My hands are shaking, my heart is trembling, I try my best to suppress my inner emotions, but the more I suppress it, the more fierce the rebound becomes!

Like a black wave that knocked me down in the vast sea, I wanted to struggle but fell into a huge whirlpool, swallowing me up in endless darkness little by little......

Every time I measure the steps under my feet, I feel strange, unprecedentedly strange, as if I have never walked the steps in my life...... I think I've never been on such a difficult journey.

Before I knew it, my mind was full of memories, all memories of the past...... But at this moment, it is destined to become a memory, but the person in my memory has been engraved in my bones, which is unforgettable!

All the beauty and emotions in my heart have been ruthlessly shattered by reality, but I don't complain, if I want to blame, I blame myself for choosing this road of no return......

At this moment, I finally understand why the second uncle has always refused to start a family, because some people are destined to not survive the long night, some things are destined to be taken care of, and some feelings are destined to lose to time.

I think I should be happy for Sixteen at the moment, at least she won't be alone, at least someone will be by her side to give her a peaceful life, at least someone will bring her a bowl of chicken soup when she is sick......

Before I knew it, I felt really embarrassed, even more embarrassed than a dog...... Just because of a selfishness and greed in my heart, just because of my unrealistic wishful thinking!

I can only blame myself for everything, I don't regret returning to Shenyang, it would be a good thing for me to recognize myself earlier...... But the pain in my heart could not be suppressed.

Brother Yu's words to me kept coming to mind, I thought that Sixteen's choice should be correct, I think I should be happy with the current result, but I can't be happy......

No matter how much I know about human hearts and human nature, I still can't escape this invisible shackle on myself, locking me in the cage of my heart little by little.

Smoking cigarette after cigarette, at the moment I hope that there are more steps in front of me, and I hope that this road is not too fast, because I want to have more time for myself to accept reality.

Time is really an invisible sculpture knife, not only changing people's lives but also shaping people's hearts, maybe everything in this world will really change, including feelings and people's hearts.

Suddenly I felt for a ball of paper in my pocket, and I remembered that it was a trick from the dumb man who told me to open it when I was in a desperate situation, but now I felt that it had lost its original meaning.

When I am really in a desperate situation, nothing can change, and I don't want to use my selfishness to change, because I know what is good for Sixteen!

If I can't give her companionship and care, how can I talk about love? If I can't give her a stable place and can't give her a harbor, how can I talk about being with her for a lifetime?

Suddenly I felt a pain in my heart, a feeling of suffocation made my whole body curl up, and the stinging pain made me immediately break out in a cold sweat, I didn't expect that excessive sadness would cause heartache It turned out to be true!

"Ahh

I fell down the stairs as soon as my feet were soft, and I didn't know how bad it hurt after a few rolls, and I felt like I might die here......

I fell heavily on the ground, but the tingling sensation in my chest disappeared!

I lay on the ground and breathed in the fresh air, my hands on my chest and felt my long-lost heartbeat, I didn't dare to have any more thoughts and waves, I just wanted to calm myself down as soon as possible.

I could hear the sounds around me, but no one was walking up the fire staircase, and I think everyone was crowded in front of the elevator, and everyone wanted to squeeze into the bridge......

Nothing is more important than air at this moment, nothing is more important than being alive, I think fate didn't take my life at this moment, then it must be let me live!

After a while, I called the GI, I don't know what floor I am on, but I desperately want someone to come and accompany me, I'm afraid that something will go wrong with one person!

Soon the GI appeared panting, and his eyes immediately turned red when he saw him!

"You, what's wrong with you, get up!" he came up and pulled me up and carefully examined my whole body.

"I'm fine, it's just a little stuffy in my chest. "I took out a cigarette and lit it, took a deep breath and felt that air was more precious than anything else!

"Did they do anything to you? I'm going to kill them!" the soldier was about to leave, and I immediately grabbed his arm.

"No! I accidentally fell, let's go!"

"Where are you going?"

"Go back to Wenzhou. I said this calmly, and the calm at the moment surprised me, but the feeling in my heart had been forcibly withdrawn from my body, as if my soul had also been taken away!

"What the hell is going on? Don't scare me! Why don't I know you anymore? Why did your eyes become like this? Where did I know Xiong Sanming before?"

The GI kept shaking my shoulders, and I could see his anxiety and worry, but I just wanted to take a big breath of air.

"GI, I'm fine, I'm really fine...... Woo!"

I hugged the soldier's shoulder and cried, I could no longer hold back the emotions in my heart, and the discomfort in my heart could not be spoken, I could only turn into tears.

I know I'm crying badly, I know I'm crying like a, but I don't care at this moment, I just want to cry and cry all my emotions......

"What the hell! What the hell is going on? Are they bullying you? I'll get justice for you!"

"No! don't go...... I'm really fine!Preserve the last shred of dignity for me, please!" I grabbed the GI's arm and didn't let go, and he began to cry in anger.

"Don't do this, you're making me feel bad like this!" the GI grabbed my shoulders hard, and I could feel the fervor in his chest.

"Don't worry, I'm fine, I just fell and hurt. I wiped my tears and helped him to his feet, taking a deep breath and bounce the dust off his body.

I know that I am still the fearless Xiong Sanming, I know that I still have an unfinished mission, since I have chosen this path, then even if I kneel, I will go on!

"Let's go!"

"Are you really going back to Wenzhou? What's going on? How long have you been here?" the soldier looked at me suspiciously, his eyes full of worry.

"It doesn't matter how long you've been here, peace of mind matters!" I think I've accepted this fact, no matter how painful it is!

"What the hell is going on? Don't scare me! You look ......."

"I'm really fine, let's go eat and drink, and book a ticket back to Wenzhou as soon as possible...... Others are still waiting for us. ”

I slapped my face to get myself back to normal, no matter what the feelings in my heart were, I don't want to have a third time when I feel like I'm having a myocardial infarction just now!

That feeling of suffocation is really terrifying, it's the taste of touching the edge of death, making people feel so close to the ghost gate, as if there is an invisible hand dragging people into the abyss!

"Okay, but don't hold it to yourself if you have something!"

"Don't worry!" After saying that, I suddenly saw a paper ball on the ground, and the paper ball that the dumb man gave me was right in front of me, and I thought that I was really not afraid of anything at this moment.

I can accept the concern and feelings in my heart calmly, but what else can I not accept? No matter how painful I taste, what can make me feel fear except death?

I picked up the paper ball and looked at it, even though there was only one sentence on it...... But I understand why dumb people make me open again when I am cornered, but this sentence doesn't matter to me anymore!

"Never give up on the last shred of hope...... Who wrote this to you?" the GI read aloud with a glance, and I casually threw the paper ball away.

"It doesn't matter who gave it to me, if you want to have it, you must first understand how to accept the truth of loss, the most important thing is to be!" At this moment, I remembered the words of the Buddha and the old monster, but I didn't expect this truth to make people so uncomfortable!

But even if I am given a chance to fight for it at this moment, I will not disturb Sixteen's peaceful life, because I know that there are some things I can't give......

I understood what was good and what was right, and I understood what was right, and this time I used reason to overcome emotion......

I took a deep breath and looked out the window at the sky, and it was like a new life!

Striding out of the hospital fire staircase, I am still the fearless Xiong Sanming...... In my heart, I sincerely wish her!