Chapter 204: Conquer the Goddess
After hearing Qin Yi's words, Xia Yuxin suddenly became very uneasy, her hands were clutched on her laps, her eyes were evasive, and she asked worriedly: "Sure enough, Xiaoyi, do you think it's my problem? Is it that I'm too rigid about the idea of only falling in love once and getting married once?"
"No, that's a good idea, it's fine. But on your own side, there may be some questions. Qin Yi smiled, but at this time, there were more and more guests around, and it was difficult for them to talk well, so Qin Yi smiled at Xia Yuxin: "Why don't we eat first, and find a quiet place to talk after eating?"
"Hmm......" Xia Yuxin nodded worriedly, but it didn't seem to have much appetite anymore.
Seeing this, Qin Yi sighed helplessly, lowered his voice and said softly: "Yuxin, it's nothing. Everyone is left with psychological trauma because of the shadow of childhood, which has a certain impact on life. But it's not your fault, okay?"
"But...... If it's my reason, those people before, didn't I hurt them?" Xia Yuxin was unusually low and negative, and Qin Yi estimated that he would not be able to eat this meal, so he sighed.
"You...... Are you going to my house?" Qin Yi smiled and asked, "We can have a good talk, and then maybe I can cook you something delicious when you're in a better mood." ”
Xia Yuxin was a little hesitant, but after thinking about it, she nodded. So, halfway through the meal, the two of them paid the bill, and then drove to Qin Yi's apartment. In fact, if it were normal times, Xia Yuxin would definitely not agree to go to the house of a man who had just met for a short time, but at this time, Xia Yuxin had obviously fallen into a complete downturn.
"Okay, sit down for a while, and I'll make you a cup of hot chocolate. Qin Yi said softly.
"No need...... That heat is too high. Xia Yuxin shook her head.
"Listen to me, that one will make you better. Qin Yi said with a smile, and Xia Yuxin fell silent when she heard this.
made a cup of hot chocolate for Xia Yuxin, and then took some snacks, and then sat down opposite Xia Yuxin. Looking at her depressed appearance, Qin Yi sighed: "I'm sorry, in fact, I didn't expect it to become like this." ”
"Xiaoyi, tell me honestly, is it wrong for me to do this?" Xia Yuxin asked unwillingly.
"Do you want to talk about deeds? I don't think you're doing anything wrong. Qin Yi smiled and stuffed the hot chocolate into her hand, "You want to fall in love once and get married once, so you want to be more careful in choosing your partner, which is good." Your decision is right, those people really didn't pass your test, then it's not worth your trust......"
Hearing this, Xia Yuxin seemed a little puzzled: "That...... You mean I didn't actually do anything wrong, so why did you ask me afterwards, what's the root problem, so it's not me?"
"Yes, there is nothing wrong with your actions, but the point is after that. Qin Yi clasped his hands together and smiled, "If there is someone who has been waiting for you, withstood the test of time, withstood the temptation of beauty, and finally got your approval, will you choose to believe in him completely in the next few decades?
"This ......" Xia Yuxin hesitated, and Qin Yi continued: "You haven't thought about what happened after this, right? What's more, it's not something you can say if you believe it." He may have been worthy of your trust at the time, but will he remain the same for decades to come? And even if he will, will you remain the same? No one knows what will happen in the future. ”
"Hmm......" Xia Yuxin bit her lower lip and didn't know how to answer, Qin Yi smiled: "Yes, even after being together, you won't feel safe, you will always doubt and worry about when he will leave you, and then give him more tests." And people will always show flaws, and then he will be declared out. ”
Xia Yuxin asked tentatively: "That...... You mean, I should give the man a little more chance?"
"No, I mean to say," Qin Yi said, his expression became serious, "Your parents' divorce has a much more serious impact on you than you imagined, and you haven't realized it yet. That's what I want to tell you about. ”
"Hmm......" Xia Yuxin suddenly fell into deep thought, and Qin Yi said softly: "Actually, love is originally an act of gambling. The future is unknown, and everyone is gambling on their future happiness. Some people win, while others lose. What if you fail? ”
Xia Yuxin frowned and said, "That'...... Do you really mean that I should try a few more times? The idea of only falling in love once, getting married only once, is it really not going to work for you?"
"Oh, about this. Qin Yi smiled, "I think you can choose carefully according to your current thoughts, I hope you can only fall in love once and get married once in this life, but you also have to be mentally prepared for failure, and even if you fail, you don't need to be frustrated, just try again." But that aside......"
Qin Yi's tone became more and more softened: "When your parents divorced, you were very sad, right?"
Xia Yuxin nodded, lowered her head and took a sip of hot chocolate: "It was my mother who filed for divorce, and my father is really a very good person...... Although he is not very handsome, he is very honest and loyal, and he is also very kind, and he loves my mother very much. So when my mother left, he broke down, started drinking heavily, and his temper became very bad......"
Qin Yi listened quietly to her for a while, and asked, "I dare to say, you must look very similar to your mother? She is also as beautiful as you, so your father will think of your mother when he sees you?"
Xia Yuxin frowned slightly, and nodded sadly: "But I don't know how to comfort my father...... He used to be a very prestigious executive, but after that, he fell into depression because of the blow of this incident, and was later fired, and now he plays cards all day, just living on the living expenses I give him every month. I really feel bad when I look at him. ”
"Do you feel guilty?" Qin Yi asked gently, "Do you feel that you are also at fault, and you have to take responsibility?" Because you look very similar to your mother, you feel that your father's life was ruined by your mother, and you are also at fault? So even though your father did not fulfill any fatherly responsibilities to you, you still did not blame him, but instead transferred living expenses to him every month?"
"I want to ...... Yes, right. Xia Yuxin bit her lower lip and said, "I feel very guilty......
"How long has it been since you visited your father?" Qin Yi asked patiently, "I've thought about it for a long time, right? You felt that you looked too much like your mother, and you were afraid of evoking your father's memories, so you chose not to see him as much as possible, and only contacted him by letter or phone?"
Xia Yuxin nodded, and Qin Yi sighed and said, "I roughly know." ”
After being silent for a while, Qin Yi asked again: "Have you ever thought that your evaluation of the boy who is 'closest to your boyfriend' is somewhat similar to your father? Perhaps, you don't really like that boy, but because you see your father's shadow in him, so you want to atone for your sins? You will be sad, also because you have not been redeemed?"
"Alas......" Xia Yuxin twisted her face and said in a sad whisper: "Why do you know everything?"
"Because you're also an ordinary girl. Qin Yi couldn't help but laugh, "Your thinking can't escape the category of ordinary people, so I can naturally speculate." ”
"What should I do, Xiaoyi?" Xia Yuxin asked with some despair as she covered her head. Qin Yi came to her from opposite Xia Yuxin, "First of all, you must realize that your father's divorce is not your fault, and you don't need to take any responsibility for it, let alone lose your life for it." Huh?"
Xia Yuxin nodded hesitantly, and Qin Yi continued: "In addition, you have indeed made some mistakes over the years. What your father needs is companionship, enlightenment, and persuasion, not your escape. Have you ever thought that you didn't go to see your father not to avoid reminding him of your mother, but to feel better in your own heart?"
"That's right, I'm mean, right?" Xia Yuxin said with a long sigh, Qin Yi smiled, patted her on the shoulder, and made her look at herself: "Look, we have to do this next." First of all, you have to give up your guilt and live your life well and positively, so that you can be worthy of yourself. Then, we will go to your father together. Solve your father's problems, and everyone will be happy. Your father can look forward, and you can stop feeling guilty and live your life well. ”
"But ......" Xia Yuxin looked very uneasy, but Qin Yi was very relaxed: "Don't worry, didn't you also say it, I know everything? I can solve your problem, and I will naturally be able to solve your father's problem." Are you going to believe me?"
Xia Yuxin was a little hesitant, she secretly looked at Qin Yi, and Qin Yi smiled and said: "This is the gambling I said before, do you want to gamble for your happiness and choose to believe me?"
Xia Yuxin barely squeezed out a smile and nodded: "Hmm...... I believe you. ”
"Yes, thank you for your trust. Qin Yi said with a smile, then raised his hand and said, "Drink the chocolate, sugar and theobromine can make your brain secrete and make you feel happy." ”
Xia Yuxin obediently lowered her head and took a sip of chocolate, looked at Qin Yi, and the eyes of the two met, and then Xia Yuxin quickly shifted her gaze, and asked with a little blush: "That, Xiaoyi...... What do you think of me?"
"Didn't I say it? It's not your fault. Qin Yi asked puzzledly, "You and your father are just sick." ”
"I didn't mean that ......," Xia Yuxin frowned slightly, "I mean...... On the male and female side. You said you went on a blind date with me, because you really want to continue to develop with me, or do you just want to help me with psychotherapy?"
"Me?" Qin Yi thought for a moment and said seriously, "You are one of the rare girls I have ever met who can make me react physically and psychologically." ”
Xia Yuxin covered her mouth in some surprise: "Both physically and psychologically...... React?"
"yes, you must have had a similar experience. Qin Yi smiled, "Some people have interesting souls that can make you psychologically feel that you like this person and want to be with him, while some people have the appearance and figure that you love at first sight, which makes you want to have a physical relationship with him when you see it." Actually, it's rare to have both. ”
Speaking of this, Qin Yi nodded: "So, you ask me how I feel about you, I think I seriously want to develop with you." Psychotherapy may have been an accident, but it can only be said that it was my occupational disease. I didn't want to ruin the date at first. ”
"It's not ruined!" Xia Yuxin hurriedly explained, then played with her sideburns and whispered, "Actually, I feel a lot better now...... It felt as if the stone that had been pressing on my heart for many years had been put down. ”
"Communication and communication are very important, and a lot of times people just need to talk about it. Qin Yi smiled and said.
Xia Yuxin nodded, then her face turned red again, and she said a little shyly, "So...... You...... Am I going to make you want to have a physical relationship with me?"
"That's right. Qin Yi said frankly, and then explained, "Of course not now, these will naturally have to wait until they become a couple." After being silent for a while, Qin Yi looked at the cup in her hand and said, "You can also drink and eat the food and drink I gave you with confidence, I won't take medicine." ”
"I didn't think so...... Xia Yuxin took a sip of hot chocolate and said in a low voice, with a faint smile on her face, "That...... Do you think when would it be more appropriate for two people to have a relationship if they were dating?"
"It's only interesting if you and I want to, so it depends on the opinions of both sides, not unilaterally. Qin Yi smiled and said, "If both parties have no opinion, it's okay to have physical contact after marriage." ”
"Won't you be able to help it? The two of them are already lovers, even if they are intimate, it is normal, but they have to be patient?
Qin Yi couldn't help but laugh, "Oh, actually, I have a simple way to deal with my desires. Of course, not with other women, but with a little trick in psychology, similar to self-hypnosis......"
After a pause, Qin Yi suddenly changed his tone and smiled: "I still don't want to tell you the details." ”
Xia Yuxin suddenly covered her mouth and laughed, she paused, then looked at Qin Yi and asked with a smile, "Xiaoyi, are you...... Would you like to try dating me first?"
Qin Yi looked a little surprised, Xia Yuxin pursed her lips and smiled: "I think...... Betting on you seems to have a big chance of winning. ”