Chapter 190: Self-Confession
Yang Han's words made Wang Xiaofei stunned, his real decision? Could it be that all the things he did before were not what he wanted to do? Was it forced by others to do it?
Wang Xiaofei thought it was funny, he felt that Yang Han was like a child who couldn't get candy, and after using unreasonable means to get it and being exposed, he was rolling around trying to avoid punishment. He didn't speak, but looked at He Jingpo, he knew that the master must have something to say.
"You say, this is your self-determination? That is to say, over the years, every step you have taken and every step you have taken to move forward has not been voluntarily done by you, but by others who have forced you to do so. And there's another person in there, me?"
He Jingpo narrowed his eyes and looked at Yang Han coldly, he never knew that Yang Han actually had such an idea, he had known that such a thing would happen, he should have not had much hope for his big apprentice from the beginning.
Yang Han smiled and nodded seriously.
"Of course. Master, don't you feel this at all? Since I was a child, I have almost been by your side, right? From the beginning, I was just a disciple, and later, when Xiaofei and Turan came, I watched them eat away all your feelings for me little by little, occupy my position in your heart little by little, and push me away little by little. Don't you really know anything about it?"
"Master, I've never complained to you for so many years, have I? You said you want me to be a good brother and take care of them like an older brother. I did it. ”
"Over the years, I have always climbed up one step ahead of them, because I came out earlier than them, and I know better the cruelty of this industry, I want to protect them, I can't let them be hurt, right? Even Xiaofei, who has just come back, has been helped by me, hasn't it?
Wang Xiaofei was suddenly mentioned, and the whole person was stunned, indeed, if the affairs of Chief Hu's family were handed over to him alone, he dared to guarantee that he would not be able to deal with it so completely, and even make some stupid moves.
"Tu Ran did something wrong, so I went to help him wipe his butt. Because he is my master, even if you have expelled him from the school. But think about it, every time you come over, how often do you not go to see him? Usually you live in my house, and at night I always hear your dreams saying that you miss him. Do you know how I feel?"
"I always felt like a knife was scraping my heart bit by bit, and it hurt me. But this kind of pain is not unbearable, like a maggot on the tarsal bone, unless it is removed at one time, it will continue to hurt. ”
He Jingpo never thought that Yang Han would have such an idea, he admitted that he had been ignoring Yang Han for so many years, because among the three disciples, he was the largest, and he received the most education from himself, and he was the most worry-free.
He knew what to do, how to do it, and he knew his responsibility as a senior brother. He Jingpo admitted that he had been a very competent apprentice and senior brother over the years, but he didn't expect that these things, which he might have fully accepted in his opinion, actually caused so much damage in his heart.
Wang Xiaofei was also surprised, he didn't expect Yang Han to accumulate so many grievances in his heart. It's just that he doesn't think these grievances are worth talking about, because in his opinion, Yang Han is the senior brother, the master's eldest apprentice, educating the junior brother for the master, and making the right example for the junior brother, which is what he should do.
There's no such thing as a unearned lunch, is there? If he doesn't want to do it, then he shouldn't be in that position. Besides, Wang Xiaofei felt that Yang Han actually enjoyed being relied on, otherwise he wouldn't have endured it until now.
"Senior brother, what you said is that you are not willing to do all this? If you really don't want to, you can tell Master directly! Could it be that Master is the kind of person who is quite unreasonable? Besides, we used to be young, and you took care of us. But now we've all grown up, aren't we? When the young eagle is about to fly, which eagle will come out to protect it? I don't carry this kind of pot. ”
Wang Xiaofei sighed, "Yes, I admit it." The matter of Chief Hu's granddaughter, if it were really not for you, I would not have controlled all the situations so quickly and perfectly. ”
"But you didn't get anything out of it? Did you move forward a little bit after that? Did I give you carte blanche about the drug factory? Could it be that you forgot all of this? Or do you think you deserve it?"
He paused: "Speaking of Turan, in fact, I don't think I'm qualified to say it, after all, I haven't been out for a long time, and I haven't met Tu Ran a few times during my time in the mountains." But I don't agree with what you said. Anyone with a discerning eye can see that Turan is very dependent on you, and this dependence can be said to be to the extent of attachment. ”
"Do you think Tu Ran is a fool? He really can't see that you are using him again? But what about him, as always, he will help you carry the black pot, and even do something to hit the stone with an egg in order to make this pot a little better. ”
"Let's take today's events. Tu Ran didn't actually leave, but in order to help you and deceive me, he didn't hesitate to wear women's clothes. No man can do that, right? But he did it, and he did it to help you, to make me believe you, to confuse me, didn't he?"
"Senior brother, I admit that you have indeed been wronged over the years. But after we became adults, we didn't make up for you, right? Whether it's me or Turan, in fact, we have a clear conscience, and if you still think we have a problem, I don't know what to say. ”
He Jingpo looked at Yang Han, waiting for Yang Han's answer, he has indeed seen Yang Han's hardships over the years, so he has been extra indulgent to Yang Han, on the contrary, he is different from Tu Ran and Wang Xiaofei, which is why he also made a mistake, Tu Ran was expelled from the school, and Yang Han was not the same.
Yang Han couldn't accept Wang Xiaofei's explanation, he stared at Wang Xiaofei with red eyes, shook his head desperately, trying to drive what Wang Xiaofei just said out of his mind, he said: "What you say is really better than singing." Who wouldn't put it as an afterthought? Do you really think I'm going to believe it? What you just said, all of this, but you want to say it to win sympathy!"