Chapter 244: Trauma
Lu Tao passively let Du Xiaoyu kiss for a while, then walked into the living room with his arms around her, let her sit down on the sofa, went into the kitchen and made her a cup of tea, then sat down next to her, and asked: "Xiaoyu, you hate your family so much, in addition to your mother's painful experience of committing suicide in shame, is there any other reason?"
Du Xiaoyu was silent for a moment and replied: "Brother, you are my closest and most trusted person, and it doesn't hurt to tell you some things." When my mother committed suicide, it was not just for my father to raise a junior outside, the main reason was that my eldest sister and second sister were ruined by two officials with beastly faces and hearts, and were forced to become their juniors. And my father, for the sake of his underworld business and in order to seek a protective umbrella, not only did he not go to the two brutes to seek justice, but brazenly encouraged and instigated my eldest sister and second sister to serve and curry favor with those two officials, and he took advantage of this shameful relationship to unscrupulously expand his territory and influence in the underworld, and became the notorious black boss of Taolin County.
"My mother was originally a very respected teacher, but since my father stepped into the underworld, she felt that the respect of others for her had become 'fear', so she repeatedly persuaded my father to take care of his original status as a people's teacher and the reputation of his family's children, and stop doing those things that hurt nature and reason, but my father did not listen to it at all. I was in elementary school at the time, and I often saw my mother arguing with my father, and I often saw my mother hiding in her room and crying secretly.
"I remember it very well: when I was in the sixth grade, I came home from school one day and found my mother arguing with my father again. That time, my mother was probably mad, her eyes were red, her hair was disheveled, and she had a kitchen knife in her hand, and she tried to rush out of the room several times, saying that she was going to find 'that brute' desperately, but my father stopped her in the room, told her to calm down, and told her not to go to extremes......
"Later, I found out that my mother knew that my eldest sister had been ruined by an official, and she was so angry that she almost went crazy, and wanted to take a kitchen knife to find the official desperately, and then my father persuaded her: If there is such a trouble, the news that my eldest sister was ruined will spread immediately, and the reputation of the Liu family will be ruined in the future, and the happiness of my daughter's life will also be ruined. My mother was a very self-respecting and face-saving person, and when she heard my father's words, she had to dispel the idea of trying her best to find the official.
"Unexpectedly, a few months later, my second sister was ruined by another official, and with my father's acquiescence and even instigation, my eldest sister and second sister willingly became the juniors of those two officials. It was also at that time that the peachy news about my eldest sister and second sister in Taolin County began to spread everywhere, and even some ordinary people knew that the two sisters of the Liu family were the mistresses of the main leaders of the county party committee at that time, and some people even jokingly called my father 'Hong Guozhang'.
"From that time on, my mother felt that her colleagues and friends around her were looking at her with contempt and ridicule, which hurt her self-esteem greatly. Not long after, someone told my mother that my father had found a lover in his twenties in his company, and promised that lover that if she could give birth to a boy for the Liu family, he would buy her a villa in the provincial capital and give her 100,000 yuan a month to raise the child.
The news was the last straw that broke my mother's mental defenses: on the evening of the third day after receiving the news, she took me to a bridge, told me in tears, and then committed suicide by jumping off the bridge. From that day on, I hated the Liu family and Liu Hong, and vowed never to step into the Liu family in the future, and never to call Liu Hong a father ...... again."
When he said this, Du Xiaoyu's eyes were filled with tears again.
Lu Tao held her cold palm, patted it lightly a few times, and asked, "Do you still hate your father and sister as much as before?"
Du Xiaoyu lowered his head and pondered for a moment, then replied: "Some people say that time can wash away everything and heal all the trauma of the soul, but in my opinion, this is not the case. It has been more than ten years since my mother committed suicide, but the words she said to me before she left are still firmly engraved in my mind, so my hatred for Liu Hong and my contempt for my two sisters have always been difficult to eliminate. It is precisely because of the incurable psychological trauma that I have been very withdrawn, very cold, and depressed since I was in junior high school, and I rarely feel that this world is cold and gloomy, and there is nothing worth nostalgic about, so that for a while I suffered from severe depression and almost committed suicide several times.
"But, since I met you, the lifeless, cold and gloomy world in my heart has suddenly become vibrant, brilliant and full of hope. In the past, I always had a feeling that I had no love, but since you walked into my heart, I feel that I have care, attachment, and beautiful experiences and feelings. What's especially strange is that when I have the feeling of being in love, the resentment I used to have towards Liu Hong and my two sisters seems to have faded a lot. ”
When Lu Tao heard her true story, he was both moved and a little guilty, and took the initiative to reach out and take her into his arms, bowed his head and kissed her on the forehead, and asked: "Xiaoyu, I want to ask you for one thing: Before you returned to Taolin, Liu Hong was about to apply to the county public security bureau to investigate my criminal responsibility, but then he suddenly took the initiative to withdraw the application, and uncharacteristically helped me revoke the administrative punishment of the local taxation bureau against me, did you propose it to him?"
Du Xiaoyu looked at him with bright eyes, nodded and said, "That's right." At that time, Liu Hong sent Brother Song to persuade me to go home and persuade me to call him Dad, so I put forward a condition to him: if I want to go back to Liu's house, it's okay to call him Dad, but the premise is that he must no longer embarrass you and no longer design to frame you, otherwise I will never pay attention to the people of the Liu family again. ”
Speaking of this, she paused and continued: "Brother, sometimes people's feelings are very strange. For example, before I returned to Taolin, I was very resentful of Liu Hong. However, when I returned home and saw Liu Hong's gray hair, wrinkled face, and the way he burst into tears when he saw me, my heart softened suddenly, and I suddenly felt that he was not so hateful.
"Later, I heard from my eldest sister that Liu Hong was very sad and guilty about my mother's death, and immediately cut off contact with the junior after her death, and every year on the day of Qingming Festival and my mother's birthday, he would take his family to my mother's grave to burn incense and worship, and he would shed tears every time he worshipped. He also said to my two sisters many times: Among our three sisters, he is most sorry for me, after his death, his personal property will not be divided among my eldest sister and second sister, and all will be inherited to me...... When I heard these things, the resentment against him in my heart faded a few points!"