Just as he subconsciously nodded, the image in front of him began to blur, and the desire accumulated in his heart burned fiercely.

Washing the gods and retreating, the first trick - returning to dreams, falling into delusion.

Delusions are like fire, delusions are desires, burning his mind. Once upon a time, when I was in love, I suppressed my inner emotions and desires because of the ordinariness and even embarrassment of my identity.

Eager to succeed, eager to counterattack.

But the steps are difficult, and the future is bleak.

Just when he felt lost, the dream changed again.

It is surrounded by familiar streets, full of pedestrians and traffic.

Lu Zheng stood under an old locust tree covered with scars, with a wheat field on his left and the Yongxing Textile Factory in the town on his right.

"Zhengzi, Zhengzi. Let's go home, Auntie made eggplant and lo mein today. Suddenly a voice sounded beside him, a round-faced little girl was pulling his sleeve, only eight or nine years old, the doll's fat round face, the skin was shiny and shiny from the sun, and there was a dried snot stain on the lips, only a pair of eyes were as white as snow, very piercing.

She wore pigtails, a patched gown, flowered cloth shoes, a small shovel in her hand, and a small house made of dirt at her feet.

"Miao Miao?"

Lu Zheng blurted out.

"Huh?" Lin Xinmiao tilted her head and looked at him strangely, frowned and pouted, "Why are you calling my name?"

"Uh...... Gone, Sergeant. Lu Zheng subconsciously changed his words, and then naturally took her little hand.

"No, I can't. Lin Xinmiao stubbornly dragged back and snorted, "You just bragged, didn't you?"

"Bragging?"

"Hmph. Lin Xinmiao pointed to the mud house on the ground with a small shovel, and said dissatisfiedly: "The house I built is very strong, but you brag about it, saying that you can knock down the house I built with a soak of urine." No, you are not allowed to cheat. If you can't fall. Give me your pencil case. ”

"That's it. A surge of urine was surging in the bladder, and it seemed that Lu Zheng poured a lot of cold water in advance in order to resist the great cause of urinating three zhangs against the wind.

Taking off his pants slightly, Lu Zheng 'shamelessly' took out the chick under his crotch, took a deep breath, tightened his bladder, and successfully launched a torrent.

The torrent was like a high-pressure water gun, instantly crushing the mud house. Lu Zheng snorted angrily, shook the water gun with meritorious service in his hand and shook it arrogantly twice, and said proudly: "How is it?

"Hmph. Lin Xinmiao's face was full of unhappiness. He shrugged his nose, his eyes were foggy, and he looked like he was about to cry, and turned to leave. After only a few steps, he began to cry.

"Alright, alright. Lu Zheng caught up with her, took her little hand, and said gently: "Don't cry." I'm most afraid that the girl will cry, and the pencil case will be given to you. ”

"Really?" Lin Xinmiao immediately burst into tears and laughed.

"Of course it's true. Lu Zheng said proudly: "Did I lie to you?"

"Nope. Never. Haha, I have a pencil case too. Lin Xinmiao cheered, took his little hand, and grinned, "Let's go." Your mother's eggplant and lo mein are the most delicious. ”

The two men held hands and happily made their way into the courtyard, and finally he stood in front of a brick house, two mottled green wooden doors open. The clean-wiped furniture, the old-fashioned sofa draped in a sofa towel, and the 10-inch panda TV.

In the kitchen, a middle-aged woman wearing an apron was carefully wiping down the table. On the table are freshly fished noodles and a pot of fragrant eggplant marinade.

Then, Lu Zheng's eyes suddenly became a little sour.

It's his home, his mom.

I wanted to open my mouth to call, but the two simple words were always stuck in my throat, and I couldn't make a sound.

An indescribable emotion erupted in my heart.

The picture freezes at this time, he just keeps standing, sunrise and sunset, day after day, but he never has the courage to walk in, and his mother never comes out.

One day, a roar rang in his ears.

"You dead girl, hurry up and get back to Lao Tzu!"

Stunned, he turned around and saw a handsome man, dressed in a gray tunic with an extremely angry expression on his face flushed from drunkenness.

Father Lin!

Beside him, a weak voice sounded: "Dad......"

"******, it's as worry-free as your damn mother. The angry Father Lin rushed over, twisted Lin Xinmiao's wrist, pulled her two or three times in a row, and stumbled into the house.

Looking at the tall and thin girl, it was obvious that she was twelve or thirteen years old.

"Say, where did your mother go? Did she go out again? Fuck ******, this cheap ****. The sound of smashing dishes sounded, and Father Lin's roaring voice echoed in Lu Zheng's ears through the door.

The clanging sound of smashing came and went, accompanied by Lin Xinmiao's helpless screams and cries.

There was a crunch sound.

"Wow......" Lin Xinmiao's miserable cry sounded.

Lu Zheng's heart swelled up with a strong anger out of nowhere, bent down to pick up a brick from the ground, and kicked open the door of the Lin family's house.

Lin Xinmiao, who covered her cheeks and had tears on her face, curled up in the corner like a frightened rabbit, her eyes were terrified, and her body was still trembling.

Looking at the hideous roaring face and the leg of the chair he was carrying, Lu Zheng threw out the bricks in his hand almost without hesitation.

A miserable howl sounded, and Father Lin's face was full of flowers, and his teeth were flying.

"Run! Miao Miao! Run!"

……

"Brother Zhengzi, you can take me away. I'll be beaten to death when I go back. ”

"But we don't have any money. ”

"We can earn money, I can wash dishes and mop the floor, and I can cook noodles. We can work outside, Brother Zhengzi, I'm not afraid of hardship. As long as you accompany me, even if you eat and sleep on the road every day, I am willing. ”

"Brother Zhengzi, please. I'm so scared that he's going to kill me. ”

"We can't go to school when we're gone, what will we do when we grow up?"

"It's okay, we can go farming. When the time comes, I will marry you, and you don't have to worry that you won't be able to marry a daughter-in-law if you don't have money. ”

"But you're so dark......"

"Even you hate me, don't you......? Even Brother Zhengzi dislikes me...... Woo wow, I'll go by myself, I don't want you to leave me alone. ”

"Don't cry, don't cry. I'm most afraid of girls crying, okay. We ran away from home, and it just so happened that I didn't pass the exam this time......"

"Brother Zhengzi is the best for me! Don't dislike me in the future, let alone beat me. ”

"Don't worry, I will protect you for the rest of my life, and I will never beat you like your father. ”

"Really?"

"Of course it's true, did I lie to you?"

……

The rapid flow of thoughts, accompanied by that black smiling face and playful little tiger teeth, Lu Zheng completely fell into memories. Lin Xinmiao's father was an alcoholic gambler, and his family was in difficulty, so he vented his incompetent anger on his wife and daughter. Since she was in elementary school, she hasn't had a decent dress, a toy to pick up, or even a new piece of stationery.

In contrast, Lu Zheng's father worked as a technician in a factory, and his mother also worked as a factory worker. The two husbands and wives are diligent and thrifty, and they love their only son very much, whether it is food and drink, clothes, toys, and stationery.

The dream was slowly blurred, and she came to Lin Xinmiao's small room, where there were all pencil cases, pencil sharpeners, diaries, erasers, comic books, spinning tops, foreign films, and tin frogs that Lu Zheng gave her on the desk......

Many of them are eliminated by Lu Zheng and not played, and many of them are brand new. Yes, the happiness that ran through Lin Xinmiao's entire childhood basically came from Lu Zheng.

Lu Zheng had never delved into the origin of Lin Xinmiao's feelings for him behind him, but at this moment, Lu Zheng realized what kind of attachment and trust this was.

Lu Zheng was stunned, his somewhat chaotic thinking began to become clear, and the images of the cute girls in front of him began to blur, and when he was fully awake, there was nothing around, except for the picture of washing the gods and retreating.

Unconsciously, Lu Zheng's brows furrowed tightly, and a huge sense of loss and sadness poured out from the depths of his heart, and those childhood memories that he thought he had forgotten gradually emerged.

At the end, two lines of tears came out of the frame. (To be continued.) )