, she has no regrets, since both of them are alive, as long as it is good for him, what she does for him, she is willing, compared with life, everything is a floating cloud, if life is gone, how can love continue in blessings?

After the car accident, the two complied with the conditions and never saw each other face-to-face again. But on the Internet, the two have never broken contact, and last night he told her that the reason why he was engaged in real estate in the Li Group was only because of the high profit margin of real estate, and he wanted to earn the most money in the shortest possible time. He wants to return the medical expenses of the two to the Li family in exchange for freedom, his freedom, and her freedom.

The car accident, except for reminiscing with Xiao Lizi, Yuan Qiuhua didn't mention it to anyone, and his parents never knew about it. Disfigured, she didn't even dare to say anything about Xiao Lizi, and she was even more grateful to the Li family for their kindness, and never told him, didn't let him know the details, and didn't say anything that ruined her. The ugly face is too terrifying, terrifying, even I can't bear it, I look at it, I don't want to look at it a second time in this life, even if I only look at it, I will never forget it in this life, I can't remember it during the day, but it appears in a dream at night, and the face is as hideous as the devil, so scared that she is creepy, sweating profusely, and she can't forget it. What's more, others, especially Xiao Lizi, fortunately he didn't wake up, otherwise he wouldn't have contacted again.

Naturally, Yuan Qiuhua would not tell Lin Qiying.

Lin Qiying changed the topic: The current living situation is harmful to you, you have to try to save yourself!

Yuan Qiuhua said: What kind of channel is there to save yourself? I am waiting for you to save the dead and help the wounded!

Lin Qiying said: People go to high places, water flows to low places, thirty-six strategies, walking is the best policy. Is there anything wrong with your ability to stay in the provincial capital, find a job, and support yourself?

Yuan Qiuhua said: Before I came, did I solve all the problems? House, move in, work, go to work, just wait for me to do it step by step!

Lin Qiying said: Ming people don't know how to speak code, they can understand it at one point, and they are happy! Go to the "Zhizhi" magazine of the Provincial Women's Federation, be an editor, and be an old business, you should do it.

Yuan Qiuhua said: The starting point is high, the stage is big, there is no reason to refuse, thank you for your love for me, unforgettable in this life!

Lin Qiying said: No courtesy! I will go to eat, rub and stop!

Yuan Qiuhua said: Welcome at any time, patronage can not be empty-handed, bring your own wine and food.

Lin Qiying said: Just like when I was in Beijing, it's just ---

Yuan Qiuhua said: "Fork, it's just your head? A girl from a barbarian elf is like a ghost, and she can't see the sun!

Lin Qiying said: Entrusted by others.

Yuan Qiuhua said: If you can't pretend to be serious for three moments, the fox's tail will be exposed, and you will betray the horse's feet!

Lin Qiying said: Open the skylight and say bright words, don't lie in front of friends.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Men are liars, and women are fools. Marriage prisoners are fools, succumb to compromises, besiege the city and trap liars, free and happy.

Lin Qiying said: Hearing you say this, I don't dare to get married.

Yuan Qiuhua said: I don't dare to marry, but I dare to match?

Lin Qiying said: A lover will eventually become a family, not an outer room, trampled under the feet of the world.

Yuan Qiuhua said: Is it to repay grievances with virtue, or to fight to death?

Lin Qiying said: It's best to refine the elixir!