When people get serious, time always flies, and in a blink of an eye, Han Mo and I are already in the fifth year, and Yao Jingshan and several others have also graduated and found jobs.

Hospital internships are not busy, and most of us are preparing for graduate school entrance examinations, making the most of each day, and we are almost forgetting what the outside world is like. Until one day, Cheng Muhui's brother-in-law came to the hospital to look for me, he was still holding a black leather bag, but his face was full of tiredness: "Xixi, have you seen Muhui in the past few days?"

"No, I haven't seen him for two months, what's wrong with him?" I was still very worried, after all, there was a not very pleasant thing that happened when he graduated.

That day, Cheng Muhui and they wanted to take a graduation portrait, and I, as Ye Qianxue's roommate and Cheng Muhui's friend, was very excited to pull Han Mo to congratulate them and take a group photo. But Cheng Muhui's face was not good-looking that day, I was a little strange, and I couldn't help asking: "Cheng Muhui, what's wrong with you? "I have to say that sometimes a woman's intuition is really accurate, but unfortunately I easily ignore it because of my nerves.

He smiled and didn't say anything, and while exposing his dimples, he put his arm around my shoulder to take a picture, and I believed it and didn't ask any more questions. In the evening, Yao Jingshan and several people encouraged Cheng Muhui to invite guests as a farewell banquet, and he readily agreed. Su Yimei was extremely excited, and before leaving, she chose clothes and makeup, which made me cry and laugh.

There weren't many people, except for the five people in our dormitory and Cheng Muhui, there were three of his roommates. At first, everyone was relatively reserved, but when the beer was served, the atmosphere gradually became lively. Later, at the suggestion of Yao Jingshan and Su Yimei, the game session was held, but I have been poured alcohol in the game black hole, Cheng Muhui seemed to be unable to stand it, picked up the beer on the table and said: "Yuexi can't drink anymore, so let's blow this bottle of beer and let her quit the game." ”

I was a little unhappy when I heard it, so I drank the wine in the cup in one gulp and said drunkly: "No, I can, today is your graduation day, don't worry so much, I dare to drink if I dare to lose." Cheng Muhui wanted to say something more, but was stopped by the noise of his roommate.

Until finally, I was so drunk that I couldn't hold it anymore, so I staggered to my feet and said, "I'm sorry guys, I really can't do it anymore, you guys play, I'll go back first." ”

Han Mo hurriedly helped me and said, "I'll send you back, anyway, I've eaten almost enough." ”

I nodded and was about to turn around and leave, but I heard Cheng Muhui's voice in a daze: "I'll send it, my brother-in-law asked me to find him at this time, you can have fun with them." ”

My memory is intermittent, and when I wake up, I am already on Cheng Muhui's back, unlike that skinny back, this time it seems much thicker. I was a little embarrassed and asked softly, "Cheng Muhui, let me down, I'm drunk." ”

"Really drunk?"

"Well, wake up. ”

Cheng Muhui put me on a chair on the side of the road, and I realized that this road was not the road to the school. I hurriedly asked, "Where is this going? Isn't it sending me back to school?"

"Take you to sober up, how can a boy enter the girls' dormitory. You're okay, you can't drink and you have to be a hero, and in the end you still turn into a bear like last time. Cheng Muhui sat beside me and wiped the sweat from his forehead, and said with a frown.

"Wouldn't it be too upset if I didn't drink it? You've been like you've had something on your mind all year, so let's laugh a little more today, what's going on. ”

Cheng Muhui lowered his head and said nothing, so anxious that I held up his face and asked seriously: "What can you tell me, don't be like a girl, mother-in-law, and I won't tell others." ”

There seemed to be a light in Cheng Muhui's eyes, and he looked at me like a helpless child, which made my heart stagger. His lips opened slightly, and finally he spoke, "Hey, if I don't have anyone to ask for me, will you take me in?"

Without the slightest hesitation, I replied, "Yes, I will always be with you." But when I had said that, I felt a little weak, for I knew that it would not be true, but I did not say it without a second thought, and I expected that this dream would be shattered in the near future, and that it would be a white lie.

But I didn't expect him to say something that surprised me even more: "Xixi, you can be my girlfriend so that we won't be separated." ”

I instantly felt like I had been pointed, my mind went blank, and the alcohol was completely gone. I don't know how long it took, Xu is face and I got too close to Cheng Muhui just now, and he actually kissed him, and it took me a long time to react. After standing up immediately, he slapped Cheng Muhui, both of us were stunned, I could feel my face starting to get hot, but I couldn't get angry in my heart, pointed at Cheng Muhui and said, "It's too much, how can you ...... Hmph, it's better not to see you again in the future. ”

After saying that, I turned my head and left, in order to forget the events of that night, I desperately threw myself into the ocean of knowledge, and stayed up late every day until I couldn't open my eyelids before falling asleep, Han Mo thought I was crazy, but I had suffering, for nearly a month, I lived a life like a panda.

Cheng Muhui's brother-in-law and I planned to separate and look for a possible place again, I looked for the school, he looked for the outside school, and agreed to meet at the gate of the hospital at six o'clock in the afternoon.

The playground was the first place I looked for, and before graduation, Cheng Muhui and I walked here together, followed by the tree-lined paths, the cafeteria, the lake, the library, and ...... I didn't expect that I had been to so many places with Cheng Muhui, but there was no shadow of Cheng Muhui here, I became more and more anxious, and I felt that tears began to pour out somewhere in my heart, which made me very uncomfortable.

By the way, on the roof of the abandoned building, Cheng Muhui and I first met there, although I have only been there once, he said that it is his secret base. I didn't have time to wipe my sweat and ran downstairs, the rusty iron fence was still there, I hadn't been here for a long time, looking at the top of the building, I seemed to be able to feel Cheng Muhui's presence. Excited, I ran to the top of the building, the door was open, but I was nervous.

When I opened the door, I saw Cheng Muhui lying on the bench, with some green stubble and hair messily sleeping, and there were many wine bottles and paper balls scattered on the ground. I stared at his haggard face and walked over without wanting to kick the bottle, and he squinted to see that it was me who went back to sleep, but just turned his head and said, "What are you doing here?"

"What am I doing here? Cheng Muhui, are you embarrassed to say it? Look at your current appearance, you ......"

Cheng Muhui sat up suddenly, Xu drank a lot, he held his head and said angrily: "My parents don't care about me, why do you say me? What's wrong with me, what's wrong with me......

I softened my heart all of a sudden, but after thinking about it, I felt that maybe all this was because he was spoiled, so I crossed my heart: "Cheng Muhui, what's wrong with you, look at your current appearance, you don't look like a ghost or a ghost, you cry at every turn, have you graduated from college, okay? Can you be more mature, can you take on a little responsibility, can you not always let others worry about you, who can like you like you?"

As soon as I finished speaking, I regretted it, and when I thought about what happened that night, my last sentence seemed to be pointed. After a while he seemed to be back to normal, stood up and stared at me and said, "My parents are divorced, divorced, I am an orphan." I don't understand why they are doing this, why? And you have to leave me, you have to abandon me, right? Actually, I understand, it's not that I can't understand your thoughts, you just treat me as a friend, you can get rid of me if you want to, there will be no nostalgia, right? But you know what? Every time you smile at me, whether you hold my hand, whether you are on my back, I am very happy. He paused and continued, "No one will understand the feelings I have suppressed all this year, and no one will like me, and I am fine the way I am now." His rather self-deprecating tone made me feel depressed.

At that moment, countless pictures came to my mind, and before I knew it, my eyes were full of tears, I don't remember when I hugged Cheng Muhui, maybe it confirms the saying: Sometimes, the body is more honest than the heart. Listening to his heartbeat, I was even more in a trance, and couldn't help but say: "Cheng Muhui, be my boyfriend, I'll accompany you to cheer up." ”

After a long time, Cheng Muhui hugged me tightly and said softly in my ear, "You can't regret it." "This is the first time I feel that my heart is warm, and it is also filled, as for what I filled, now I think about it should be happiness and happiness.

I have never experienced this feeling in Ruan Ming, and slowly I realized that my feelings for Ruan Ming are more like family affection, more dependence, less touching. The oath has long been forgotten by me, and it is because of this that this decision will become a painful thing for me in the future.