started at 0:09 on Sunday, October 7, 2018, just finished watching Lu Yao's "Ordinary World" TV series, and saw that many people in the barrage said that it was because of Xiulian, Xiaoxia's death and sad tears, I saw the memories of Shaoping because of 5 yuan did not want to study, Shao'an played Shaoping for this period, I couldn't help crying, yes, I am sad where they are sad, and my sad place does not seem to be a tear, after all, it is just the self-esteem of youth, not about survival itself, poverty should make people grow and make people strong, but I don't seem to have it, but I know that relying on people's poor ambitions alone cannot make people completely out of that kind of life without self-esteem, this is just from the perspective of adults or the perspective of people who have come to think about the problemFor teenagers who are in it, they don't know the purpose and direction of life, so many people will be deeply trapped in it, unable to extricate themselves, and it is easy to lose themselves and go astray, I think this is the reason for me to cry.

Middle school was a time of character development and a life stage that changed my life, and in fact it is true for many people, because I have seen so many stories like this with my own eyes.

At the same time, I also believe that any good writing should be related to the times, after I have experienced more than 30 years, I have a better understanding of what the meaning of life is given to us by those days, and I also know how important the social atmosphere of a region, the campus environment of a school, the words and deeds of a teacher, all of which have a great impact on students. Shengye's mind is so fragile that any casual word may affect his life, a person may be destroyed, or it is possible to be warm, accept the baptism of sunshine and rain and grow strongly, and eventually grow into a towering tree, it is true that I know that this is not a specific person's problem, but this also makes me feel more panicked, is this fate?

An uncontrollable fate. Or is it because of the social reality, the education system, the campus environment, the quality of teachers, and the local social atmosphere...... So many soft and fragile hearts were burned in an instant, Flooded, thrown into the dirt and trampled on, and then hardened as steel, fearless, why so many minds full of fantasy finally sink into reality, is this their own choice or forced to be helpless, and finally succumb to the evaluation of others, I once saw a girl with a gentle personality, sunny and cheerful, just because she looks better, she can't escape the chase and criticism of many boys, I have also seen a math genius, the first in the class in every exam, but finally chose to join a certain social organization, and mingled in the game hall all day longInternet cafe....... The place where I live is a small county in the north, at the beginning of the world, it was still full of violence and barbarism, parents were busy struggling for survival, no one cared about the growth of children, the level of teachers was uneven, many of them were of poor character, school violence was rampant, and the most favored were those who dyed their hair and smoked thugs, they swaggered around the campus in groups and with their girlfriends, and some girls were proud of it.

Students who study well are jealous of each other, unwilling to help others, will be proud and self-reliant to do a question, condescending, and some gangsters are on the bus every time they see the old man will give up their seats, there is no standard of good and bad, today to re-examine this life from the perspective of an adult, it is really emotional, I deeply know that the fate of some people's lives is decided, but I also know that it is so arbitrary and hastily decided, just like ants, a willful and stubborn child is idle, flooded, Burned, buried, I can't imagine that our lives are so fragile and devastating, so I want to write a novel to commemorate this time, to commemorate this time that will never return but will always remain on everyone.

It is nearly noon at the beginning of the school, it is class time, there is almost no one to see in the empty campus, occasionally there is a cleaning woman with a shovel and a broom passing by, this is the second middle school in Sichuan County, in the only three junior high schools in the county is the best, the campus is located at the foot of the West Mountain, covers an area of nearly 30 acres, two four-story teaching buildings, an office building, in addition to the teacher's dormitory, canteen, two student shops, Student dormitories, etc., are fully equipped, a 20-meter-high flagpole is erected in the center of the campus, erected on the three-meter-high red flag platform, the red flag platform is all made of cement, there are steps on both sides, the middle is surrounded by a metal fence, the metal surface flashes silver, particularly eye-catching, obviously just painted, the flagpole is only the lower end is new, more than two meters to reveal the original mottled rust, the flagpole * towers, the red flag on the top of the pole swings arbitrarily with the wind, although it is not completely opened, but still can not cover its majesty.

The weather at the end of August is still very hot, especially under the cloudless sky of the Loess Plateau, the temperature during the day can reach 278 degrees. There are also women, they are all wearing coats, obviously going out early in the morning, at this time the men have taken off their clean coats, revealing the faded shirts or threads inside, if you are careful, you will also find that some people have holes in the threads, this person is Qu Xiangming of Yuanxia Village, he knows that his family conditions are not as good as others, and their home is still far away from the county seat, the others are another Shihe Village that is much closer to the county seat, although they all belong to a township, but Shihe Village goes to the township school farther than the county middle school, so they plan to transfer to the county No. 2 middle school collectively。

Recently, I have been looking for people to find connections, and they are discussing taking advantage of the large number of people to see if they can pay less for the borrowing fee.

Qu Xiangming knew very well in his heart that even if the borrowing fee was small, the child's school would be a big burden on the family, and his meager income would not be enough to support it, not to mention other tuition and miscellaneous fees, accommodation fees, Food expenses, etc., once you go to school in the county, these are unavoidable, the eldest and the second are all studying in the township, the primary school is okay, and the middle school is getting worse and worse, but for the youngest third, Qu Xiangming is determined to make a change, because the third child has studied since he was a child, and several exams in the sixth grade are the first in the class, Qu Xiangming thinks that if he can continue the state of primary school in the future, he may be admitted to college, but these are still too early, the most important thing at the moment is to let Qu Mo go to school in the county, after all, the teachers in the county are better than those in the township。

Of course, this depends on these parents in Shihe Village, the conditions in their village are relatively better, and they know people, if they don't find someone to rely on themselves these days, even if they want to find a place to pay the borrowing fee, they can't find it, so he politely took out a box of three yuan from his coat pocket

The "Monkey King" smoke came and distributed it to others one by one. Qu Xiangming's mother-in-law also came today, because seeing that it has been a week since the start of school, the person they are looking for has said several times that it is almost finalized, and the original annual borrowing fee is 270, one time *600 is enough, of course, it is indispensable to give another point to the relevant leaders, treat them to dinner or something, and these expenses will be shared equally by everyone.

Things seem to have been done, but the leaders at all levels have to sign and seal, and it will take a week to pass, and finally reach the last pass of the school, this day Qu Xiangming got the news that he would go to see the vice principal in charge in the afternoon, so he went out early in the morning, and it happened that the field was fine, and his aunt Cuiying also came.

After coming to the county seat, Qu Xiangming called other parents in Shihe Village, but he didn't think that they hadn't set off yet, so he and his mother-in-law took Qu Mo to the business street for a turn, and bought a pair of rubber shoes for the child.

Because she didn't eat when she left, Cui Ying spent two yuan to buy a loaf of bread for Qu Mo, Qu Mo didn't eat bread a few times when he was so big, he used to eat the bits and pieces given by other people's families, this was the first time he bought it, yellow on the top and white on the bottom, fluffy and soft, boxy, neatly divided into four pieces, Qu Mo ate one, and the remaining three pieces have been held in his hand.

Qu Xiangming and Cui Ying have also been hungry, but this is a common thing for them, and they often have to come back at night to work in the mountains, and they plan to go home and eat again.