On the plane to France, because his parents were by his side, Xiao Hexuan quickly fell asleep with peace of mind.

Bai Sichen and Cheng Yiran were full of worries and did not feel the slightest sleep.

The two of them didn't chat, one was afraid of waking up Xiao Hexuan, and the other was afraid that the more they talked, the more sad they became.

Cheng Yiran looked at the sea of clouds outside the window, and Bai Sichen kept silently looking at her side face, her eyes full of pity and affection.

After landing, the trio returned to the house they had previously lived in France.

Cheng Yiran, who didn't close his eyes all the way, began to clean up as soon as he entered the house.

Bai Sichen settled Xiao Hexuan and went to stop her: "Yiran, don't be busy, we'll just stay here for a few days, and when the divorce procedures are completed, you and Hexuan can return to China, and I will leave here." Lu Chiye introduced me to a medical expert who specializes in HIV/AIDS, and I was going to see him in Germany. ”

Cheng Yiran didn't stop busy: "Hexuan and I will go with you." ”

Bai Sichen was stunned: "Yiran, no, it's better for you and Hexuan to go back early." Lu Chiye will be worried. And I'm carrying that virus right now, and you're not safe with me. ”

Cheng Yiran was not moved by his words at all: "I have already decided." I'll take a good look at Hexuan, I know you love Hexuan too, and you won't let him have any accidents, right?"

"Yes, but you have your own life, and I can't let you put your whole life into it for me. ”

"Sichen, this is what I owe you. If you just drive me away like this, even if I live the rest of my life in glory and wealth, no matter how safe and sound, I won't be happy, do you understand?" Cheng Yiran looked into his eyes and said seriously.

"Yiran ......" Bai Sichen wanted to continue to persuade her, but he was shocked by her solemn attitude, and he was speechless for a while, not knowing what to say.

"Okay Sichen," Cheng Yiran gave him a comforting smile, "This is a decision I have already made, and it is also Hexuan's." ”

"You...... Have you told Hexuan about my situation?" Bai Sichen was a little nervous.

"No, it's just that Hexuan has always wanted to come back and live. He has told me many times that he misses France as his home. I think it's a very happy thing for him to live here. And even if I go back to C City now, it will only make me face Lu Chiye in pain. She shook her head self-deprecatingly, "I don't have that big heart, and I don't know how to face him yet." ”

"But you still love him, don't you?" Bai Sichen looked into her eyes calmly.

Cheng Yiran lost his mind for a moment: "I really hope that I don't love him anymore, or even hate him." That will make me feel better. But I'm ...... now. It's all at this time, after going through so much and knowing so much, I still can't let go of him. Sichen, do you think I'm too unproductive?"

Bai Sichen's eyes flashed, and he saw the tears in her eyes.

Those tears appeared for Lu Chiye.

It made his heart throb uncontrollably.

But now, he no longer has the qualifications to persuade her to give up Lu Chiye to be with him.

He could only endure the sadness in his heart and comfort her in a friend-like tone: "It's not that it's useless, it's just that there are many kinds of people in this world." Some people can love many people in their lifetime, and some people can love so many in their lifetime. Lu Chiye just became the last person you love in this life. ”

After hearing this, Cheng Yiran smiled bitterly: "This doesn't sound like good news." Am I going to guard such a person who can't be together for the rest of my life?"

"You can stay with him if you want. Yiran, there are some things that don't have to be so serious. We are all mortal beings in the flesh, and who has not made mistakes?"

Cheng Yiran shook his head: "Don't persuade me, Sichen." You go back and take a rest, and go shopping with me tomorrow to change your mood. ”

Since she had already changed the topic, Bai Sichen couldn't say anything, so she could only nod and ask her: "You can go back to sleep too, otherwise you will be tossed by jet lag tomorrow and won't be able to get up." ”

Cheng Yiran nodded and went back to the bedroom.

Bai Sichen looked at her until her figure walked into the bedroom, then lowered his eyes and sighed softly.

Yiran, do you know that what I longed for most was that you could be by my side willingly for a long time, no matter what happened.

But now, your persistent companionship has made me fall into a contradiction of pain and happiness.

If I can't see you, at most I miss you, and thinking of your happiness is at least a comfort to me.

But you accompany me with your suppressed inner feelings like this, which will make me feel even more distressed.

What should I do if you are so stubborn......

The fatigue caused by jet lag was very heavy, but Cheng Yiran did not defeat the physical fatigue after all, and fell asleep after tossing and turning for a few minutes.

She had a dream.

In the dream, she returned to the night when she was blindfolded by Liang Weizhi and gave it to his leader.

Upon entering the bedroom, her blindfold was ripped off.

She saw Lu Chiye's handsome but expressionless face, and the custom-made ring he was wearing on his finger.

He looked at her, raised his eyebrows, then hooked her chin with his hand, and smiled disdainfully: "The eyes are a bit similar to Xueyan, so I can barely be a stand-in." ”

With that, he was about to kiss her.

Cheng Yiran pushed him away violently and rushed out the door.

As soon as I went out, I bumped into a person. When I looked up, it was Ding Xueyan whose face was covered in blood, her eyes were wide open and tearful, her hands were open and claw-like and grabbed Cheng Yiran, and her mouth was still howling: "Give Chi Ye back to me, he is mine, it's mine!!"

Cheng Yiran shook her head, so frightened that tears almost fell, and then she opened her eyes suddenly.

When she finally realized that it was just a dream, she was still gasping for breath in horror and covered in cold sweat.

After finally calming down, she turned her head to look at the electronic clock at the head of the bed, it was already three o'clock in the morning, which was the time when the human body could not resist sleepiness the most, but she was no longer sleepy.

It's a nightmare, of course.

But what scared her the most was not the demon-like Ding Xueyan with a bloody face, but the familiar but unfamiliar Lu Chiye and the words he said in his dream.

She got up slowly, went to Xiao Hexuan's house to take a look, tucked the quilt corner for him, went to get a can of coffee, put on a nightgown alone, sat on the balcony, looked at the stars in the sky, and drank coffee until dawn.