Chapter 136: You Must Look at Me

After Xu Duhang went upstairs, he did not go to the bedroom to visit Gu Qiumei, but turned directly to his study. Since Xu Duhang returned to China and had his own separate residence, except for a fixed time to come back once a week, he rarely returned to his current home, and even if he came back, he only stayed for one night, not to mention that he never returned to his current home since he took Lan Xue to his home. So, he hasn't come to his study for a long time. Xu Duhang carefully opened the glass door of the bookcase and took down a thin book in the most conspicuous position among the books. Probably because of the passage of time, the cover of the book is slightly wrinkled, but the red hat on the cover of the little girl's head is as bright as ever, and the words "The Story of Little Red Riding Cycle" are clearly written above the little girl's hat. Xu Duhang gently stroked the words, slowly opened the book, looked at the pictures on the paper, and suddenly the picture of his childhood suddenly appeared in his mind......

Lan Xue pushed open the door but couldn't see Xu Duhang, she tentatively looked around, "Brother Duskhang?" Xu Duhang, who was hiding behind the door, suddenly appeared, buttoned a small red hat on Lan Xue's head, looking at Lan Xue a little panicked, Xu Duhang smiled proudly, "Every time you play this game, you will be scared by me, because you never look back, as long as you turn around, you will not be scared by me." Xu Duhang said as he helped Lan Xue put on her hat. A very cute hat with slightly upturned raw edges and a delicate bow embedded in a white polka dot ribbon. "Don't you want to see Little Red Riding Hood from the fairy tale? Now you're Little Red Riding Hood. Lan Xue took off her hat and looked at it carefully, then pouted and said, "However, I'm afraid of being eaten by the big bad wolf." Xu Duhang smiled and raised his palm and tapped lightly on Lan Xue's head, "What stupid, little guy." With me by your side, how can you let it eat you? "But, what if you were in school at that time?" Xu Duhang shook his head helplessly and smiled bitterly: "Hey, I really can't help you." We'll always be together, even when we're in school, and when you grow up. Now, are you still afraid?" Lan Xue put on her hat again and smiled happily...... Xu Duhang closed the book suddenly, and the moment he closed the book, he cut off all the images in his mind, took the book and turned around and left the study.

Xu Duhang closed the door of the study, and when he turned sideways, his gaze stopped on the door of the opposite room. Xu Duhang slowly approached the door, and after staring at the door in a daze for a long time, he gently pressed the handle of the door, pushed it open, and walked in.

The curtains in the room blocked the windows tightly, as if in the gloomy air, the room had been asleep, losing the strength to breathe on its own. Xu Duhang walked to the window step by step and pulled open all the curtains that blocked the window. The sunlight that instantly poured into the room made the room that was lifeless a second ago instantly filled with vitality. Xu Duhang stood quietly by the window, looking around the room. Near the window is a single mahogany bed, and against the head of the bed is a simple and elegant mahogany plank without any carvings. There are all kinds of origami pasted on the headboard, paper boats, paper airplanes, paper houses...... There is a round table with two low stools at the corners of the bed, and on the opposite side is a delicate European-style quadrangular cabinet. The four blue walls of the room are covered with white snowflakes...... The difference is that the blue on one of the four walls has turned pale blue, and the pattern of snowflakes is no longer clearly visible. Xu Duhang leaned against the window and stared at one of the walls, falling into deep thought, and slowly, he seemed to see a young man with a hat folded in newspaper standing on a wooden ladder to paint the wall, and behind the young man, a girl was standing......

The boy used a brush stained with white paint to repaint the last dull snowflake on the wall, and then, the boy looked at the bright snowflakes and said, "How about the little one, after painting it again, it will be the same as new, and the furniture will be replaced with new ones, and now there is only one wall left, and I will give your room a new look at once!" The boy jumped down the ladder with a smile, and when he turned to look at the girl behind him, he found that the girl was no longer in place, but walked towards the corner cabinet opposite the bed. The boy smiled and followed, standing beside the girl and said, "Why did I forget it, this cabinet should be replaced with a new one." The girl smiled and turned her face sideways and said, "What is the reason? Because I have grown taller, the bed, the table and the chairs have been replaced with new ones." What about the cabinet?" Xu Duhang smiled and patted Lan Xue's head, "What's the reason, replace it if it's too old." Come here, little one, and watch me paint the last wall. Looking at Xu Duhang's excited appearance, Lan Xue couldn't help but smile and shook her head and said, "Brother Duhang will go abroad the day after tomorrow, and there will be no one to play with me when you leave." So, even if I follow my parents to your house when you're not at home, I probably won't stay at your house. Lan Xue's words surprised Xu Duhang, "Yes, I'm not at home, so no one is playing with you, so why are you still staying?" Lan Xue answered while opening the cabinet door: "That's right." Just keep the remaining wall and we'll paint it together when you come back. "Okay. Xu Duhang agreed with Lan Xue's words very much, but after thinking about it for a moment, Xu Duhang couldn't help but ask: "Since you don't plan to come and live for a long time, that one still looks so excited to see me changing furniture and painting the wall!" "Because ......" Lan Xue said with a smile while taking out a cardboard box from the cabinet: "Because, because I am about to see Brother Dusk, I want to celebrate the first day of April next year for Brother Duhang in advance." "Okay, little guy, I'm about to go to high school, so I'm bold, isn't it!" Saying that, Xu Duhang was about to step forward to tease Lan Xue, but Lan Xue walked to the bed with the carton before she had time to "act".

Lan Xue opened the carton, took out the tape and various origami from the carton, and carefully pasted them on the headboard. Xu Duhang walked to Lan Xue's side curiously, picked up a paper boat from the box and asked, "What is this for?" "Oh......" Lan Xue's tone became a little hesitant, and the smile on her face gradually disappeared into a touch of imperceptible sadness, she looked at the origami that had been pasted, and said softly: "Didn't you say that people are dead but their souls are still there." Brother Twilight Hang has gone abroad, and I should rarely come back, and if Brother Xiaochen comes back occasionally, he should be very lonely. These were given to him when I first met Brother Xiaochen and wanted to be friends with him. If he can really come back and see them, at least he won't feel too lonely......" "Little guy......" Xu Duhang stopped talking, he threw the paper boat in his hand into the box, and then quietly looked at Lan Xue, who was concentrating on folding origami, without saying a word. After a long time, he lowered his head, looked at the carton with only one paper boat left, and said: "Little guy, because I am afraid that I will miss home after I go abroad, I have been smiling at me so hard just now, telling jokes to make me happy, isn't it?" Lan Xue was silent, slowly turned sideways, picked up the last paper boat in the carton, and at the moment when she wanted to turn around, Lan Xue suddenly stopped. Lan Xue slowly raised her head, stared into Xu Duhang's eyes, and smiled again......

The boy and the girl gradually disappeared from Xu Duhang's sight. Xu Duhang took a deep breath, straightened his body, and walked slowly to the bed. He sneered, looked at the origami attached to the headboard of the bed, and bit his lower lip tightly, the tears flowing from the corners of his eyes no longer knew if it was because of the pain of biting his lower lip, or because he no longer knew when he began to remember that Lan Xue's joys, sorrows and sorrows were no longer suppressed because of himself. Xu Duhang slowly raised his arm, tore off a paper boat and put it on the palm of his hand and stared coldly, and then, slowly closing his palm, holding the paper boat in the palm of his hand, the paper boat turned into a paper ball in an instant......

Lan Xue lay quietly on the sofa, it was already dawn, but all the lights in the room were still on. Lan Xue turned her head sideways, looking at the wheelchair leaning on the edge of the sofa, she struggled to prop up her arms on the sofa, relying on the strength of all her arms to slowly move her body forward to get closer to the wheelchair. Although Lan Xue had exhausted all her strength, her inability to move her legs became her biggest resistance, and Lan Xue eventually accidentally rolled off the sofa and fell to the ground. The glass on the coffee table was knocked to the ground by Lan Xue's arm who fell from the sofa and shattered into pieces, and Lan Xue's arm was cut by the debris on the ground with several bloody cuts. The wound on the palm of her hand that had not fully healed, coupled with the new injury on her arm, made Lan Xue's pain like a knife, but Lan Xue did not admit defeat, she replaced her legs with her arms, and dragged her immobile legs to move forward with great difficulty to touch the wheelchair leaning on the edge of the sofa. The intense pain almost overwhelmed Lan Xue, but she smiled happily, "It's about to happen." She muttered to herself as she scrambled forward. Just when Lan Xue was about to climb to the edge of the wheelchair, she suddenly heard the sound of the key to open the door, which sounded very soft, and the movements of the person who opened the door must be very gentle, not like Xu Duhang. Therefore, this voice made Lan Xue surprised and delighted, and she wondered if it would be her mother who came back. Thinking that it might be her mother coming back, Lan Xue climbed forward even more desperately, because she would never let her mother see her current appearance. Ignoring the pain in her body, she scrambled forward, and when her raised arm finally touched the wheels of the wheelchair, the door opened......

In the backlight, a tall figure entered the sight of the two Lan Xue. Although the shadow was so vague in Lan Xue's eyes, Lan Xue knew that the "dream" that she hoped to be her mother's return was shattered at this moment. The man who walked into the room turned around and closed the door, then turned off all the switches on the wall, and then, slowly, he turned sideways, and walked towards the blue snow step by step...... Lan Xue watched the person in front of her gradually become clear from blur, and she knew that she had no choice. Lan Xue didn't want to admit that she had "no choice" and didn't want to be seen by that person as helpless, so she had to close her eyes helplessly. When the sound of crisp shoes stopped in her ears, she knew that the man was already standing beside her.

Duan Yehan stood upright, looking down at the broken glass on the ground, the old wounds on Lan Xue's palms and the new wounds on his arms, as well as Lan Xue's closed eyes, although his own eyes were already filled with heartache tears, he endured the pain of his heart, suppressed the tears in his eyes, and said softly: "Don't you want to see me? Or, don't you dare to look at me? You want to ruin a person, but you don't even dare to look at that person's face, isn't it too ridiculous." Duan Yehan slowly squatted down, leaned over and whispered coldly in Lan Xue's ear, "You have to look at me." To destroy me, first of all, you have to look at me without fear. Whatever I do, you have to be brave enough to look me in the face. Only then will you be able to see my joys, sorrows, and sorrows, when I am at my saddest and most vulnerable...... Ruined me. Only then will you be the winner in the end. Duan Yehan's words fell, and Lan Xue opened her eyes and looked at him intently. Duan Yehan looked at the hateful look in Lan Xue's eyes, and smiled shallowly, "Very good." Then, Duan Yehan carefully picked up Lan Xue, his movements were very light, for fear that he would touch Lan Xue's wound and hurt her. After slowly putting her into the wheelchair, Duan Yehan asked, "Where is the medicine box?" Lan Xue looked at him quietly as if she hadn't heard his question. Duan Yehan had already expected Lan Xue's attitude, he unhurriedly pulled Lan Xue's wheelchair down a little farther away from the sofa, and then squatted down to pick up all the pieces on the ground and put them on the coffee table. After getting up, Duan Yehan looked at Lan Xue, who was still silent, and said softly: "Are you curious if you don't speak, I am not from the Lan family, how can I have a key to come in." With that, Duan Yehan took out a string of keys with a heart-shaped keychain from his pocket and shook it in front of Lan Xue and said, "This, do you recognize it?" Looking at the bunch of keys in front of her, Lan Xue was shocked, this was her mother Shan Ru's key. Duan Yehan put the key back in his pocket, looked at Lan Xue expressionlessly, and said, "Where is the medicine box?"