Chapter 270: Repeating the Cycle
Duan Yehan stared into Lan Xue's eyes, their eyes had already been filled with tears, and they didn't seem to see anything between each other except for the vague other. Duan Yehan's eyes were oozing with red blood, he approached Lan Xue's face, his voice trembled, and said in a commanding tone, "Say what you just said again." Lan Xue looked up at Duan Yehan, calmly looked at the blood red in his eyes, pinched his unconscious leg with a trembling hand, and said calmly: "Conscience or something, I don't have it for a long time." As she spoke, Lan Xue slowly raised her arm, put her palm on Duan Yehan's heart, and asked, "That thing...... Do you have one?"
Lan Xue lowered her palms and lowered her head with a wry smile, "None of us are suitable for that kind of thing." Or rather, you and I, we don't deserve that kind of thing...... Such pure things are only available to us when we were children. And now you and me, if you have it, you're only going to get it dirty......"
Duan Ye was silent, he looked at Lan Xue stupidly, and retreated stupidly, and the memories in his mind also flipped painfully with Lan Xue's indifferent gaze......
"Brother, brother, my name is Lan Xue and I'm ten years old this year, let's play together. Lan Xue jumped up to his side and sat next to him. That was the first meeting between Lan Xue and him. Her nose was small, her face was as red as an apple, her eyes were like a winding river, and she was a girl like a bell flower that exuded a faint fragrance......
"If my brother has no friends, he will be alone, you will be afraid. What if a ghost comes to you? I'm most afraid of being alone, it's really scary to be alone. He wanted to leave alone, and she burst into tears......
"Brother, don't be afraid, I'll be your friend. As long as it's not a ghost, I don't dare to come. She always liked to smile and follow him......
She took out a dozen colored papers from the cabinet, sat down opposite him, took out a piece of colored paper and folded it seriously, and after a while, she folded a steamer, "Brother, give it to you." He looked at her, expressionless, speechless. She took out another piece of colored paper, "Then I'll fold the house and give it to you." "Ships, houses, airplanes...... The folded colored paper had almost filled the small table, and he was still the same as before, without expression, without words, still looking at her with cold eyes. Her smile was not frozen by his eyes, and she took out another piece of colored paper, "Then I'll fold another paper crane and give it to you." She continued to fold earnestly...... Finally, when the origami on the small table was piled up and there was no place for it, looking at the boy in front of her who was still silent, she still smiled and refused to give up, "Brother, what do you want? I will fold it to you what you want." ”
The picture in my memory is so clearly visible, but it becomes blurry unconsciously, disappearing in front of me little by little......
"Brother Xiaochen......" Lan Xue suddenly opened her mouth to summon Duan Yehan. Lan Xue's voice was hoarse and weak, and after many years, this was the first time she called out this "name" that had been hidden in her heart for many years and had never been forgotten, but it seemed to have been forgotten completely. Calling the person in front of him like this, Lan Xue's heart was faint, cutting pain, "Brother Xiaochen, do you believe in the past life and this life? We have become what we are today, maybe it is the cycle of cause and effect...... So, I don't feel indebted to you at all. Auntie has become what she is now, no wonder me. I'm not sorry, and I don't feel guilty. If you want to blame, blame her for meeting you...... If you want to blame, blame the person who filled the position left by Duan Yehan, it's you. As she spoke, Lan Xue suddenly smiled bitterly and nodded, "That's it." You have no name, I have no conscience, and none of us owe anyone anything, it's fair. You ruined my life, I ruined yours, our lives were ruined by each other, it's fair......"
Duan Ye was silent, just quietly looking at Lan Xue. After a while, Duan Yehan slowly approached Lan Xue, slowly squatting down, he looked at Lan Xue's eyes, and sadness spread out of his eyes bit by bit. When the last trace of sadness quietly disappeared from Duan Yehan's eyes, he said in a deep voice: "You can ruin my life, but why do you want to touch her life?" Zhou Lin, it's already very pitiful......" Duan Yehan raised his hands, held Lan Xue's cheeks, and forced her to look directly at him. Impartially, Duan Yehan looked at Lan Xue's eyes "deadly", as if as long as he kept looking at her like this, he could see in her pupils the little girl who had always liked to follow her......
Finally, when a wave of warmth poured out of Duan Yehan's eyes again, he gently let go of his hand and said to Lan Xue with a wry smile: "I still remember that you sent me a lot of origami. Ships, houses, airplanes...... There are also paper cranes. I didn't like to talk at the time, but I loved everything...... "Not anymore." Lan Xue coldly interrupted Duan Yehan's words, she hooked the corners of her mouth indifferently, and a self-deprecating smile rose on the corner of her mouth, "I haven't folded paper since Zuo Chen 'died', and I won't fold it over time." Now I only know how to destroy you. I'm not going to do anything but think about how to destroy you. ”
"Well, I see. Duan Yehan responded, nodded helplessly, and said, "I should have understood a long time ago...... You've grown up, and you won't like origami as much as you did back then......" As he spoke, there was no trace of the soft light left in Duan Yehan's eyes. He stood up, lowered his head, looked at Lan Xue expressionlessly, and said lightly, "You go, don't let my mother see you again." Duan Yehan turned around and moved farther and farther away from the blue snow step by step...... When he walked to the door, Duan Yehan stopped, slowly closed his eyes, slowly clenched his hands along the last tear that flowed from the corners of his eyes, and said, "I'm sorry." Ten years ago, bother you...... In the future, it won't. After that, Duan Yehan left without looking back.
The moment the door closed sounded, Lan Xue finally couldn't help but lower her head and cry. Lan Xue knew that Duan Yehan had gone away, but she still didn't dare to cry out loud, she covered her mouth and let the tears flow between her fingers, extremely sad......
"Don't cry...... a familiar voice rang in Lan Xue's ears. Lan Xue raised her head, looked at the face hidden under the cloak in front of her, no longer concealed her sadness, and cried and said, "Brother Yingsheng, after two lives, I thought we wouldn't be so hard. ”
"Snow marks, don't cry......" Qiu Yingsheng slowly approached Lan Xue, and the cloak that covered his face slowly slipped down...... Lan Xue raised her head, staring at the face that was exactly the same as Duan Yehan, and cautiously reached out to touch his cheek. When Lan Xue's hand "passed" the face that gradually became transparent when it touched her fingers, tears accompanied by a smile, Lan Xue choked up and said, "Brother Yingsheng, Xue Zhen, I miss you very much, I haven't seen you for a long time...... I forgot about you, I'm really sorry......"
Qiu Yingsheng smiled lightly and shook his head, "It's okay, I always remember the snow marks." Lan Xue also smiled and nodded, but after that she suddenly fell silent...... After a long time, Lan Xue suddenly said thoughtfully: "I finally know, why did you stop me from going to the bar to find Xu Duhang in the hospital that day...... Are you afraid that things will turn out the way they are today, and if I had listened to you that day, everything would not have happened today......
Lan Xue smiled bitterly and lowered her head, "Brother Yingsheng, I never thought that it would become like this, in this life, I actually grew up with Kurosawa Jun, I believe in him so much...... Qiu Ruoyu, Duan Yehan...... Why did I still fall into such entanglements and end up with such a result after reincarnation...... Brother Yingsheng, if I don't choose reincarnation, I won't be in a dilemma like now......"
Qiu Ying was silent, and after a moment of silence, he replied lightly: "It's like an illusion, from upside down." It is like a shadow, and it is a karmic fate. It is like a flame, born from thirst and love. Snow marks, no matter who you are, whether it is in the previous life or this life, we are born involuntarily, and the cycle repeats, life after life, and it has always been like this. "Cycle after cycle, life after life...... Lan Xue muttered to Qiu Yingsheng's words, looking at a place in amazement, "If that's the case, I'd rather live a stupid life like in my previous life." No one recognizes, no one remembers ......"
"Snow marks, do you remember that before you drank the Meng Po soup, someone once asked you a question. Qiu Yingsheng's words were peaceful, but Lan Xue sounded like every word, forcing her to open the door in her memory that she would rather be sealed forever......
Snow Scar lowered her head and slowly raised the arm that was holding the hot soup......
"Snow marks. The man behind her suddenly called her name. Snowmark stopped what she was doing and turned to look at him. The man lowered his head slightly, and said calmly, "Snow marks, do you say that among these people who crossed the bridge, do you want to desperately keep the memories of their past lives?" If I keep my memories and recognize you first, are you willing to remember the words 'Qiu Ruoyu' again?" Xue Zhen turned to look sideways at the bridge in front of him, and said lightly: "Those memories, if you want to keep them, keep them." It's just that no one here should be able to do whatever they want, and even if there is, it has nothing to do with me. To be reincarnated, what I am most happy about is that I don't have to remember your ...... again", Xue Scar no longer paused, raised his hand and drank the hot soup in the bowl, along with the tears that inadvertently slipped between the corners of his eyes and the bitter water of this life.
"How could Brother Yingsheng know about the question Qiu Ruoyu asked me?" Lan Xue looked at Qiu Yingsheng curiously, then shook her head with a smile and said, "None of us recognize anyone, it's just self-deception...... I am no longer Ye Xuejian, and he is no longer Qiu Ruoyu, what is the point of recognizing it, but not recognizing it......" Lan Xue was silent with the sound of footsteps gradually becoming clear in her ears......
"Snow Marks, Xu Duhang is here to pick you up. Qiu Yingsheng's calm voice broke Lan Xue's silence. "Well, it's time for me to go. Lan Xue smiled bitterly and replied, slowly turning her wheelchair and walking towards the door. It's just that Lan Xue has just turned the direction of the wheelchair, and the wheels seem to be under a pressure and can't turn anymore. Lan Xue didn't look back, and said with a light smile: "Brother Yingsheng doesn't want me to go?" "Snow Marks, I hope you can listen to my words before leaving." Lan Xue didn't speak, letting go of the hand holding the wheelchair. The moment he let go, the pressure on the wheelchair slowly disappeared, "I've been waiting for today, waiting to tell you that the person who asked you the question was not the eldest brother...... That person is just, entrusted by others, loyal to people......"