Chapter 328: Faux pas

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"Give you back the memories ......"

Taeyeon repeats dumbfoundedly, her eyes full of defeat.

In the face of such a defeated gaze, Lin Zangfeng was a little silent, and there was also a most painful pain in his heart, but he thought that he still had to insist on speaking, because this road started by him and must be ended by him.

Just looking at Taeyeon, he was suddenly a little stunned, and he couldn't speak at once, as if he had forgotten what he was going to say.

His thoughts, his logic, no longer had the clarity they had just had, but began to be a little confused, and this sudden change was not only because of her eyes, but also because he had inadvertently seen a whole.

That is the whole rippling sea, the remnants of the sunset, the sad sea breeze magnified Taeyeon's appearance infinitely, she was in the wind, her hair was blown messy, and her delicate skin was full of red marks, and her little face was also full of tears, next to her ripped clothes, and her body, which had begun to curl up and tremble.

It seems that he hasn't looked at Taeyeon like this for a long time, or rather, he doesn't dare to look at it like this, because this look, his firmness, his simplicity, his decision will collapse in an instant.

If you leave my sight one day, will you be bullied, will you be scolded, will you be beaten, and you will not even be happy?

But should he think about it?

Yes, these should not be thought about by him, and he himself understands, so every time he sees her, this kind of worried heart is deliberately suppressed by him, but now, that weak look at her made him stunned instantly, and all the suppressed worries broke out at this moment.

I know that I shouldn't think about it, I can't think about it, but I think about it again and I am confused.

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After a long time of defeat, Taeyeon finally got up and went to the unknown place in a daze.

Lin Zangfeng was stunned for a moment, and hurriedly stood up and grabbed Taeyeon, "Taeyeon, where are you going?"

Taeyeon stared at him blankly, "Go to a place where I can give you my memories back." ”

Lin Zangfeng's expression was nervous, "That's, where ......?"

Taeyeon smiled with tears in her eyes, "Do you still care?"

"Of course I do. Lin Zangfeng's expression was heavy, "So, can you not do stupid things......

Taeyeon looked at him quietly, "What is a stupid thing, is it seeking death?" But I don't think it's stupid to seek death at all, it is the simplest and most difficult decision, but once it is done, it proves that a person really wants to open it, and this is really not stupid." ”

"I think the most stupid thing is that I still pestering you, knowing that it will affect your life, but I still don't want to let go of anything, so today, you who were disturbed, choose to say goodbye to me again...... You see, I almost forgot, and I have to add some relationship because you know the real reason for our breakup, right? But anyway, you told me to give you back the memories. ”

But if I could forget, I don't think there would be today, so I only have the end of my life, which does not belong to me, which means the end of everything, and it can be regarded as returning the memory to you, and even more to you. ”

"Then after hearing these words, do you still want to stop me?"

Lin Zangfeng gritted his teeth and looked at her, "Of course I will stop you, as long as you dare to die, then I will definitely catch you." ”

"Hehe......"

Taeyeon laughed, "So, I asked you, what else do you want from me?" and you said, give you back the memory, that's fine, I'll pay it back, but I'm telling you very clearly, I can't forget, then I can only die, but you won't let me die." ”

"Lin Zangfeng, you are so contradictory now, can you really sort it out with me? You still said that you want to stop me, that makes me even happier, I can really kill myself once a day, let you stop me, let you come and hold me, is this another way to keep you with me? Maybe, otherwise, let's start today, do you think it?"

When these words fell, Taeyeon's eyes showed sadness and brokenness, not at all like the lightness in her tone at the moment, as if she was in control of the rhythm.

She was still crazy about herself, but she calmed down, yes, calm and crazy didn't conflict with her at all at the moment.

She's just calm, frantically cathartic.

Or perhaps, this is a different kind of retention.

But at this moment, Lin Zangfeng's expression contrasted with the sadness in Taeyeon's eyes, "Why is it so easy to die in your words, do you know, every time you have an accident, I frantically hope that you can get better in the next moment, and then start a carefree life for a lifetime from tomorrow." ”

"Yes, if there are no waves in life, my mother will live well, you will be by my side well, we will get married, we will work hard for our small family, and we will work hard for a big family formed by you and me, what a happy future it is. ”

"But fate is impermanent, some people leave, some people forget, some people can no longer be found, I am sad, I am afraid, I exile myself, but in the end I still have to work hard and hard, because there is a small dream, and a distant care, and the most blood-related relatives, these existences, so that I dare not think about that word. ”

"But why do you dare to think and do it, is it because of me? Then should I also die, and affect the life of another person, is it a great crime?"

"You said, if you die, you can give me back your memories and life, but what did you pay me back? Give me a nightmare of regret and guilt for half a lifetime, or give me a joke, laugh at me for thinking that I was a young man brave and dare to save the girl I like regardless of the cost, or laugh at me for so many years that the idiot-like latent hiding is self-inflicted, and finally laugh at me for loving the wrong person, loving someone who doesn't cherish my efforts, it turns out that these are what you really want to give me, right?"

After saying these words, Lin Zangfeng's expression was already very complicated, it was a mockery of himself, and even more sad for himself.

These words made Taeyeon stunned for a moment, and looking at Lin Zangfeng's somewhat reddened eyes, her sobriety began without warning, and those so-called madness, the so-called brokenness all dissipated in Lin Zangfeng's self-deprecation at this moment, and then turned into a touch of apology.

And in this apology, there is also a gentle down.

This was followed by Taeyeon's soft voice.

"Zang Feng, I'm sorry, I'm a little, I can't find myself anymore, I know you're tired, but I'm still ignorant. ”

"As for that suicide, I've always wanted to say sorry to you, although the premise of that time was that I never had the face to see you again. ”

"But later, I didn't dare to commit suicide anymore under any premise, and what you just said, that is, the reason why I didn't dare, yes, my life only belongs to you, to a person who only knows how to pay stupidly, and I still want to keep her, waiting to repay you with this life for the rest of my life, so I don't dare to have the idea of despising life anymore. ”

"And I'll say it today, I just hope to keep it again, don't let us end it so soon, I always think that you and Xiujing are not married yet, and I still have a chance, but today, I suddenly found myself too selfish. ”

"Because my self-righteous madness, my self-righteous struggle, are all based on your pain, I ignore your feelings, and ignore what kind of pain I bring to you when I am not calm like this. ”

"It's time for me to wake up, and I shouldn't let you suffer anymore. And your hard-won happiness, I will send my blessings from today. ”

"In the future, I won't dwell on it anymore. ”

"I will live well, I will laugh, I will cry, I will make trouble. ”

"But, I'll avoid you. ”

"Because I want to have you a little more. So in the future, I won't greet you, and you can't say I'm rude. ”