"Why don't you sleep. "I asked, only one of the sofas on the balcony was dismantled, and the other was still in the box and not taken out, the sofa was very small, and I gave half of it to Xia, Xia didn't sit, it was too hot, and it was cooler to sit on the floor.

"I don't sleep at night, I sleep during the day. ”

"You routine, night owl. ”

"That's right, drink tea on the street during the day, and light the lamp at night. ”

"What?" I asked.

"I said that I was shaking the street and drinking tea during the day, and lighting the lamp at night to make hemp. ”

I laughed, I don't know what to laugh at, but Natsu's words are just funny.

"Why don't you sleep?"

"I, like you, sleep during the day. "The reason for my insomnia is so hard to explain that I don't know why.

"Are you scared and can't sleep?" I asked Natsu.

"Huh?"

"You don't, don't you?"

"No, I study at night. Learn fast. ”

"Did you really learn?"

"Yes, I read a book. ”

"Then why are you so frightened when you listen to the movement that you quickly turn off the lights. I asked.

"Ahh Xia was obviously stunned by my direct question, and said, "Brother, you can talk so much this day, I can't speak." ”

"Defaulted. I turned to look at Xia, and she pursed her lips weakly.

"It's not. Xia wanted to find something to explain to herself.

"It's okay, I don't need to explain, when I can't speak, I just see that it's funny for you to talk, and I call you out to talk. ”

"I won't talk either. Natsu's tense shoulders slackened slightly.

"I think you had a good conversation. ”

"I really won't, anyway, I won't kowtow more. ”

"What?" I heard again, a playful remark.

"I don't know how to chat, how much kowtow. ”

I laughed, "I agree." ”

"Forget it, go back to sleep, I don't think so much about you, go to sleep. "I said to Xia seriously, I don't want her to spend the next few hours in fear, it's only two o'clock in the morning.

"It's okay, I can't sleep. ”

"I'm young, and I've lost some sleep. ”

"Brother, why do you have insomnia. ”

"It's hard to say, I haven't been able to sleep at night lately. I said.

"Are you sick?"

"No, I went to see it, and it's all good. ”

"Then why can't you sleep?" Xia said and called me to turn my head to look at her, Xia was really sleepy, her eyes were blank and a little drooping.

"Brother, have you lost your soul? ”

Xia's words made me tremble, "No, what age is it, what kind of soul has it lost." "I'm not very daring, especially in my melancholy nights, my thoughts have drifted to outer space, and I get goosebumps all over my body when Xia says this.

"Really, a lot of people lose their souls and can't sleep at night. ”

"Alright, alright, you go back to sleep. ”

"Brother, I'll show you when I go back, there is a fortune teller on the bridge, and he will cure. ”

"Aren't you still in school? "I wondered, Xia graduated from high school, not to mention how well he studied, this scientific literacy should still be there.

"It's not about going to school, sometimes it really works, science can't explain it. Natsu really relaxed completely, took a few steps forward, approached me, and explained excitedly.

"Okay, besides, you're not sleepy, go to sleep. ”

"It's okay, I can't sleep when I lie down. ”

"Is it because of what happened last night?" I really won't sneer, and I regretted it after asking, Xia was silent, not saying a word, and there was a little embarrassment in the air.

Natsu sat cross-legged on the floor, swallowing his saliva, still not speaking, and I asked, "Are you scared?"

"Nope. ”

"When I didn't ask, then you couldn't sleep because of the 10,000 yuan. ”

Xia still didn't speak, and shook his head.

"If you're short of money, I'll give it to you. ”

"No, why did you give it to me?" Xia asked me rhetorically.

"Didn't you say that it was your money to go to school, what if you don't have money to go to school?"

"There's always a way, and your money doesn't come from the wind. ”

"But I'm richer than you, and I can borrow you and pay me back. ”

"No, I have my own. Xia vetoed me in one sentence.

I don't know if it poked Xia's sore spot, Xia's words were rushed one by one, the speed of speech was fast, and each sentence was more anxious than the other.

"Did the man who stole your money give you the money?"

"Brother, it's a big night, you can't have this kind of dream if you don't sleep, he can still have the sun explode. ”

"Then you don't have any money. ”

"Earn, isn't it just for making money?"

"He stole your money, why didn't you call the police. I asked.

Xia became more and more relaxed, leaning against the wall, leaning on the edge of the sofa and chatting quietly with me.

"Brother, do you know who he is? just came out of it, how much I want to die, and if I get him in, I can't die like this. ”

"The next time you have money, don't hide it in the house, it's stolen again. ”

"Can you say something nice? My money can be stolen all the time. Xia looked back at me angrily, his face bulging like a balloon, and his face was full of air.

I quickly reached out and patted her to let her vent, "Don't be angry, I've said it, I won't squeak." ”

Xia leaned forward and dodged my hand, I quickly stretched out my hand back, Xia was angry and said, "Damn, I don't even know how he stole my money, I'm angry." The right to feed the dogs. After speaking, Xia exhaled.

Xia said that it was money she had saved for a long time, and it was originally her money to go to college, but she didn't expect to have to repeat her studies for another year, and in the end, the money was stolen. What about Xia's family, who saved up money to go to school by themselves? Is Xia studying well, why do you have to repeat her studies for another year, Xia is still in school, how can she earn so much money, and what is the use of the condoms that Xia bought in a big bag and a small bag that day? Why did a woman die in the barn last night, and why was Xia intimidated? I want to know, but I don't dare to ask Xia, Xia is silent when he encounters a question that he doesn't want to answer.

"Why didn't you take the comprehensive exam, why did you take the rest of the exams? ”

"Overslept. ”

"Overslept. I don't believe this answer.

"Yes. Xia nodded and said.

"Then you can do it. "Since Xia said that he has slept, then he has slept.

Xia and I have been sitting on the sofa talking, I rarely talk to people for hours, and now I can't remember what we talked about that day, but I am relieved, there is no unspeakable melancholy, no worry, no depression, nothing, just a simple chat.

Of course, Xia didn't fall asleep at night, she was scared, she didn't sleep all night, and in the end, she couldn't hold on, closed her eyelids, and fell asleep on the sofa at my feet, I didn't dare to touch her, she was very sensitive, and any small movement I made would wake her up.

I still couldn't sleep, sitting on the couch and looking at the night before dawn, I couldn't tell what was special about this kind of night after a long time. The horizon began to turn white and brighten, like a ray of light leaking out.

I reached out and poked Natsu's back, and Natsu woke up immediately, and I said, "The sun is out." ”

I sat on the sofa, Xia sat down on the floor, leaning back against the sofa, the sun that had not yet revealed its true face just now, seemed to swoop into the sky, hanging in the sky, the light shone into the balcony of thousands of households, it was really golden light, it was not good-looking.

"Sitting on the balcony in the early morning, the first day shines on the tall building. Xia stood up, stretched out his arm, and said, his neck clicked after sleeping so much just now.

"Brother, thank you, I'm leaving. ”

Before I could react, Xia stood at the door with a bag and said goodbye to me.

"Why are you going?"

"When I go back, my textbooks are in the store, and I have to study. ”

"You don't have to..." Before I could finish speaking, Natsu walked out.

I sat at home, during the day, the inexplicable mood faded, I turned on the computer to complete the design drawings of the past few days, today I was in a good mood, unconsciously hummed a song.

I overslept during a nap, and when I got up, the sunset had already come into my eyes, and the living room was warmed by the warm light of the sunset, but my heart suddenly fell into a trance again, it was a feeling of being abandoned, just like I lived in outer space, I was alone, the world was quickly retreating behind me, I wanted to be like a kindergarten child, rolled off the sofa, walked barefoot to the bathroom, I wanted to cry, for some reason, I just wanted to cry.

I am thirty years old, how to grow smaller and smaller, wake up crying, I quickly closed the thick curtains in the living room, turned on the light, sat for a while, a few years ago, when I worked alone, only in my twenties, living like a man in thirty or forty as strong, facing any difficulties to face difficulties, now, I am thirty, I occasionally feel that I am still a fifteen or sixteen-year-old child, but in vain there is a thirty age. How can I live smaller and smaller, I wonder how mature my heart and mind, the experience of the vicissitudes of life that I look forward to every day.

Xia's call came, "Brother, why don't you come to open the door yet, if you don't come, it will close." I got up and ran to the bar.