Liu Feiyang didn't know what happened to him, but he heard the old man in the village say that the person who committed suicide was the lowest ghost when he went to Lord Yan, and he would be reincarnated in the next life and live like a pig and dog.

Although Hong Canhui outside the door said that he was coming for Liu Feiyang, he couldn't threaten it at all.

Some time ago, he read a newspaper, which published a case of jumping off a building, and an expert commented on it, and there was a word that was deeply rooted in the hearts of the people: mid-life crisis!

For a man, in addition to being content with the status quo, there seems to be no way to fight, as long as there is a little wave in this ordinary life, it is very likely to cause a nervous breakdown, and then go to extremes...

He didn't know that the word despair and wanting to die would appear in people of this age, if he really died, it seemed that listening to him had something to do with him, and now Liu Feiyang can roughly determine that Hong Canhui is no different from the so-called imbalance to revenge society...

Liu Feiyang's appearance was indeed the last straw that crushed him, so that his tense nerves were completely broken, and people's thinking under the influence of alcohol was wild, his tone became more and more sad, and he said to himself, "Who am I, I am Hong Canhui, I was the top student in the class when I was in elementary school, and the teacher asked me to be the class president when I was in middle school, I studied well and looked handsome, and when I reached adolescence, my girlfriend was the school flower of the school, she collected a bunch of love letters every day, and finally walked with me under the willow tree, who the doesn't envy me?" The gangsters outside the school liked her, and blocked her after school, so I went out with my stool legs and beat them all away, and then when I went back to school, I called me Brother Hui."

Liu Feiyang has not experienced any of this, so he can probably understand it, and he is a little ignorant.

"Then we broke up, because I had a girlfriend again, outside the school, good looking, and less dressed, and my first love holding hands will blush in the past, I began to play her fortress, on the first base, on the second base, and finally on the third base, I got all of her when I was in the middle school entrance examination, I didn't study and relied on the key high school, the first day I entered the school, I knew that I was Brother Hui, the director of teaching also looked for me, told me not to cause a big deal, there are girls from other schools in high school, every day around me, pick whatever you want, I learned to drink, After skipping class, I followed my friends outside the school to eat koji/mado, and when I ate it, I felt that the whole world was mine..."

He smiled wryly, his eyes full of confusion, recalling the bits and pieces of that time" Later, because of the protection money collected at school, the parents came to the school to take me home, and took a two-year break from school, I was mixed in the society, with a big brother, I like to go to the school gate to squat, watch them when they get out of school, people who know me call me Brother Hui again, and then go out to fight, my best brother let people hack to death, the eldest brother went in again, the people of the gang are all over the world looking for me, and finally spent money to settle things, and dragged the relationship to send me to school, I look down on the reluctance to mix, study all day, but those people in the school are not afraid of me, a few classes of big brothers see me like a mouse sees a cat…”

He paused, picked up the wine bottle and poured it again, choked and almost vomited, retched a few times and said "I have a smart head, I was admitted to university, studied finance, four years of undergraduate, and on the day of the promotion banquet, I was a relative at home, and they all said that my prodigal son did not change his money, and he was the pride of the family, and I knew how to study hard in college, and I also won a scholarship, I was a student union cadre, and my girlfriend's long legs hurt when it came to summer, and I broke up peacefully after graduation, and I cried that time."

He recalled his past, and this time it took a long time, and it took dozens of seconds before he spoke again." In my senior year, I interned, went to a financial unit, a total of three people, the best grades are me, the best job is me, I usually go out to drink with the leader, but a year later it is the other two people who stay, because I don't have money It doesn't matter, okay, I admit it, I will find a job by myself, private enterprises are definitely not as good as state-owned enterprises, I worked for two months to catch up with the financial crisis, all laid off, and then look for a job and find that the right one for me is gone, and I can't go home, every time I talk to them that I am doing well, and suddenly go back to the neighbors to see what I haveMy brother Hui can't afford to lose that person, I have to eat in a strange city, I looked for half a month and finally went to sell insurance, and I caught up with layoffs, I was laid off again, I have to live, my pocket is cleaner than my face, but no one uses me, they all say that college students are very good, but they just don't need it, and finally see Shengshi Huating for food and shelter, let's go to it, it's nothing to lower my figure, I met my former colleagues after two months of work, they drank and I served dishes, let me sit down and drink I'm not embarrassed, do you know what mood I was in at the time, do you know what they said about me behind their backs?"

As he spoke, a layer of fog covered his eyes, and Liu Feiyang in the door also took a deep breath, he kept straightening his waist because he knew that it was not good to be looked down upon.

"It's ugly, it's hard to hear, the laughter is worse than the goblin laughing in Journey to the West! You know them, they are uneducated, they were beaten every day when they went to school, and now they are fucking better than me, who would have thought that? I will comfort myself, the poorest is just asking for food, I will eventually come out if I don't die, it's nothing to thicken my skin, laugh, laugh how you want, Brother Hui doesn't care, but why can you be a stinky rascal all over Huibei, and come to see such a good house? Why do you want to pull me by the collar and let me lead the way? Who is my Hong Canhui worse than?"

He suddenly burst out, staring at the door with his eyes wide, tears already falling from his face, shouting thunder, and clenching his teeth, "I'm Brother Hui, why was my pure first love finally dirty by that little thing in bed? Why was my pride wiped out little by little by society? Why were my edges and corners ruthlessly smoothed by life? Why did the people who once let me kick with my feet now be able to point me behind my back? Why don't I know myself now?"

Liu Feiyang listened to his hoarse roar, and stood inside the door with his head down, and began to guess what state he should be in now.

His questioning Liu Feiyang also sat on the lonely wilderness and asked the starry sky, why do I just want to do everything God does not fulfill people's wishes, why I used to catch cicadas and laugh and be ecstatic, and now I catch pheasants just to fill my stomach today, and why I proudly walked into the Zhongshui Teahouse, but no one inside was looking at me.

I used to think that flowers would not wither, but when I grew up, I knew that it was even more miserable called shriveled and withered. I used to think that the sky would not get dark, but when I grew up, I knew that it was even more tragic called the dark day. I used to think that the water would not flow away, but when I grew up, I knew that it was even more sad that the fish would not come.

"It's not that I don't know myself now, but I've worked hard, proud, and watchful, but I found that life is getting farther and farther than I expected, when I first saw a certain Jiaxin, I thought that I wanted to marry such a daughter-in-law when I grew up, but now I don't even have a girlfriend, when I saw the Mercedes-Benz for the first time, I thought that I must buy one in the future, but now I think about having a bicycle, when I was a child, I thought about being rich and rivaling the country, and now I want to fill my stomach!"

He has burst into tears, people are almost on the verge of collapse, the fullness of the ideal is the carving knife of life, one by one cut into the bones of reality, what I thought before and what I do now is very different, he cried and shouted, "Everyone told me to have ideals, to have dreams, but no one told me what to do if my dreams were broken, they all told me to travel around the world, but no one told me how big shoes I should wear on my feet, I don't say, who remembers that there was a Brother Hui in that school?"

"I'm afraid, I'll still be like this in ten years and twenty years, I won't play this game anymore, I'm tired, I'm so tired, I don't dream anymore, I'm completely convinced" He said as the whole person collapsed to the side, lying straight in the gasoline, poured the last bit of wine in the bottle into his mouth, and threw away the wine bottle after drinking, the wine bottle rolled down the stairs, falling layer by layer, making a tinkling sound, he held the fire and yelled in his mouth" Fuck your uncle's youth, why can't I go back, I really want to dream again, how can Brother Hui, who was proud at the beginning, be inferior to a stinky rascal..."

After he finished speaking, he slowly closed his eyes and slowly lowered his arm.

The lighter in his hand burst into flames, sliding towards the gasoline little by little as his arm followed.

Liu Feiyang in the room also felt it, but his nerves were extremely sensitive, and he definitely didn't want a drunkard to die in front of him, hearing the last wail, he had a premonition that the situation was wrong, so he quickly unscrewed the door lock, and when he saw the outside, the arm was drooping, and he didn't have time to think about it, so he quickly kicked it on the arm.

"Brush...", the disposable lighter floated almost parallel to the gasoline.

However, the flames scorched the volatile gasoline and eventually fell to the ground.

"Boom..."Almost instantly, I saw a blue flame appear above the gasoline, and then it rolled like thousands of ants, and the speed was extremely fast.

Liu Feiyang's pupils dilated instantly, and he subconsciously bent down and grabbed his two shoulders, and hurriedly retreated to the door, ignoring the sharp pain in his shoulders.

"Bang..." Just as he dragged Hong Canhui, who was thrown into the house with his eyes closed, into the house, a raging fire was already burning outside the door, and a fire had already ignited on Hong Canhui's pants, gradually climbing, and burning to his back in a blink of an eye.

Liu Feiyang has seen the rescue method on TV, his hands are grabbed on his waist very quickly, his clothes are grabbed with one hand, and his pants are grabbed with the other, and they are taken off in a blink of an eye.

When Liu Feiyang went out, An Ran had already walked over, and seeing that there was still fire on his body at this time, he hesitated to press his body against the flames.

In the blink of an eye, there was not a single spark in the room, except for two clumps of clothes and pants burning.

Liu Feiyang's hands had turned red, and blood was spilling from his arms.

An Ran got up and held Liu Feiyang's hand, while the latter stared at the person on the ground.

When a person is drunk and the fire is extinguished, how can the pride continue after the burning?