Because in the current shot of laughing and forgetting books, the clouds and mist have been cleared from the chaotic and dark sea of divine consciousness of Gu Xiaopang just now, and with the sprinkling of a golden light, the picture of this lens has been lit up again.

This time, the scene changes so hazy, looking at this scene, there are not only Gu Zheng outside the book, but also Gu Baimeng, the person in the book.

The two passers-by seemed to be looking at the scenery that did not belong to them, and at the same time looking at a person who had a little relationship with them how to interpret their own lives.

This is an antique room, a young woman with her head wrapped in her forehead, looking at the still swaddling doll in her arms with kindness, gently humming an unknown ballad, coaxing this soft little guy to sleep for a while.

This woman Gu Zheng recognized it at a glance, it was Huang Xing'er.

Now she has long since faded from the youth of the year, and has already become a mature and charming woman.

And with this warm interaction between the big and the small, the fat lotus-like baby yawned and fell into a sweet sleep again.

It was only at this time that the maid standing outside the door dared to walk into the house with light steps, serve the hostess on the bed, get up lightly, tidy up her makeup, and walk to the side to take stock of the housework.

Because the child is still young, even the master and servant who are still some distance away from the bed, their voices are low.

When the hostess was busy with the little work at hand, the personal maid on the side dared to report some miscellaneous matters in the mansion to her.

"Huang Niangzi, the people from Li Niangzi's family have sent someone over again. ”

"But my original master's family? You can put it bluntly, everyone knows what my background is, and there is no need to shy away from it. ”

The big girl on the side leaned over and continued to report: "They said that this New Year's Festival, there are wars everywhere, and this Li Qingzhao Li Niangzi's husband is weak, and the person he is looking for later has no ability. ”

"I can't even pay the taxes of the imperial court, and I want to borrow some money from Huang Niangzi, so I should pay for a while first. ”

Hearing this, Huang Xing'er groaned for a while, and asked again: "How much silver has this lady of the Li family borrowed from us?"

The maid on the opposite side did not hesitate, and directly reported a value: "There are about two hundred taels of silver." Do you want to borrow it?"

Hearing this, Huang Xing'er smiled bitterly and shook her head: "Our family's silver is not blown by the wind, and the husband has gathered less and left me more over the years, so he can rest assured that he will hand over his home to me and send the money home regularly." ”

"But what kind of business he is doing, and when the hurdle in his heart will pass, we don't know. ”

In addition, this Li Niangzi is addicted to gambling, and she has long lost the clear and compelling backbone of Li Qingzhao back then, how much of this money was given to her, how much was used for emergency purposes, and how much was used by her as a gamble for anesthetizing thoughts. We don't know. ”

"You go and give them two pieces of money, no more, no less, enough to live, so that they don't have extra money to squander on the heroine of their family. ”

"Yes!" The big girl received the order and was about to retreat, but when she saw the heroine she had been serving, she didn't know what she had thought of, her face was full of bitterness.

She said one more sentence as if she was upset with Huang Xing'er: "The lady has just given birth to a little boy for half a year, and the officials have left behind and gone to the front line. ”

"He didn't even care about the huge family business, he only saw the people suffering from the golden people, how could he know that the most difficult thing was the wife who gave birth to children for him?"

Hearing the complaint of her personal maid, Huang Xing'er just smiled helplessly, waved her hand at the maid to signal her to hurry up and do business, and said to herself as if talking to herself: "How do you know the bitterness in the hearts of officials?"

"Even my son and I may not be able to overcome this hurdle. ”

The big girl who withdrew did not understand the truth, and perhaps only in that room, when she fell into contemplation, and on the front of the confrontation between the Song and Jin armies, the client leaned on the bushes like a hungry wolf and drank wine, that she could understand the grievances and hatreds.

At this time, the picture that Gu Zheng and the little fat man saw turned again, and the whole scene shifted from the back of the warm and peaceful Song Guo's home to a bleak battlefield of confrontation between the two armies.

At this time, the battlefield was no longer just on the edge of the inland of the Central Plains, and the original Great Song Kingdom was beaten and fled in embarrassment.

At this time, the battlefield has reached the outermost periphery of Taiyuan Mansion, and it can go out of Yanmen Pass, and the sixteen states of Yanyun that several generations of monarchs of the Song Kingdom have longed for.

Those people who also have the blood of the Han people and have no foreign characteristics are looking forward to the arrival of the Song army outside the Yanmen Pass.

But how could the kingdom established by the Jin Kingdom, a nation on horseback, give up this rich and vast land like this?

As a result, the two countries, on this piece of land, formed a short and protracted battle.

But now, it has nothing to do with Gu Zheng at this time, because he is full of beard, his hair has not been combed and washed, leaning under a crooked pine and cypress tree, and pouring the unique liquor of Taiyuan Mansion into his mouth.

In front of him, there was a lonely grave bag, because the new grave had not been long ago, only the unknown little red flower, swaying in the wind on the edge of the grave, adding a touch of color to this depressing scene.

Gu Zheng took a big sip of wine, looked at the red flower and yellow stamen, and just wanted to reach out to pull it down, but stopped his outstretched hand.

Because his hand that originally pulled the bow and held the knife was now stained with raunchy black mud, Gu Zheng, who saw this, retracted his hand a little embarrassed, for fear of disturbing the people in this tomb, rubbed it indiscriminately on the same not very clean robe.

A little embarrassed, he smiled at the grave bag, and said as if explaining something: "Sun Erniang, I know that you love to be clean." ”

"You must love these gorgeous flowers, just like yourself, they are so red. ”

"Can't I take it off?"

"I just wish you could give me a response, why, I'm drunk like this, but I still can't sleep?"

"If I could sleep, would I be able to hear the last words you said to me in my dreams?"

"You say, why are you so stupid to save someone like me who seems to be loyal and courageous, but is actually ruthless and unjust!?"

Speaking of which, this man, who was surrounded by thousands of troops and horses, did not change his face, but he held his head and cried in pain.

"A person like me seeks justice in the world, for the righteousness of my heart! But when I do such a thing, I also have my own selfishness!"

"Don't you see that I already have a wife and children, even if I Gu Zheng dies for the ideals in my heart, I will have my own way back. ”

"This is the selfishness I left behind!"

"But what are you trying to do? What are you trying to do? It's for a back like me, for the sake of asking for nothing, and you are even willing to lose your life!"

"Why can't you be selfish for yourself? I'm not as good as you think!"

Speaking of this, Gu Zheng covered his head and knelt in front of the small tomb bag, which looked like a rough wooden plaque carved by a rough person, and the name of the tomb owner was crookedly engraved.

'Tomb of Sun Erniang'

His head seemed to be unable to stop, lying desperately in front of this tablet.

While rubbing his head on the ground, he said, "Did you see it?"

"Your heart is too anxious, in fact, when I appeared on this battlefield again, it was not because you entangled with me in Jiangnan every day. ”

"I was thinking, when I completed the ideal in my heart, I told you in the place where you and I first met, in fact, I was very greedy, and my heart was divided into countless pieces. ”

"And one of them, it's saying this sentence all the time, I like you. ”

"Yes," as soon as this sentence was spoken, Gu Zheng seemed to have lost all the strength of his body, and collapsed in front of the tombstone like a dead dog, and the big tears converged into a stream that could not be stopped, outlining two winding muddy ravines on the yellow earth.

"Yes, my Gu Zheng is pleased with Sun Erniang, since you said that you are big and Xing'er is small, my heart has been trembling. ”

"At that time, I secretly thought, how can I be so unreserved, as a hero, how can I be seduced by such a demon girl?"

"You're so vicious, you're not a good stubble!"

"But your chasing, your chasing, is too intense. ”

"I keep hypnotizing myself, but I keep being attracted by the back of your red clothes. ”

"At last, I answered your request and went to the battlefield where I was needed. ”

"I always think, I'll stretch it again, I like to see you pouting around me, and I like you to stomp your feet angrily. ”

"Because it was so alive, so warm, I had never felt it, so much love and need. ”

"It was my greed that kept me from saying this!"

"And is this what the Engong of the other world said, God took your life?"

"But I only regret it, because the hypocritical narrow sense does not dare to accept your love!"

'Bang bang!'

Gu Zheng's hammer head rushed up the yellow dust on the ground, and also rushed into the infinite desolation in his heart.

He couldn't say a complete sentence anymore when he was whimpering, but he still had to ask the question he couldn't understand: "Did you see a stray arrow shot at the back of my heart?"

"Then why are you stupidly pounced? Didn't I just die like a big bastard who didn't lie to you?"

"Do you know you can't ask for it, that's why you're going to use your life to make me remember your kindness?"

"Then you should be vicious, let me die! What are you doing to save me such a bastard? I'm just a bastard! Bastard! Bastard!!! bastard!!"

Every time he said a word, Gu Zheng's palm hammered a pit of despair and grief on the land, as if he was self-harming, and he couldn't stop.

In the end, it was actually dripping blood, mixed with soil, like sad blood and tears, extremely sad.