The question is wrong, it's 9. Scumbag

I still ushered in the beginning of a new semester.

Together with Takuhisa.

Even though I wasn't in the same school as him.

……

At that time, because my mother was very cultured, I wore delicate lady's clothes, and my mother would always match me with cute and elegant expensive clothes, although I felt that it was not much different from other clothes. But in such a costume, I can't help but behave in accordance with the outfit.

[Ah, Erika is so cute today]

[And the demeanor is so elegant]

[Sure enough, it's a big lady]

At that time, I could always hear people call me that, but I didn't think of myself as a big lady at all. That being said, I still maintain this disguised image.

It's only when I practice with Takuhisa every day that I can release my true self.

Laugh and play, laugh often, and let go of yourself.

Sneak on the phone, sneak out to sing in the park, or hold hands to attend the festival.

……

When the cherry blossoms bloomed, I ran fast to the agreed place.

"Sorry for being late today. ”

I put my hands on my knees and bent over to exhale without any ladylike demeanor.

"It's fine. ”

Takuhisa replied gently, a smile on his face.

"Then let's go, it's too late, teacher. ”

I took his hand as I was accustomed to and ran briskly.

His hands are not hot, but they give me a different kind of stickiness, and I don't want to let go every time.

Every time I come into contact with him, I can produce a strange magic, and I can recall the ease and comfort of my childhood in Germany.

The cherry petals landed on my head, and I laughed mischievously so that the petals would not fall off during the run.

The petals dancing in the wind are fragrant, and Takuhisa is next to me, which makes me feel extremely happy.

The appearance of being dignified and elegant does not mean that I am a petite and thin vase, and I am also very good at sports, but despite this, I still walked on the ramp with him after running for a while with Takuhisa.

As we walked among the shadows formed by the trees, we talked about what had happened today, but most of the time it was me who was talking, and Takuhisa was listening.

He thought a lot, but said little, but he would listen quietly to my words and respond to me when appropriate.

I'm very lively inside.,I also like to talk to people.,But I'm also afraid of causing others to be unhappy to meet Takuhisa.,And then the relationship becomes more and more intimate.,It's also because we are compatible.。

In this way, our bonds are formed little by little, and it is difficult to break them.

They are complementing each other.

A large number of flower petals fluttered in the sky, and there was a strong gust of wind, even when we left the ramp, the two of us at the intersection of the railway and the highway could feel it.

Trams are speeding on the railway.

"Erika Blossom. ”

"Huh?"

He spoke suddenly, in a very flat tone, but I ...... I heard a hint of uneasiness, but I didn't notice it at the time, I just thought it was too much for myself.

"Can you watch the cherry blossoms with me? a year later, two years later, for a lifetime...... Can you always come and see the cherry blossoms with me?"

Panicking, he asked me.

I stretched out my arms to catch the petals and put them on my head, but unfortunately it didn't work, and they all became like sperm and quickly drifted in the direction of the train.

"Are you going to move?"

As mentioned above, I didn't notice it, I just thought about other possibilities.

"Uh...... No. ”

After being stunned, Takuhisa opened his mouth to deny.

"Then why do you say that, if Takuhisa doesn't move, won't we be able to see each other all the time? Every year, no, we can see cherry blossoms together every day. ”

I was serious, and I looked at Takuhisa without a half-point falsehood and said.

I don't think Takuhisa and I will be separated, we will grow up together.

Playing together, talking about the piano together, and talking about music are like cherry blossoms falling, although the speed is only five centimeters per second, but it never stops, and in the end, we will naturally come together.

Others will bless us with happiness.

I just don't know what the bride's pre-marital practice looks like?

I was thinking about it at the time.

"Well, that's what I'm saying, let's go and see the cherry blossoms from now on. ”

His eyes were relieved, and there was a shame that could not be hidden, and his face turned red.

"Of course. ”

I happily stretched out my other hand, and so did he.

After the tram passed, we pulled the hook.

The fence was raised, and we walked forward.

The shrill whistle disappeared and the spring temperatures surrounded us.

I believe that our future will be as bright as the sun.

However, it wasn't long before the world gave me a heavy blow.

That's just wishful thinking on my part.

Takuhisa said: The world has never been kind to human beings, we are just tenacious to survive.

I thoroughly understood the first half of the sentence.

He, Takuhisa, disappeared into my world one day.

……

The feeling of disobedience accompanied the school uniform weighed heavily on me.

"What? Takuhisa left?"

Last night, my father suddenly informed me about it.

"Hmm. ”

The father who has always been gentle has a serious expression at this time, and he is a little unkind.

"And where did he go?"

I asked anxiously.

"He told me not to talk to you. ”

Unbeknownst to him, my father shook his head.

"Anyway, forget about him, Erika. ”

When he recovered, his father returned to his previous gentle appearance.

After patting me on the head, my father left my room.

I didn't ask my father again, because he wouldn't have said that.

Sitting on the soft bed, my thoughts were complicated.

Gradually, he lost his strength.

I collapsed on the bed, and all I saw was the white ceiling.

Visions begin to blur and the sensation of skin becomes dull.

Takuhisa left Tokyo?

Where did he go?

Why didn't he tell me?

I couldn't help but feel anxious about the questions.

Why?!

I really wanted to scream out, but I didn't.

At this moment, I really want to rush out immediately and ask him, why did you not say goodbye.

Can......

Where are the others?

I can punch you hard, but I don't even know where you are.

The feeling of oppression made me give up.

Remorseful, remembering the conversation at that time.

"The result...... It's you who don't keep your promise. ”

His eyes were fixed on the open palm of his right hand and he muttered to himself.

Gradually becoming fragmented, am I not good enough?

Takuhisa?

All I was answered was the almost shattering sound of the bell.

Tick-tock, the sound of the ocean.

……

I started working as a servant and signed up for an entertainment company called Ota.

My family was surprised by my decision, but they didn't stop it.

My father's job was very good, and he didn't need me to work as a servant to support the family, but he agreed, and he probably wanted me to do what I wanted to do.

Well, it does.

There are things I want to do.

I'll be so dazzling that Takuhisa you can see.

Whether you're in Osaka, Hokkaido, Kyushu, or abroad, I'll let you see me.

You'll regret it.

The childish thoughts of a child have changed the path of my life.

The ideal is great, but the reality is cruel.

There are so many servants, and I am not alone.

Soon, I was left idle in Ota.

After a few years in a trance, I made a horror movie, and many people noticed my stage name, which was called Hanai Ikegami.

Then on a certain day.

Nogizaka 46...... Ramp ......"

I saw a recruitment advertisement for a team called Nogizaka 46, and I remembered the ramp.

My thoughts spread, and I think of the day when the cherry blossoms drift away.

I signed up for Nogizaka 46.

Then, I also successfully became a first-term student.

Inside, I'm also a young person, and there aren't many people my age or younger than me.

At that time, I had a good time with a skinny little girl named Asuka Saito.

Well, it's a pity that my old problem often comes up, and I'm always talking to her, and then saying a lot of strange things that I forgot to say myself, and Azuka often complains about it.

But......

In her, I seemed to see the shadow of Takuhisa.

It seems like......

But this is just my reverie, if I really want to say that it is more like Nanamin and Takuhisa.

If it's Takuhisa, I'm afraid I'll talk to Nanamin a lot, and his favorite thing besides music is reading......

The feeling of great joy disappeared in an instant.

Why do you think of him again?

I don't know.

Can......

"Are you doing in a place I don't know?"

No one was making noise (though I was the one who stirred up the atmosphere), and when I was left alone, looking at the foggy sky, I would say this to myself in a wistful voice.

……

Time flies.

I became the center of this order.

I also became a beautiful girl of the symbol (I feel like I'm touting myself, but it's true, not only do I shake hands, but I also told Mai Sheep Asuka about it).

The busy musicals and activities in the Nogizaka group left me with no time for other things.

Exhaustion made my head heavier and heavier.

Dancing and rehearsing repeatedly, my time was passing and my nerves were numbed.

What's wrong with me lately?

Feeling uneasy about something in my heart.

I'm waiting for him.

And he disappeared without a trace, into this world, which I knew a long time ago.

But I'm still waiting for him.

Even if he returned to the former practice room, he couldn't alleviate this inexplicable emotion.

Is puberty coming?

Or something else.

In half a year, a new spring will come, and will he enjoy the flowers somewhere?

Will you bring other girls to enjoy the flowers?

I don't know.

Jealousy, envy, that girl.

I was trapped in the enchantment of time by Takuhisa.

In my dreams, I fantasized about Takuhisa's appearance.

His stunned face was on the gray long sleeves, and after seeing each other again, we walked hand in hand, on that ramp, with a smile, shrouded in happiness.

The fuzzy brain woke up, and all that was left in his hand was the touch of his dream, and everything else was gone.

The fingertips suddenly became heavy, and tears fell at some point.

His face was immediately wet.

It was an instinctive reaction when I first woke up in the morning, and I didn't think about crying.

I'm justifying myself, and who knows?

Very strong emotions.

But it is hidden in silence.

When will the nostalgia disappear?

When will I be able to break free from this cursed barrier?

Is it for a lifetime?

From the time I promised Takuhisa at the intersection?

Can we still see each other when we rely on each other?

……

If there is no accident, I will never see each other again for the rest of my life, and maybe I will find other boys I like after graduation.

However, this handshake will be .......

Why did you show up again?

I stared blankly at the familiar figure.

There was no rejoicing.

Why are you in my world again?

Scumbag.