Hearing Xia's words, I realized that I was talking to Xia just now, and I kept looking up in a daze, I looked down at her, and repeated, "It's really okay." ”

"At your age, isn't it just some love and love, I know it even if you don't say it. ”

"At what age am I, I still love love. Xia just waved his hand disdainfully to speculate on my movements, which made me feel inexplicably funny, a twenty-year-old Xiaoni, who made herself know everything the same.

"Isn't it?" Xia was puzzled, and the confidence just now turned into doubt in a second, and he looked up at me again with a frown.

"No, what age do you think I am?" I wanted to know the answer to the question, especially in a girl's mind.

"Twenty-four or five?" Xia said tentatively.

"Really?" I couldn't suppress my laughter, a few days ago, we met me while working together, saying that I had aged a lot at home these days, and suddenly I felt old all of a sudden, and I had no energy, and Xia's words made me very happy.

Xia nodded, and asked me if I was right? I didn't speak, I wanted to know more, so I asked her again, "Where is it like twenty-four or five?"

"Look, isn't it? How old are you? ”

"It's thirty, and in another month it'll be almost thirty. "Actually, I don't have much idea about age, but Natsu's words still make me happy.

"It's thirty, and it doesn't look like it at all. Xia said, picking up his flashlight and shining it in my face, and as soon as I closed my eyes with the light, I felt a lot of light floating back and forth.

The road is very short, and it will come to an end as I walk, I happily said goodbye to Xia, who waved his hand and disappeared into the alley.

When I got home, it was already past one o'clock in the morning, I sat on the sofa, my eyes were blank and I didn't know where to look, in short, I just couldn't sleep, these days, come, day after day, every night I repeated the same thing, fell into endless melancholy, I can't say why I was depressed and insomnia, but at night, I felt that I was in the dark and the devil signed a deed of sale, I fell into anxiety on time, and forcibly hung myself on the stove, the fire was far away from me, and there was no pain in the body, but the rising heat made me anxious, and my heart hurt like ten thousand arrows。

Is it because I'm about to turn 30? But I have never cared too much about my age, I went to the bathroom, for the first time I took a serious look at my face, my carefully maintained face, and five years ago, there is no difference, I tried to smile in the mirror, trying to see how many crow's feet I have when I laughed, but it was a fake smile, the corners of my eyes were as smooth as ever, I was unwilling, and laughed wildly, this time, I didn't see my crow's feet, but the laughter that floated into my ears made me hug myself and shivered.

I really don't know why I have insomnia, I didn't even realize when this abnormality hit me, I slowly walked into the bedroom, lay on the bed, forced myself to sleep, but when I turned my head, I saw a large jar of condoms on the bedside table, when I bought it, I thought about buying a big jar at one time, saving trouble and cheap, but now I didn't expect that I couldn't use it at all, but caused a bigger waste. I picked it up, gently wiped the dust off it, and thought back to the last woman who came to my room, I had no memory at all, what she looked like, what clothes she was wearing, what she talked to me, did she spend the night? Was it the woman who greeted me at the bar tonight? I can't remember anything, my memory is like that of an eighty-year-old man.

I put it down and stared at the ceiling, my eyelids were low, but I just couldn't close, my body was tired, but I just couldn't sleep, I tossed and turned, I went to the TV, and I found a program about tomb robbing, I don't know how long I was concentrating on it, and when I woke up, it was ten o'clock the next day.

The power went out, it was very hot, the air conditioner stopped working, I got up from the sofa covered in sweat, this sleep, I slept so that my neck was sore, my arms were numb, the kitchen had not been used since the renovation, the refrigerator only had one activated carbon in it, and the table in the dining room was covered with a layer of fine dust, anyway, I didn't need it, and I didn't bother to clean it.

I sat on the sofa and continued to distract, and found that I unconsciously raised Erlang's legs, and immediately sat upright, reminding myself in my heart that this is not good for my spine, I am no longer young, and I should pay attention to my body.

I can't sit still in the heat, my stomach is growling, I might as well go to the mall to cool off, I haven't been shopping for a long time.

After eating, I wandered around the mall on the first floor, the mall was celebrating its anniversary, buy 100 get 100 free, my home was empty, but I really didn't have anything to buy.

Just when I was in the sales area, I saw Xia at the door, he was wearing the same loose T-shirt as yesterday, black pants, and a pair of flip-flops on his feet. Xia was pushing a big cart and walking towards the department store, I followed her, I didn't want to say hello to her, I bowed my head and missed, but then, Xia's actions completely stunned me, she put the car on the shelf, took out the promotional paper and the salesman pointed to it, "Wow" swept all the goods on the shelves into her cart at once, what is that, I squinted and didn't see the blue things, and then, Xia walked to another shelf, and swept the rest. After controlling the cart, I pushed it to pay the bill.

I walked forward and walked to the blue goods that had been emptied, it was condoms, and the entire shelves of condoms had been bought by Xia Swe, I was a little surprised, what was she going to do?

There were four big bags, and Xia Ti slipped through the bags, ignoring all the scrutiny, suspicion and contempt from others, and walked out of the mall. I stood not far from her, my eyes blurred and recalled her residence, it was the so-called fireworks alley, not far from the urban village, and a bar street, many people in the bar said a few words to say hello to Xia, no matter what the attitude of speaking, they must all know, just after the college entrance examination in the afternoon to work in the bar, ironclad said that he was not admitted, and he didn't care, I got lost in the alley last night, and there was a moaning sound like a cat barking everywhere. I don't dare to think about it, I'm going to work at a bar in a while.

Today's shopping mall anniversary has crowded the underground parking lot, and there are a bunch of bicycles and electric cars placed horizontally and vertically at the door, and my car can't drive out of it at all.

Xia Zao sat at the door waiting for me, holding the book of the domineering president last night, or the white T-shirt, black pants, and flip-flops in the afternoon, "Brother, here." Xia got up to make room for me to open the door, for some reason, I always feel strange when I look at Xia, and it is uncomfortable to hear her call my brother.

"Have you been here for a long time?"

"No, just arrived. ”

After entering the door, I didn't speak, Xia didn't speak, I sat and kept accounts, Xia stood and cleaned, I wanted to say something, but I didn't know how to talk.

We each did our own thing, there was no communication, a beautiful woman with an eye-catching figure walked in, my afterglow was attracted the moment she walked in, the eyes of the rest of the men in the bar were also glued to the beauty's body, her clothes were too revealing, too eye-catching, the makeup on the girl's face, her eyes were red, she looked full of red bloodshots, it looked like she had just finished crying, she drank a lot of alcohol alone, and a few men with weird hairstyles came over to talk to her, and they all walked away boringly.

Not long after, the woman was almost delirious when she was drinking at the counter, and a boy with glasses who seemed to be Sven came over with a wine glass, wanting to drink with the beauty, and clinking glasses as he spoke, at that moment, a drop of water-like liquid entered the girl's wine bottle, and at the moment of entry, the man blocked half of it with his hand, and he would not be found at all, the action was too fast, I suspected that I was dazzled, and blinked hard, I looked at Xia, Xia held her cheeks, puffed out her mouth, and had an expression of watching a play.