Xiaotu stood on the balcony and sighed helplessly.

- Cheng Jiang, this little girl doesn't want to figure it out, how can he forcibly break her dream.

- What if I accidentally make something happen to someone?

But luckily......

He glanced back at Cheng Jiang's body, which was still lying on the bed, and walked over to take off the bronze necklace hanging from her neck.

Speaking of which, this thing is probably an antique, and I don't know where Cheng Jiang got it.

He gently pressed the eight pieces of glass that had been put together into the groove, and sure enough, it fit—just a small piece in the lower right corner.

Seriously looking at this strange-shaped necklace, Xiao Tu thought about it, and then looked for it again in Cheng Jiang's house, but still didn't find anything.

However, I accidentally found some of Cheng Jiang's diaries.

After only a second of hesitation, Xiao Tu naturally flipped open the heavy notebook with a black cover.

"A certain day in a certain month

Two days ago, my mother took me to the hospital, and after I came back, I didn't let me go out again, I felt so bored, I wanted to go to school and play with my classmates. ”

"A certain day in a certain month

I haven't been out for a month, and yesterday the doctor came to my house again to hang up the needle, and there were many holes on the back of my hand, which hurt so much. ”

"A certain day in a certain month

There was a circus passing downstairs today, but fortunately you have a balcony in my room, so I ran out secretly while my parents didn't come back.

The hat was blown away by the wind, but a boy about my age picked it up and took it away, and in exchange he gave me a balloon.

I had a great day, but in order not to be discovered by my mother, I had to hang the balloons outside the balcony. ”

"A certain day in a certain month

I went to the hospital today, and although it was rare to be able to go out, I was not happy. The doctor always used a very thick needle to draw blood from me, and it hurt. ”

……

The pain of returning from each trip to the hospital was recorded intermittently, and the only happy thing I could do every month when I was able to peek at the circus and communicate silently with a strange boy, which lasted for years.

It wasn't until last summer that the information recorded in the diary changed.

- But although the change is subtle, it only makes people feel heart-pounding when they look closely.

"I went to the hospital again to have my bone marrow sucked, and I didn't feel any pain anymore, but I was so bored. ”

"Today that boy is here again, he's really interesting, if only there were just the two of us in this world. ”

"Today, those two people quarreled again, although they hid in the room and didn't go out, but they talked so loudly that it was impossible not to hear them, right?

Drag the oil bottle or something—did you mean to tell me?"

"Today the boy tied a necklace to the balloon, and although it looked rough, I liked it. It's been a long time since I've received a gift from someone else. ”

"It's raining today. It's nice to be raining. The streets are not so lively when it rains, and it would be nice if it rained all the time. ”

"Why do they always have to be so lively? I can only sit at home and do nothing, but they have to laugh so much. Heaven is really unfair. Die, die, die!"

"Today, my mother brought a very gentle young lady and said that she was here to see me. What, how many times have I watched it since I was a child, why should I be so careful this time. It's annoying!

"Tsk, that eldest sister laughs so disgustingly, who can she show such a gentle look, why don't she die! I really want to know if she can still laugh like this if she can be locked up in a room alone for a few years!"

"It's too much! If I hadn't secretly run to listen to what they were trying to hide from me!!?!

"Sure enough, you are the only one who will not betray me, although I don't know your name, but if we only meet once a month, it doesn't feel enough! ”

"Today I dreamed that it was raining all the time in the world, and it was very quiet, and there was no noise from the annoying children downstairs, and there was no more and more impatient quarrel between my parents, which was so good. ”

"Hehehe, it's just the two of us in this world, it's great......"

……

Page by page, the diary was flipped through, and the handwriting on the paper became more and more regular from the initial immaturity, and at the same time more and more depressing.

If at the beginning, it was just written about some happy and unhappy things on weekdays, and I wanted to talk about and complain, but I don't know when it started, and the words began to be filled with all kinds of curses.

At first, it was recorded with a colored pen, and Xiaotu could see that it was yellow when he was happy and blue when he was unhappy.

However, in the second half of the time, the color of the pen changes to black throughout, and occasionally the word "die" in red does not look like it was written on the same day.

After reading the entire diary, Xiaotu didn't know what to say.

In any case, this little girl's daily life is too depressing.

And in more than ten years of life, the only thing that can bring her happiness is a boy who doesn't even know his name.

I always feel that it is reasonable for Cheng Jiang to make such a choice.

Xiaotu smiled bitterly and closed the notebook.

The cover of the notebook is black, but the word "Cheng Jiang" is written a little crookedly in the lower right corner with a golden colored pen.

- It's still a notebook that I owned when I was very young......

Xiao Tu stared at those two words, and was in a daze for a while.

Speaking of which, it's not like she's never experienced such a feeling.

It should be said that she has always been in a space for a long time.

When I first started as a youkai-

She only gave birth to a little consciousness, not enough to be able to speak, and the godmother and Liuli didn't think that they were just a potato, and they could still absorb spiritual energy and give birth to spiritual intelligence.

So he was left in a corner and left unattended, and I don't know how long it took to get up.

I was just in my mind at that time, and I didn't have any complicated feelings, just groggy, woke up, fell asleep, and woke up, until one day I suddenly woke up and found that I could actually speak.

Xiao Tu thought about it, and couldn't help but shake his head again.

In other words, it shouldn't be because human emotions are too complicated.

Because I have experienced the taste of running and laughing, it seems that I can only stay at home and become very intolerable.

Because you can't have it, you feel jealous when you see how easily others squander it.

- After all, it's the greedy desire that comes from being human.