Chapter 18: The Seeds of Collapse

"The Servant vanished, lost his Master rights, and could no longer participate in the Holy Grail War. In accordance with the regulations, I asked the church to protect my safety. ”

Asking for protection from the spokesperson of the church, unlike the empty eyes in the past, there was something else in Yan Fengqili's eyes now, but they were covered by the same firmness as ever, and even the man standing opposite him didn't see it.

Yan Fengli looked at his son with a flat expression, and accepted his refuge as if he were performing his official duties.

"Accepted. As an overseer, I am protecting your safety. ”

A smile bloomed on the priest's old face, and he nodded at Yan Fengqi.

"Come in, then. ”

Trusting his son very much, Yan Fenglizheng, who turned around, didn't notice that Yan Fengqili's eyes were flashing with a strange light.

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"Are you bored with your own emptiness, are you incomprehensible to the actions of others because you have no feelings, are you tired of this boring world?"

The young man with a gentle temperament but evil as a demon smiled, and stretched out his hands to himself like a sage in preaching.

"You can do everything well because of your emptiness, but at the same time, you can't do everything best because of your emptiness. If you, who have tried countless methods but have never been able to feel the joy of being human, would you be interested in hearing about how to achieve happiness and joy in life?"

The smile on the boy's lips seemed to turn strange, and he narrowed his eyes and looked at me carefully.

"The trade-off, of course, is that you will be on the exact opposite path to what you have taken before, a"

"Twisted Path. ”

"Twisted Path"

He's right, I've tried countless methods, but I've never filled the void in my heart.

If you can experience pain or pleasure that you have never tasted before, there is nothing you can't give up, right?

This feeling of emptiness and dazedness has been entangled in my whole life, although it doesn't matter if I continue to be so empty, but if I can, I still want to taste something else.

"But why should I listen to you? Go and find Emiya Kiritsugu, the man like me, who should be able to get the answer, right?"

That's right, no matter how nice he says, he is still an enemy.

What the enemy wants you to do, you'd better not do.

The expression on the young man's face instantly became extremely exciting, but it was not like anger or helplessness that had been debunked, but rather a mockery mixed with malice.

"Kiritsugu Emiya, like you?"

"Hahahahahaha!!!ha

Berserker crouched on the ground with his stomach clutched, tears of laughter coming out. This obviously exaggerated look seemed to mock me, meaningless, like a clown, and I was not ashamed of what others thought.

"Is there something wrong?"

What's wrong? The wild dog galloping on the battlefield, killing without purpose, no matter how you look at it, he should be as confused and empty as me.

Berserker stood up, wiped his tears, and looked at me with pity.

"It's pitiful, Yan Fengqili. You would think that someone who is completely opposite to you is the same kind of person?"

"Emiya Kiritsugu, that man, but with such a great ideal in mind, he endured the pain in his heart and killed with those holy hands. You don't think he became a magician killer because of his inner confusion, do you?"

It was as if a flame was burning in my heart, as if there was a large amount of sulfuric acid churning in my stomach, and an indescribable feeling came from my body, driving me to punch the wall hard, but there was nothing abnormal in my body, what was this?

As if seeing through what I was thinking at the moment, the young man patted me on the shoulder, his face sincere.

"This is anger, you think you have found a companion, but he turns out to be the complete opposite of you, this is your anger at this. ”

"Angry?"

Chewing on this word that I have heard countless times, this is the first time I have truly tasted the taste of "anger".

"Is this anger?"

It's hard to finally feel the feeling of emptiness. In comparison, the emptiness that once filled my heart was as tasteless as boiled water.

"Yes, that's anger. But if you want to be alive, you have to sacrifice something. How dare you give up everything you once had?"

"Why don't you dare?"

What can't be given up for the sake of this wonderful relationship?

"That's good. Next, you need to kill—"

The corners of Berserker's mouth teared open as if they were torn, revealing a hideous smile.

"Yan Feng Lizheng. ”

"Why? Why kill him?"

Unable to understand what good it would be to kill the overseer of the church?

"Because if you kill him, you will get a different kind of 'joy' than 'anger', and that's the emotion that is far above it."

As if sighing for something, the boy narrowed his eyes and smiled gently.

"Good. ”

After a long time, the priest, who pursued the joy of life, nodded, and his expression remained the same.

It's just killing Lizheng, it's too easy.

"Remember, don't give him any chance, decapitate with one blow. ”

Berserker, who was about to turn away, turned to me as if he remembered something.

"Why is that?"

I can't understand that this Berserker's behavior and demands are too bizarre.

"In order for him to die with the last hope in his heart, that stupid old thing, but he always thought his son was a saint. ”

"As a son of man, let your father die with ridiculous satisfaction, even if it is your last mercy"

Berserker turned into countless blood-red points of light and drifted away, leaving only the last words here.

"The last mercy?"

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The new dog and scissors let me know that I don't live as well as a dog, and the old speed up the sling wire lets me know that I don't live as well as a pig.

Damn! Lao Tzu's live pigs and dogs are not as good!