Looking at the figure of Qianxia Qianxue breaking out of the door, Bai Fan was also a little funny, but he didn't have the idea of chasing out, this girl wanted to let herself go over to help stand on the field, maybe she wouldn't do it when the time came.

It's just that Bai Fan may have something serious to do tomorrow, so he didn't agree.

"Forget it, this flat-chested Qianxue is begging me like this, I'll call and ask Eri if I'll leave tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. ”

He glanced at the small diary on the shelf, thought about it, and took it back again.

This diary as a whole is a heavy black cover, the footer has been a little worn, it seems that the owner has traces of frequent use, as for why Hayakawa Eri gave the diary to herself, Bai Fan thinks, maybe this is a way for her to express her sincerity, after all, Hayakawa Eri is very thin-skinned, and with a quiet temperament of a literary girl, using her diary to express her true heart may be her only way.

He reached out and flipped open the title page of the diary, only to see that it was written in a dignified and delicate font.

'Cowards are afraid of happiness, hurt when they touch cotton, and sometimes hurt by happiness. ’

This is a sentence from Osamu Dazai's famous work "Human Disqualification", the so-called "Human Disqualification", which translates to "lose the qualification to be a human being". The Japanese word for "human being" actually means human being.

Bai Fan raised his eyebrows, moved his fingers slightly, and turned to the next page.

The content of Hayakawa Eri's diary is surprisingly simple, probably just an introduction to the trivial things in life, sometimes she meets a cat, and makes a delicious dish at home, she will record them one by one, but no matter which one it is, it is an extraordinarily warm daily life, and she never brings the slightest unhappiness or negative emotions to the diary.

But maybe it's her kind of behavior that makes her own diary subconsciously bring melancholy strokes, she is actually not doing well, but she doesn't express it, she actually knows everything, but she doesn't say it.

Bai Fan read the diary very quickly, almost ten lines at a glance, he didn't want to read it too carefully, although this diary was given to him by Eri Hayakawa, but he didn't want to peek too much into Eri Hayakawa's heart.

Her diary gives people the feeling of a melancholy girl, looking out the window at the never-ending rain, longing for the arrival of light, but also afraid of touching the sun. The contradiction is complicated, this point, even if she wrote about Bai Fan's arrival later, the situation has improved, and it is still the same, this is the mood that has plagued her for more than ten years, and it is naturally not so easy to solve it simply and easily in a month.

Bai Fan looked at it and saw the last page, and then turned back to a simple note sandwiched in the diary.

Spread it out on the table, only to see that a lot of words were written on it in a neat and delicate font, and Bai Fan read the past carefully, as if Eri Hayakawa's voice was in his ears.

Bai Jun personally opened.

I've always been taken care of by Haku-kun, and Eri is very grateful to you.

But when you read this letter, it must be the time for me to leave Yokohama, right?

I wrote this letter all night when my mother contacted relatives in Fukuoka's hometown, and I thought about finishing it quickly, because if I didn't finish it, Haku-kun would definitely reproach me for not going to sleep. Bai Jun is such a person, I like Bai Jun who is very gentle with girls.

In fact, I had a hunch for a long time, and when my mother contacted my hometown, she asked me more than once what would happen if I changed my environment. I've always been obedient to my mother, and this time was no exception, and I told her that it didn't matter where I went. Actually, I was scared because I was going to a place I didn't know, I didn't know where there was anyone, and I didn't know what the environment would be. Then my mother asked me again, what about Bai Jun's side? I hesitated, and I didn't know how to answer my mother.

I like Bai Jun. Actually, I've known this question for a long time, and I think Bai Jun is so smart, so I've noticed it a long time ago, right? But because Bai Jun is so good, Eri can't destroy the relationship between you and other excellent girls. But I also think that liking is liking, and there is no reason why I can't tell others.

Anyway, I'm leaving now. If you leave Yokohama and go to a place I don't know, you should have a chance to meet again in the future, right?

I also hope that Haku-kun will not come to see me, because when I see Haku-kun, Eri will definitely cry, and I don't want Haku-kun to see me so embarrassed, and when I settle down in Fukuoka, we will use email to communicate.

It's good to meet Bai Jun.

Mr. Qiu Xiao asked me to try on the wedding dress that day, and Eri actually refused, but Mr. Qiu Xiao said that if Bai Jun saw it, he might be happy. So Eri put it on. Because, if there is a husband like Haku-kun, Eri may die happily.

Thank you, Bai Jun. It's really nice to have you.

Eri Hayakawa.

At the end of the letter, you can still see a little tear stain on the paper.

Bai Fan read the letter in one go, and his mood was also a little unsmooth, and he didn't know what he should say. Eri Hayakawa's sincerity, he did receive it, but even if he goes to be Eri Hayakawa's boyfriend now, it can't change the fact that Eri Hayakawa left.

The content of the letter is very plain, and it looks very simple, but the last sentence seems to be a collection of thousands of words into one sentence, she really thinks that it is good to have Bai Fan by her side, she is slender and kind, let Bai Fan not send her, and she also does not want to continue to trouble him.

"I like it..."Bai Fan was silent for a long time.

Eri Hayakawa is the type of girl who will probably only like one person in her life, because she is faithful, obedient, gentle, and traditional. She fears happiness, but for the first time, she chases it, and the first time, and it may be the last time she musters up her courage.

Whew-

Bai Fan let out a long breath, the girl's affection was a little scary, and her emotions as clean as diamonds were all expressed on a piece of paper. She is not like the high school girls that Bai Fan usually laughs at, she dares to jump out and say that she loves others without even understanding how to write the word love. Eri Hayakawa knows exactly what she is talking about and what she is doing.

So... Do you want to send Eri Hayakawa or not?

Bai Fan's eyes froze, his eyes touched the black diary, and his heart was also a little heavy.

His gaze turned to the ceiling.

It took a long time before the decision was made.

"You have to be young—"

He seemed to be speaking to Eri Hayakawa, and it was as if he was speaking to himself.