In the hotel, Xu Lingyun and Xu Liqun snuggled there quietly, enjoying the last night together.

Xu Liqun remembers that late winter night in Mi Guo, a group of workers and coachmen sat around the fire in the bar, and no one cared about him huddled in the corner.

Because he was not allowed by his family, he ran away from home in anger and fled to the ocean, lonely and helpless, and he drank alone with a heavy heart.

When I went outside alone, I realized that life is not easy. At a young age, he had no talent, but he had to bow to the harsh reality of life.

Suddenly, an equally handsome (hua ren) young man came up to him with a wine glass and a smile, sat down next to him, picked up the wine glass and drank it with him.

Ten thousand years at a glance.

The young man's graceful and charming smile touched the softest part of his heart at once.

He didn't know if it was the legendary love at first sight, but the heartbeat of that moment made his heart beat out of rhythm.

Amid the noise of the man coming and going, drinking, cursing, and making lewd jokes, the two men sat quietly in the corner, looking at each other and smiling.

At that moment, his heart was satisfied and happy, and the two of them were very tacitly together, and neither of them spoke, not even a word.

"Being able to sit face to face with you, I think it can be compared to the gods in the sky, listening to you speak is so gratifying, it is so sweet......"

"Listen to your touching laughter that makes my heart

Such a throbbing in my chest, when I look at you, the clouds, my lips can't make a sound......"

My tongue froze, and a warm fire suddenly slipped over my skin,

My eyes can't see anything but you......"

"My ears were filled with noise, I was sweating profusely, my whole body was trembling with excitement, and the sudden surprise made my face pale, weaker than a blade of grass, as if I was almost out of breath, and ...... in my dying"

……

"Six years of solitude.

The most unforgettable, red fern i) pillow, tears fluttering. ”

Xu Liqun couldn't go on, and the thought of his lover having to accompany that woman from now on was uncomfortable!

He put his head on Xu Lingyun's heart, and his aggrieved appearance made people feel pity.

Xu Lingyun stroked Xu Liqun's smooth skin and toned body, watched his full red lips close one by one, lowered his head and leaned over, blocking his chattering mouth.

"The wedding cards have been sent, and when it's done, we'll go to settle down outside Guo, and then we'll be together again......"

Xu Lingyun said his plan, there is no way, a person is a human being, he is a social person.

You have to play according to the set of society, and you have to overcome your own nature to a large extent and make yourself as much as possible in line with society.

After the age of twenty-five, my parents were anxious. Every day, he is constantly instilled in his ears, "There are three unfilial pieties, and no queen is great." ”

And he is still the only child in the family, and he can't escape this continuation of the responsibility.

People are members of society, and there is a natural contract between people and society, and society needs to continue and develop, and it is natural for each individual to fulfill the responsibility of reproduction and nurturing future generations within the scope of his or her own ability.

The process of a person's growth is the process of compromising with society, although people can change society to a certain extent, but many fundamental problems cannot be changed by people.

His birth and growth are all the fruits of his parents' hard work and countless efforts. From babbling to toddler, to school, elementary, middle, high, college.

On the surface, in high school, he was a good student, and there was never a puppy love problem that worried both teachers and parents. The same goes for colleges.

In the past, his parents were always worried that he would fall in love with him at first, which would affect his studies, and they did everything possible to warn him and ring the alarm to prevent him from getting out of the basket.

When he arrived at university, he didn't interfere too much with his freedom, but then he saw that he hadn't solved his personal problems year after year after seeing him become famous, and finally he was really anxious.

Parents and relatives and friends are constantly introducing girls to him, and in the face of those warblers and swallows, he can't say that he likes men, right!?

If he said it, he was really afraid that his mother would not be able to stand the blow and had a heart attack, and he was also worried about social identity issues, because society would discriminate against them and oppress them.

For example, Xu Liqun left home and went to Guo to survive and develop because of the intolerance of his family and clansmen.

To relieve the pressure of society and family, the best of both worlds is to find a suitable woman to marry, so that both parents can be happy and no longer stare at him.

Some people say that homosexuality is genetically determined, and to some extent, homosexuality is an instinct, and he doesn't know when he started liking boys.

He himself had checked it privately.

The scientific community believes that "sexual tendencies, such as homosexuality and heterosexuality, are determined by nature and are fixed in the early stage of the formation of the human spirit (infancy and early childhood), and the sexual tendencies that have been formed cannot be changed".

In fact, when he was in high school, he once fell in love with a boy. The boy was his tablemate.

Xu Lingyun and him are very good friends. In his daily interactions, he discovers a secret of himself: he has developed a crush on the boy!

The two of them had nothing to say before, but Xu Lingyun couldn't talk about it, he really didn't have the courage to say it. He instinctively felt as if it was a shameful thing to do......

The boy was also very good to him, and he gave everything he had into this relationship.

He has always been very confused, and the unrequited love relationship really makes people feel very tormented. The sweet, painful, burning feelings almost burned his heart.

If he told the boy I love you, how would he react, and would he still be as good to himself as he was before?

If I had told him directly, would the boy have felt disgusting?

If he can't accept it, then distance himself from it......

That's unbearable for him!

He has always used desperate study to solve this struggle. But I didn't expect this secret to be exposed.

One day, the two of them finished their studies, and it was already past eight o'clock in the evening, so they went to the hotel together.

I ordered a few dishes, and for the first time, I asked for a bundle of draft beer as boldly as an adult.

The first time I drank beer, I didn't feel like it tasted good, but because I was accompanied by someone I had loved for a long time, I felt that everything was delicious.

As a result, after the two young people pushed the cups and exchanged a few bottles of wine, Xu Lingyun actually spit out the truth after drinking and told the boy what he thought!

As you can imagine, the boy was stunned at first, then he took him for a psychopath, and finally walked away angrily.

The next day, he was surprised to find that his table mate had shifted places, and his eyes were full of wariness.

He tried to explain it to the boy, but the boy looked disgusted and dodged away. He was ashamed of his shameless self-esteem.

The boy didn't tell anyone about it, but since then he has drifted away from Xu Lingyun, and he didn't say a word to him until he graduated......

This past did not pass away with the wind, but was unforgettable in his heart.

Later, when he met Xu Liqun in a foreign place, he was no longer as abrupt as his first love, but gradually.

Later, he was with Xu Liqun every day, which made him very dependent on himself.

This is also what an experienced friend told him, imparting experience to make him as good as possible to that girl, to be her best friend, saying that if she depends on you, she will definitely be inseparable from you.

Of course, that friend didn't know that he didn't like a girl.

A lesson from the previous car, a teacher from the back.

Based on previous experience and his own erudite knowledge, boiling a frog in warm water slowly convinced a person's heart......

Later, under the considerate care, Xu Liqun really relied on him......