"No, I just feel that people are always so difficult to get along with each other and understand each other. "I scratched my hair. A sound slowly sounded.

I stopped what I was doing and felt a little tired.

"Dream Butterfly~" I hugged her gently, just hugged her so tightly in the back, it actually filled my heart with a warm feeling.

Probably, man is such a simple creature.

I am really similar to Qin Mengdie. It's a lot like.

It feels like another me, we all want to be free, but we are bound by this annoying reality, and all we can do is carry it.

Qin Mengdie closed the computer and pushed me into the room. Ikemi is a talent.

"You've been working too hard lately, take a good rest. Qin Mengdie looked at me with a smile on her face, and her face was a little flushed.

Get done with that. I felt a little ethereal in my body, it felt like I didn't want to do anything, but I wanted to do everything.

When I used to be a boy, I just thought about that every day except to make money, but now I think about it, in fact...... It's not a big deal.

When you get something, you think, it's not a big deal.

"When I was young, everyone took care of me, and no one paid attention to me. Skipping school and fighting, gradually growing up a little bit, I feel that this is not the way to go on, I want to make money, I snubbed many people, did many things wrong, and now ...... I still don't have anything. "I silently looked out the window, propped up my head and looked at the people on the street.

When I was young, I always thought stupidly that I would never help others work in the future, I would be a big boss, make a lot of money, and I would never follow the crowd. You can do whatever you want, and most importantly – be free.

When I grew up, I realized that I had always thought that I could be free, but it was just a dream.

"No matter where we go, we are naïve and immature, we are always controlled, whether it is our boss or our parents, how can we be bound by people......" I looked out the window, slowly took out a box of cigarettes from my pocket, and silently lit it.

Because of Dream Butterfly, she doesn't like the smell of smoke. So I can only smoke outside.

"Don't think about that kind of thing, just be with you and me...... That's enough, now I have money, I have saved 50,000 yuan, and I have almost a little savings. Behind me, Qin Mengdie stretched out her hand, hugged my medicine, and put her head on my back like that.

My heart trembled a little, her salary far exceeded mine, even 30,000 a month, in a high-end hotel, I am now starting to have a little gap with her.

I indulged in this warmth, actually...... I'm scared.

An inexplicable fear in a man's heart dominates me.

I'm not as good as her, I'm not worthy of her, I'm always so a failure, not good enough!

When another man, a man who is even better than me, appears in front of Qin Mengdie, what can I leave of?

I was a little scared, I didn't know anymore, I started to wander again.

I gently pushed Qin Mengdie away, snuffed out the cigarette butt, and sat on the stool.

I bit the nail of my thumb and thought, this is a habit I've been in for years, and I silently lowered my head.

"What's wrong again?~" Qin Mengdie walked over softly and comforted me.

"I don't know, I don't know...... Obviously I've worked so hard, why...... Am I still so failed?" I lowered my head and looked at the deposit in my bank card lightly, Qin Mengdie is ten times that of mine, that is to say, I have to work for ten months to be worth one month of her salary.

Living with Qin Mengdie, the shortcomings of the two people will gradually begin to be reflected.

She went to bed early, and I almost always stayed up all night, and we gradually started arguing about it.

Because of a little thing, there began to be disagreements, and she didn't rely on me as much as Qin Mengdie, she always had her own ideas, and we always thought that we were right.

I found that she and I had also changed and become numb.

“…… How so?" I sat down in the hall, silently grabbing my hair.

I was tired, tired, so many things bothered me, I even thought about suicide, but the thought was only a fleeting thought, and my heart trembled a little, forcing myself not to think about it.

After all, when you die, there's nothing.

The life I once dreamed of was shattered in the face of this annoying reality.

It turns out that I'm actually not that good.

"Can you stop this?" I whispered to her.

"What's wrong with me?!" Qin Mengdie yelled at me.

I clenched my fists slowly, and I never spoke loudly to her, because I was afraid that I would scare her.

"Can you, don't lose your temper with me all the time. "At a certain time, Qin Mengdie was always so irritable, I almost couldn't stand it anymore.

"Then you get out!" Qin Mengdie smashed the things at home and looked at me with red eyes.

I silently pursed my mouth, shook my head slowly, and let out a chuckle.

Just walked out like that.

When I came to the river, I sat down silently alone, and those young youths were gone.

We grew up and everything became so realistic.

Two people can't understand and can't live together.

I began to realize why my parents divorced.

Because of love, and because of love, it is ...... Or has it become like this.

I've been smoking outside for five months, and I'm living with Qin Mengdie.

When I got home, the door of Qin Mengdie's room was closed, and I silently pursed my mouth while grabbing my hair, smoking cigarettes and coffee in front of the computer.

This numbness of life felt like I couldn't stand it.

It's not that I don't love Qin Mengdie, it's just that our love is numb.

I feel it, I feel that our emotions have begun to crack, and we can't hold it anymore.

There was only one string left.

In the middle of the night, Qin Mengdie finally came out.

She looked at me with a blank face, and I knew that this moment had finally come.

"Dream Butterfly~"

"Li Lin. Her eyes were red.

"I'm still ......"

"I see....... She didn't finish, and I could almost sense what she was trying to say.

We finally broke up.

I can't let go of Li Mengqi, she can't stand it, there is a person in our relationship.

Our feelings are so fragile.

"If you like, I can continue to share a room with you, here. I smiled at Qin Mengdie and said, the smile on my face regained its original gentleness.

In this way, it is good for me and for her.

It's just that I give money and don't live here.

“…… No need. Qin Mengdie's eyes were red, and she turned her head to look at me.

"Really......? Whatever you decide, or...... If you want to find a boyfriend, or a good husband, I bless you too. I said this in good conscience.

"Really...... Thank you! Qin Mengdie scolded me, this is the first time in my life that I have heard Qin Mengdie say foul language.

In the past, she was always so gentle.

"Huh~" I chuckled, packed my things, and left.

I stopped what I was writing down, I didn't want to write anymore.

If I don't have money, I might as well go to work, have a stable income, have five insurances and one housing fund, and have a house, which should be enough with my university degree.

That's good.

I looked at the money in my card, and it was only 30,000.

I didn't contact Li Mengqi, not because I didn't want to, but because I didn't dare.

I was scared, I was scared to see her.

It's just that I don't want her to see me like this.

I look at the city, the city that gave birth to me, raised me, and made me grow up, and I laugh.

But that's it.

I called Li Mengqi and asked her to come out, and she came out happily.

She thought I was taking her for something, but I lied to her.

I took her shopping, shopping with a blank face, and when I was done, I pulled her directly into the hotel and threw her on the bed.

I've lost my old tenderness, and now I just want to have sex with her and have sex with her.

I found that I had become bad and not human anymore.

In the past, those bold words wanted to be good to her, wanted to be nice to her, wanted to be with her every day, and did what she loved to do.

But all this is just my stupid idea.

He's just an idiot!

30,000 yuan, I feel like a beggar, for a year, I haven't done anything, I just saved 30,000 yuan.

The women around me left me one by one, and I began to be confused, what am I pursuing, myself, what do I want......?

After so many years, the only thing that hasn't changed is Li Mengqi.

She is still so innocent, innocent, and treats me as the big brother, but ...... I've changed.

I became more realistic, and in this annoying world, I became more disgusting.

I began to enjoy her body, completely ignoring her pain, she struggled to look at me, finally gave me a slap and just grabbed her clothes and walked away.

And I will eventually pay the price for all that I have done.

Li Mengqi left, but someone came.

It was my father, and the people he brought with him, who entered the hotel room and surrounded me.