I can understand some truths, some things I can understand, but this sentence written to me by the dumb man made me fall into deep thought, and I felt more flustered than ever!

"Long Ze, it's hard to imagine what you've been through. "I feel from the bottom of my heart, to be honest, I'm getting more and more fascinated by him, but I'm also getting more and more wary!

The person who can see through my essence at a glance is definitely not a simple person!

With such a powerful person around me as a helper, I really have no bottom in my heart, I can't control it, I can't predict it, and I don't even have a handle in my hands...... It may not be much to me, but only God knows how much it means to him......

Just the words that the dumb man just traded to me made me even more convinced that I was right...... I am indeed inferior to him! I should let him take my place, he definitely has the strength to become the controller in the old thousand regiments!

Because what he said was a thousand times more ruthless than that of the second uncle! But it poked at the weakness of my heart and the thing I didn't want to mention the most.

"Who do you live for? Family affection is fiercer than a tiger, and one day you will be burdened by family affection......"

I think the dumb man should be able to see my current state of mind, and can also see through all my helplessness and choices, his eyes are like a sharp knife, instantly piercing my heart!

Just like most people who are muddled and live a constant life every day, I never thought about my own life...... It's more like living for the second uncle.

I knew that as long as I was in the rivers and lakes for a day, I would be in danger of being dragged down, but I was always willing......

Because the second uncle has an irreplaceable affection for me, and he pours all his heart and soul into me, but I seem to be living for the second uncle, even if I am unwilling to apply the relationship between using and being used, but the reality is always so cold and ruthless!

From my own point of view, is this really what I want? Is it really for myself to live all this? No......

His words are always plain but extremely sharp, like a sharp scalpel, which can easily poke people into the heart!

I think the dumb man wanted to remind me after seeing through it, or it was an ordinary piece of advice, a piece of advice that he summed up with his life!

A worthless nonsense in the eyes of others, but it completely pierced my heart, making me have to think about who I live for and what I do for......

"I have to say that you are very powerful, I admire you!" I took out a cigarette and handed it over, feeling like I had knocked over a five-flavor bottle!

He took the cigarette and didn't speak, but I can remember the look in his eyes, no one has ever given me such advice before except my second uncle, and no one has mentioned such a thing.

All my persistence and belief once collapsed in an instant, this is the power of one sentence, and it is also the power to face people's hearts!

I know that from this moment on, I have to live for myself, because I still have so many people to love, so many unfinished things, and so many unknown worlds waiting for me to explore!

Finding myself and being self-centered, I think the second uncle would also like to see me like this, but he is not destined to give me such advice.

I remember that on the operating table facing life and death, I encouraged myself again and again, and told myself again and again that I could not give up, that time was the real self, that was the real life for myself!

Everything turned into a surging emotion, which instantly swallowed my heart, and the phrase self-centeredness couldn't be simpler, but it made me completely collapse at this moment!

I asked the mute to go to a room to rest, lit a cigarette alone and quietly let my feelings swallow me, gently groped for the omega on my wrist, and willingly fell into the endless abyss of thought.

There are too many emotional entanglements in this abyss, too much ruthlessness and coldness, and there is also a sense of innocence and kindness, and I seem to see several different mes......

Everyone in front of me is me, and they all look exactly like me, but the expressions and eyes on their faces are different......

I know that each of them is a demon hidden in my heart, they are arguing with each other and trying to take over my body, they all want to control my consciousness and thinking, greed and obsession are constantly at work.

One voice told me, "Enough has been done now, it's time to give up the thoughts and vows you once had and start living for yourself!"

Another voice told me: "The world of rivers and lakes is cold and ruthless, you must be more cold-blooded and ruthless than others, and always keep mercy to yourself!"

I calmly looked at the two of myself in front of me, what they said did make sense, but there was also a me with clear eyes next to me, and I could see kindness and simplicity on this face.

"Xiong Sanming, don't forget the persistence and principles in your heart, and don't forget the love, hatred and affection, which is a lifetime of affection. ”

I don't know when the cigarette in my hand has burned out, and in the abyss of my heart, I watched a few bears in front of me fight together, each of them wants to control everything!

This time I was not standing at a crossroads in my life, but in choosing who became my own choice...... It's a really hard choice, and you have to give up as long as you make a choice.

The love and kindness of the past, the love and hate and memories of the past, and the cold-bloodedness and kindness and innocence, all qualities are forcing me to make a choice, like a single choice question.

I saw the innocent and kind me I used to be, I saw the cold and ruthless me, and I was full of greed and obsession...... Finally, I was hiding in a corner, my whole body bound by black chains.

Seeing that he was already overwhelmed, I knew that these shackles and chains represented love and vows, how to break free from this shackles, how to be self-centered, everything was waiting for me to make my own choice.

Time passed slowly, standing in the depths of my heart I wandered again and again, hesitation made me unable to make a choice, I knew in my heart that I could not remove this shackle that can never be self-centered, but to remove this shackle is so ruthless.

Everything that used to be my second uncle flashed in front of my eyes, and without my second uncle, I wouldn't be where I am today! The Morse silent code that the dumb man gave me in a trance in front of my eyes, what he gave me was correct, but this choice was really difficult to make......

When I hesitated and couldn't make a choice, I suddenly felt like someone was filming me, and I suddenly woke up from my sleep!

Before I knew it, the sky was already bright, but it was a gray light, and the whole person was already soaked with cold sweat, and the big person in front of him was a soldier.

"Are you alright?" I thought you were talking in your dreams, could it be an evil spirit?" he reached out and touched my forehead, and I waved my hand to indicate that it was okay.

In fact, the words that the dumb man gave me pierced into my heart like an evil Gu, making me struggle but difficult to make a choice.

"Seeing that you are so weak, do you want to rest for two more days?" the soldier looked at me uneasily, I knew I was fine.

"I'm fine, it's just a dream...... What am I muttering in my dreams?" I picked up a cigarette and lit it, a pick-me-up cigarette every day was essential.

"I muttered a lot of nonsense, what sixteen or seventeen, what second uncle's shackles anyway, it was like chanting scriptures, and I didn't stop all night. ”

I was very emotional when the soldier said this, I just fell into inner contemplation, but I didn't expect to struggle all night without being able to make a choice.

"It's okay, it's okay, get ready, let's go to Suzhou today, we can't live here for a day!" I know how powerful Changlemen is, and I know that time waits for no one, maybe the second uncle has already left!

"Okay......! Thank you, I received your money. The soldier squirmed, and it was rare to see him so embarrassed.

"What do you say, we are brothers who have sworn to the lamp, and you should take no less! Actually, I want to thank you. ”

Being able to accompany me from Shenyang to Henan overnight, to be able to accompany me into the dungeon, and to go to Changle Gate to pick me up, I remember all the feelings in my heart!

"As long as you can look down on me, I will do things with you! Men always have to create a world, and when they go back, they can brag to my comrades-in-arms!"

"Haha, no problem, it's just that I have a small request, I don't know if I can agree to it. "I changed my mind and had a plan in mind.

People don't die for themselves, and now that the old thousand regiments have such powerful people as mutes joining, I have to leave a way back for myself!