After Grandpa finished speaking, he stood up and walked to the bamboo chair under the tree and sat down.

Sun Shiqi looked at her grandfather and didn't speak, standing there blankly, as if thinking about something.

"Grandpa, maybe I shouldn't have given birth. Suddenly, Sun Shiqi's eyes were red and tears were in her eyes.

"I was born and brought too much misfortune to my family. ”

I was at a loss for a moment, how could Sun Shiqi say such a thing, looking at her very sunny and beautiful, Teacher Sun also loves her very much, and there are a group of suitors, how can she be blessed and miserable?

"This is your life, girl, you don't have to be sad, since God destined your birth, then you have to face it bravely. ”

Grandpa comforted her and beckoned us to sit down beside him.

Sun Shiqi and I walked to Grandpa's side, sat on a bamboo chair by ourselves, and looked at Grandpa's face that had been through vicissitudes.

"Grandpa, when did you know about Sun Shiqi's shadows. "I'm a little curious.

"Just now when I pulled her to sit on the edge of my bed, I suddenly felt that there were many different people's shadows in her, and I was a little curious, so I cast a spell to look at her shadow. Grandpa said mysteriously.

"Is there a different person's shadow power?" I thought to myself, didn't Sun Shiqi just meet a man in black?

"Grandpa, you can tell me how Sun Shiqi's shadow appeared first, I'm also afraid that the man in black will appear, and he made my wrist. I couldn't wait to ask Grandpa.

Sun Shiqi wiped her tears and looked at her grandfather with longing eyes, she also wanted to know what happened to her childhood.

Grandpa looked at us, sighed and said:

"Girl, you have too many things that you don't know yourself, but it's a pity that my grade is too big, and my shadow power is limited and I can't know everything, I hope you can see it for yourself in the future, I'll tell you how your shadow came from first. ”

"Wait a minute, Grandpa, what do you mean when you say that I don't know a lot of things that I don't know. Sun Shiqi asked with some horror.

"Your memories have been sealed with shadow magic, and I can't break the seal. Grandpa shook his head helplessly.

"Is that so?" Sun Shiqi lowered her head, a lonely expression on her face.

"Grandpa, let's talk about her shadow first. I said.

"Well, let's talk about the shadow first. I found a sealed memory of her when she was a child in the memories of my daughter, when she was about four years old. Grandpa said, looked at Sun Shiqi, and touched her forehead with his hand.

"Girl, you didn't live with your parents when you were a child, did you?"

"Yes. Sun Shiqi's body was agitated, and her voice trembled as she spoke, looking at her grandfather with a little fear in her eyes.

"Don't be afraid, no one will laugh at you and hurt you again. Grandpa looked at Sun Shiqi with a kind gaze.

I listened to their conversation and was confused, I don't have to be afraid of people knowing if we don't live together, there are so many left-behind children.

At this time, Sun Shiqi covered her face with her hands and sobbed softly.

"Grandpa, I don't want to remember my childhood. ”

Grandpa patted her gently on the shoulder and said:

"Child, you have to be brave, although what happened has made you very painful, but you have to be strong, there is still a long way to go, you have to believe in yourself. ”

I was even more confused, what the hell were they talking about, what was Sun Shiqi's childhood like.

Sun Shiqi wiped her tears with her hands, looked at her grandfather and said with a smile:

"Grandpa, I believe in myself, and no one can bully me anymore. ”

Grandpa Tai smiled slightly, and continued with a look full of expectations for the juniors:

"Then I'll start talking about your shadows, don't be sad, don't be shy. ”

"Well, grandpa, you can say it. ”

Grandpa looked up at the huge banyan tree, then lowered his head at Sun Shiqi and me, and began to talk about a sealed memory of Sun Shiqi's childhood.

It was the summer when Sun Shiqi was four years old, her uncle lived together, they lived in a small county town, her uncle was a taekwondo instructor in a martial arts gym, her aunt was selling vegetables on the street, and they had two boys, one three years older than Sun Shiqi and the other five years older.

Sun Shiqi remembers following her aunt to push a tricycle every day, batching vegetables from the wholesale market, and selling vegetables in the vegetable market, because there is no fixed stall, you can only sell where there is a place.

If there is no place in the vegetable market, you have to run to the chengguan when selling vegetables on the street, so you are often frightened.

Sun Shiqi would make herself dirty every day, the clothes her father left for him were basically small, and her aunt would not sell him new ones, so she would wear the clothes of the little boy in the family, and her hair was dirty and messy.

In my memory, my uncle treated him in general, and my aunt treated her very harshly, she would be beaten by her aunt if she made a slight mistake or kept talking, and her uncle also watched her aunt beat her, just said a few words to her aunt, and did not stop her.

And the two boys always bullied her and teased her when they saw their parents treating Sun Shiqi like this, and she resisted at first, but her aunt always protected her sons, making the two boys more and more unscrupulous.

Sun Shiqi's body is often beaten by her aunt or boys, Sun Shiqi is more and more afraid to resist, she can only accept it, and when she resists or complains, she can only get more fierce beating and scolding from the boys.

And at home, if there is anything delicious, the aunt always gives it to the sons, and Sun Shiqi can only watch the boys eat some of the leftover scraps after eating, and secretly go to eat some.

There is a kindergarten next to the vegetable market where her aunt often goes, and she always lies at the gate and looks at the children inside, wearing clean garden clothes, lining up to do exercises and playing games, and she always thinks about when I can go to kindergarten.

One night she told her uncle that she wanted to go to kindergarten, and her aunt heard her, and she shouted:

"Stinky girl, it's good to be able to feed you, and I don't know if your father is dead or alive, and what kindergarten he goes to. As he spoke, he picked up a rolling pin in his hand and hit Sun Shiqi's buttocks.

This time, the uncle grabbed the rolling pin in the aunt's hand and said to the aunt:

"Shut up for me, my brother is not dead yet, the child says what's wrong, if you don't send you money, do you beat her like this every day? ”

"You're embarrassed to say, you can't make a few dollars a month, and the broken martial arts hall you opened can't recruit a few people, it's not that the old lady gets up early every day and works in the dark, our family drinks the northwest wind." The aunt scolded and scolded.

"You don't give me nonsense, you have nothing to do at night and play mahjong with Lao Liu, you lose more than you earn every day, you say me. Uncle retorted.

"I think you don't want to go over, right, it's better for me to play mahjong than for you to hook up with stinky girls outside every day. The aunt scolded.

"Let you talk nonsense. When the uncle heard this, he immediately got angry, got up and slapped the aunt in the face.

The aunt immediately hit the uncle on the head with a rolling pin, she and the uncle fought together, Sun Shiqi squatted in the corner in fright and looked at it with frightened eyes, and the two boys rushed to Sun Shiqi after seeing it.

"It's you, a stinky girl, let my father fight with my mother, see if I can't beat you. The big boy said, grabbed Sun Shiqi's hair, dragged her to the ground, and the little boy rode on Sun Shiqi's leg and slashed Sun Shiqi's back with a toy wooden knife.

The big boy pressed Sun Shiqi's head with one hand, and kept hitting Sun Shiqi with the other.

Sun Shiqi's cry was hoarse and tragic, and then the uncle saw it, pushed the aunt to the bed, grabbed the necks of the two boys one by one and pulled them aside, and then hugged Sun Shiqi, who was crying.

"If you do Kiki again, I'll smash your ass. He said fiercely to the two boys.

The two boys ran to their aunt, who was sitting on the edge of the bed and weeping.

"Kiki, our family has no money, we can't let you go to kindergarten, you will be obedient in the future, you can go to elementary school, like your brothers, you don't need money in elementary school. The uncle wiped Sun Shiqi's tears with his hand and comforted.

Sun Shiqi looked at her uncle and nodded as if he didn't understand.

"Don't toss today, you treat her better in the future, I'll find another job to earn more money, my brother is suffering outside, I don't want his daughter to suffer too." The uncle said to his aunt and the two boys.

The aunt and the two boys stared at Sun Shiqi viciously and did not speak.

There are two rooms in the uncle and aunt's house, one room for the uncle and aunt, and one room for Sun Shiqi and the two boys, and every day she sleeps with the two boys in a double bed.

Because of today's incident, the two boys added a bit of resentment towards Sun Shiqi, they didn't let Sun Shiqi go to bed, Sun Shiqi had no choice, and he didn't dare to go to his uncle and aunt to say, so he had to sleep on the ground all night.

Early the next morning, my aunt got up at five o'clock to go to the wholesale market to batch vegetables, woke up Sun Shiqi, and put her on the tricycle.

The price of today's batch is not good, and the quality of the dishes is not very good, the aunt scolded and walked all the way, Sun Shiqi is used to the aunt's chatter.

When I got to the vegetable market, I was lucky, and I found an empty seat under a big tree, and my aunt put the car away, so she asked Sun Shiqi to help take down all the vegetables.

Although Sun Shiqi is only four years old and her nutrition is not very good, it may be due to heredity that she is still taller than the average four-year-old child, looking like a five-year-old child.

After Sun Shiqi finished moving the vegetables, her aunt took a steamed bun from her schoolbag and gave it to her, and took a carrot from the tricycle and said to her: "Stinky girl, you will only waste food, you take the carrots to the faucet of the public toilet to wash and eat again, don't run around, don't come back if you get lost"

After speaking, he handed the steamed bun and the carrot with soil to Sun Shiqi, and Sun Shiqi took the carrot and ran to the public toilet not far away.

She washed the carrots at the faucet, came out and ran to a brick by the kindergarten door to sit down, eating steamed buns and carrots at the same time, looking at the passers-by on the road.

The kindergarten opened at seven o'clock, Sun Shiqi pulled out the iron fence of the kindergarten and looked at the kindergarten inside, some parents sent their children one after another, all the adults who saw Sun Shiqi shook their heads, and the children saw her hiding behind the parents.

At this time, a young man walked up to Sun Shiqi, took out a lollipop, shook it in front of her eyes, and said to her.

"Kid, I'll give you a lollipop. ”

Sun Shiqi looked at the lollipop with joy in her eyes, but she didn't dare to take it, she was a little scared, how much she wanted to eat the lollipop, every time she looked at the lollipop in the hands of the two boys, she always drooled, she asked her aunt, but the aunt never bought it for her, saying that eating it would break her teeth, and they had no money to show her teeth.

"Children, don't be afraid, I'm an uncle in kindergarten, I'll send you a lollipop, I'll take you to the kindergarten to play, okay." ”

"Can you take me into kindergarten?" this sentence made Sun Shiqi's heart moved.

"Well, there are a lot of kids in the kindergarten. ”

"Is this kindergarten?" Sun Shiqi only said.

"No, it's a kindergarten on another street, not far from here, play for a while and send you back. ”

"I don't have any money at home. Sun Shiqi said with some fear.

"It's okay, I'll be back after a while. ”

Saying that, the man shook the lollipop in front of Sun Shiqi's eyes again, Sun Shiqi's heart was moved, she took the lollipop, peeled off the candy paper, stretched out her tongue and licked it, she never had a sweet and sour feeling, which made her smile happily.

She looked at the lollipop, licked it again and again, and a sense of happiness that she had never felt before was born in her heart, and followed the man step by step.

What followed was the darkest part of her memory.