Outside the window, the clouds were thick, the wind was blowing, I sat on the balcony, and when the rain came as scheduled, I opened the window, trying to let the wind take away my thoughts, but the wind brought my familiar smell that afternoon, and threw me into deeper and deeper thoughts.

I don't know, I never felt like I missed her, but I didn't think I missed her all the time.

At three o'clock in the morning, someone sat at home and saw the begonia flowers blooming, and I was lying on the bed, tossing and turning, I never thought that aging would come so quickly, I knew that I would grow old, but I was not ready, it stretched out its claws. In the past six months, I often wake up in the early morning, staring at the ceiling, I can't sleep, when I turn over, I can always hear some strange sounds coming from the cracks in the bones, crisp and loud, making me flustered, but the doctor told me that this is nothing, just a little fear when the age of thirty comes, more friends to chat, more exercise will naturally disappear.

Where am I going to make friends, is it too late?

During the six months of panic, I have been working from home, and the only friend who came to me was my partner, who patted me on the shoulder and confidently said, "I understand your situation, in a few months, your birthday will be fine, isn't it just a matter of blowing out a candle?" Then he put down a bunch of materials and left.

I think I've been away from the crowd for too long, life is too boring, it's better to go out into the crowd and have fun with them, maybe smile and laugh and really have fun.

I walked to the mirror, although I was sad and frightened, but fortunately, the years did not take my face, it was still the same as many years ago. As long as I hide well enough and smile brightly, who would doubt that I'm a young man in my twenties.

I smiled in the mirror, I was hairy with laughter, I had sleeping pills in my hand, I wanted to take it, but my stomach happened to growl, let's have a meal before leaving.

I went down early in the morning to buy breakfast, the fritters in the breakfast shop have just been fried, crispy not like words, the sun has not yet appeared, the sky is only a little white, I sit in the store, a person eats breakfast, every morning the scene of hurried travel has not yet been staged, no one is standing next to the soy milk, drink it and leave, no one stands at the door and wants to ride the car in, shouting loudly to take a bun away, only me, a person sitting quietly eating fritters, watching the boss skillful buns, the boss may think I am sick, choose to come down at five o'clock in the morning to eat breakfast。

A piece of advertising paper at hand caught my attention, there was a bar that wanted to hire an owner, saying that it didn't matter whether he made money or not, just help him look at the shop for a few days and not wait for him to come back with dust, and there was enough time to spare, from 6 p.m. to 12 a.m.

The bar, this is a lively place, maybe I will be as youthful and energetic as those young people after a long time inside, and the inexplicable sorrow in my heart will disappear without a trace.

The newspaper was this morning's newspaper and had not yet been read, so I called as soon as it was dawn and he told me to read it.

The place mentioned on the phone is a famous chaotic area in the city, what urban villages, bar streets, Internet café streets, are all here. I walked into the bar street, he said that the store is in the innermost, and at the end is a storefront converted from a bungalow, so he sprayed two big words "bar" with paint, and behind it is the residential area, it seems that the owner really opened this shop for fun.

There is an old man sitting in it eating, with dark skin, wearing Tai Chi clothes, it seems that he has just come back from practice, drinking soy milk without hurry, his face is thin without a trace of meat, and his hand holding soy milk is also visible.

"Uncle," I shouted.

"Are you here, have you eaten?"

"Eat, I'm the one who called you. ”

"I know, I'll leave the train at noon, you can just show me the shop, and I'll teach you how to look at it later. ”

"What?" I was a little surprised, no, very surprised, he didn't ask anything, he said he would leave at noon, let me show him the shop, he didn't ask me any questions, wasn't he afraid that I would run away from his shop?

After my introduction, he started teaching me how to collect money and how to sell wine, and then left. I'm sitting in the store with my keys messy, am I out of society for too long and people are so sincere now?, or have I fallen for an elaborate scam?

He left like this, saying that he was going to the south for two months, and asked me to see the store for a few days. I looked around around the bar, although the door was very simple, the inside was still very decent, it was not a very noisy bar, there was no stage, just a bunch of sofas, tables, benches and a small turntable for friends to sit and chat.

He said that just call him Uncle Yan, the main thing is that in the past few days, there will be a Xiaoni in two days, and I will not be busy at that time, and there will be someone to talk to, but there is one, although I am the temporary store manager, but no matter what the girl does, she must not be fired if she comes back late from work and works less.

In the evening, I sat in the bar and worked, the work was very simple, scan the code to collect money, and then go to collect the wine bottles, so simple that my intestines were repentant. I swore to Uncle Yan that I would be worthy of his trust and run it well, but for a few hours, I kept repeating the same action, and the haha sound came from time to time in the crowd, I was going to go to the bar to see people get high, and then bring me vitality to be hi with them, but I didn't expect it to be such a bar, the people who came were basically chattering, and there were not many drinks sold, no different from being idle at home.

I sat at the bar counter, looking at the men and women who came to drink, and my heart was also resistant, these days, I saw a group of beautiful women, even a little dizzy, someone sat opposite me in a revealing dress, but I would rather hold my chin in a daze, than walk over to talk, what's wrong with me, this is not me a year ago, did I take some potion by scientific research institutions quietly as a guinea pig.

"Hey. ”

"What to drink?" a girl with a high ponytail snapped her fingers in front of my eyes, tilting her head and grinning at me.

"I'll go in. With that, she lifted the counter and walked in.

"Oh, you're the girl your uncle said. ”

"yes, why didn't he wait for me to come back and left. As she spoke, she skillfully opened the drawer underneath and found a work-alls to put on, and at that moment, I realized that there were work-clothes here.

"He's in a hurry, let me wait for you to come. ”

"I know, then you are my boss, brother, are you paying me a salary or a smoker?"

"I, I" I was about to ask her what her name was, and she came up and asked me who paid the salary, "What's your name?"

"Xia Xun, Xiao Xia Xiaoxun can be called as you like. She said with a rubber band in her mouth and her hair coiled into a small ball, looking very smart.

"It's summer, it's summer. ”

"It's okay, I just came here tonight, and I may have to go back early for a while, and my things are still sitting outside. ”

"Okay, what's the matter, can you help?"

"No, I just finished the exam today, and it's all dormitory stuff, just move by yourself." ”

"College entrance examination?" I know why Uncle Yan said that a little girl would come over in two days, and it turned out that she had just graduated.

"Yes, I just finished the exam today, and I'll be gone in a while. ”

There were three large boxes at the door, her bedding and books, and I was about to bend down to help her, but she stopped her, said she could do it, and then carried the boxes to the alley behind the bar, and came back a few minutes later to move them again.

Is her home right behind? It's a famous alley, and it's also a fireworks alley in the mouths of countless men, how does she live here? I can't describe how chaotic it is, but I've heard that I've been on the legal channel several times. The alley behind the alley is full of people, mixed with fish and dragons, I looked at the back of Xia walking into the alley, and I felt a little indescribable, it should be a pity, how did I live here, such a sunny and lovely girl.

When Xia came, she was still wearing a school uniform, combing a high ponytail, her face was slightly round, and her smile was warm, and she couldn't help laughing when I watched her laugh, with two deep dimples on both sides of her face, even if she didn't smile, her mouth could be revealed by picking it up, and her eyes were apricot eyes, round and big, and she squinted into a slit when she smiled. I thought, it's nice to have such a lovely girl working with me.