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I pursed my mouth, and I didn't know why, I slapped Li Mengqi hard.

"You ......" Li Mengqi's tears flowed out.

“…… You hit me. Li Mengqi covered her cheek and looked at me.

"I'm asking you to reflect on it, what do you want to do in that kind of place?!Do you want to be a chicken?!" I yelled at Li Mengqi.

"Then do you know that there is a girl waiting for you for a long time. She watches you walk with other girls every day. Her heart didn't get a response, and her heart hurt a lot......" Li Mengqi held her cheek, lowered her head and said to me with tears in her eyes.

"It's not that I don't respond, but I can't respond, do you know......" I didn't say any more, I opened the door and walked out. Throw the pill to the doctor.

Dressed in a black short-sleeved shirt, I came to the river and squatted down silently by myself.

When did she become so important in my heart?

It turns out that unconsciously, can it also affect a person?

I don't know, I really don't know, I don't know what to do, who can tell me?

What am I going to do?

I buried my head in my knees. I don't know what to do.

What can I do now? I know, I can't do anything.

In the darkness of the night, I want to know what I can change.

I burst into tears. I'm cowardly and don't know what to do.

It turns out that I am also a flowery person!

Is it wrong that I want not to let go, that I want to hold on to everything that is good?

Is it wrong that I want to protect her?

It is impossible for Li Mengqi and I to be together.

I know, I've known since the beginning, but I still can't help but care for her, love her, and protect her. Able to give me everything I can.

But from the moment she said it, I still regretted it.

If I could, I really hope I wouldn't be so nice to her, I still wish I was that rotten person.

If you can. I really don't want to meet her anymore.

I buried my head in my knees.

As soon as my neck was cold, Qin Mengdie put cold beer on my neck.

"Don't think so much, calm down. Qin Mengdie sat down on the side, lay on the lawn and closed her eyes.

“…… What should I do?" I asked Qin Mengdie.

"I don't know, I'm not you, if I were you, I would definitely do what I had to do. Qin Mengdie said a word.

"What should be done?What should be done is what can't be done, so what should I do?!" I looked at Qin Mengdie and said loudly.

"It's noisy~ The body is on your body, what to do and what not to do, do you still need me to teach you? In fact, you already have the answer in your heart, no matter what choice you make, it's a choice, that's all. Qin Mengdie said to me on the side.

Qin Mengdie and I were talking and drinking wine.

"What exactly do you think, you can only ask yourself. Qin Mengdie stood up, touched my head, and left.

What exactly do I think?

I don't know.

It's not that I don't know, but I know, but I run away.

I'll admit, I did run away.

Because I'm afraid I'll be tempted to touch that string that can't be touched!

I don't know when I started caring about Li Mengqi.

Her smile was all deeply engraved in my mind.

Even the way I usually push behind my back and urge me to study hard is deeply engraved in my mind.

I don't know what to do, maybe I'm just such a cowardly piece of shit.

Are you afraid?

Suddenly, a voice in my head asked me.

Are you afraid?

Am I afraid?

What am I afraid of?

I don't know what I'm afraid of.

There's a girl waiting for you, are you still scared?

She is more afraid than you, but she is still brave enough to speak out, because everyone has the right to pursue what they love, and she is the same, she is more afraid than you, what are you afraid of?

Who am I to be afraid?

Maybe in the end, I may not be able to respond to this feeling, but at least for now, I hope I don't regret the decision I made!

I turned on my phone and watched the light on the screen still shine on my face, and at that moment, I was eighteen years old.

Whatever I do, I'm responsible for what I do.

I got up from the river and walked home step by step.

I walked very slowly, very slowly, I wanted to slow down my time, I wanted to slow down my time a little bit, to take a good look at the world in front of me.

I also want to try to live a little longer.

I went back to the house, the house was dim and terrible, Li Mengqi didn't know where it was, but I knew, I could feel it, she was in the house.

On the balcony, I saw her. 、

She held her hands and looked out the window at the balcony, and I suddenly realized why my mother always thought the balcony was dangerous, even though she was just standing like that, but she felt that she was unusually dangerous, because ...... Care.

I finally got to know how they were feeling, and I became like them.

"What are you doing outside?" I asked softly to Li Mengqi.

"Nothing, just think...... The world is not as beautiful as I imagined. Li Mengqi looked at the gray sky, and there were only two or three stars scattered in the sky that emitted a faint light.

“…… Really?" I approached Li Mengqi and looked at her delicate cheeks, which were still red, and I realized that I had just done too much.

"Will you give up?" I asked.

"No, I still want to tell you, Li Lin!" Li Mengqi turned her head and said to me very seriously.

I can feel it, I can feel Li Mengqi's mood.

My heart beat faster, my breathing quickened, and my eyes slowly widened.

"I want to tell you, tell you...... My heart!" Li Mengqi said to me with tears in her eyes and a smile like a flower.

"Li Lin! I ...... I love ...... I like ......" Li Mengqi plucked up her courage, her cheeks were pink and pink, very cute!

"Wait!" I put my hand over Li Mengqi's mouth, and a smile appeared on my face.

"Actually, I knew, I knew it a long time ago, so...... I want to respond to you too. I smiled at Li Mengqi.

Li Mengqi's cheeks quickly flushed, and she buried her head in her chest, she lowered her head and looked at me with her cheeks blushing, waiting for my words.

I looked at her nervous look and felt so cute!

She wrapped her fingers around her hair and kept turning around to look at me, her eyes wide open.

"Me too!" Mengqi ......" I smiled softly at Li Mengqi.

"Me too, I like myself too. I nodded and put my hands on Li Mengqi's shoulders.

"Mmmm, yes, I like myself too. I nodded and touched Li Mengqi's hair again.

Li Mengqi blinked her big eyes, her long eyelashes were blank, she just looked at me blankly, and stood quietly for a few seconds.

"Ah~ I'm so tired, I'm going to sleep. I yawned, hammered my old waist, and went back to my room.

At this moment, Li Mengqi finally came back to her senses, her little cheeks were red with anger, and she made a scissor kick directly at me!

"I'll kill you!!!!!! I'll kill you !!!!!!!!!!! scumbag" Li Mengqi first clamped my neck with a scissor kick, and then hit me desperately, again and again, using all the strength of his body.

"How can you do this?~Woo woo woo ~ you slut !!! woo woo woo ~ you cheat on my feelings!! I killed you!!" Li Mengqi cried and beaten, like a crazy woman.

"Oh, Mom, have you beaten enough?!" I grabbed Li Mengqi's two arms, her eyes were red, and she looked like she had been bullied by someone.

"It's not enough! you bully me!! you bastard bully me!!" Li Mengqi cried and opened her mouth to bite me.

"Damn, you like me, you don't want me to like yourself!" I said to Li Mengqi with a speechless smile.

Li Mengqi didn't care, she just bit me one at a time.

"Have you bitten enough~" I looked at my body covered in tooth marks and saliva speechlessly, and looked at her speechlessly.

"Not enough! I ...... I ......" Li Mengqi looked at me with a choked voice.

I looked at her cute appearance, and finally I couldn't help it, and the last line of defense was lost.

I pressed Li Mengqi under me, looked at her lovely cheeks seriously, grabbed her two arms, and kissed her thin crystal lips.

In an instant, fragrant fragrance appeared between us, and I felt Li Mengqi's body temperature, and closed my eyes tightly in response to her feelings for me.

She snorted, and her tense body went limp.

"I'll admit that I'm a scumbag, but you're not a good girl when you fall in love with a scumbag, and it's too late to regret it now. I gently leaned over to feel her soft lips, and little by little I enjoyed it, asking for her lips......

"I don't regret it! I'm going to take revenge on you! I'm going to take revenge on you for your scumbag, I'm going to take care of you for the rest of my life! I don't want you to lie to other girls anymore!" Li Mengqi's eyes were red, and she looked at me like that and said jealously.

"What a little fool!" I gently touched Li Mengqi's head and said helplessly.

That innocence and beauty spread between our bodies, Li Mengqi and I lay on the same bed, I hugged her soft body tightly, and fell asleep groggily......

That year, I was eighteen years old.