Xiao Tianhuang was silent.

She was indeed speaking to him.

She can't afford his sincerity, because she can't afford to be the same sincerity.

She thought about it for a long time, hesitated after thinking about it, and finally came to the final conclusion that they were not suitable.

Looking at her lowered eyes and acquiescing, Shen Shen sighed and suddenly asked, "Is it because of the reason you told me back then?"

Xiao Tianhuang suddenly looked up at him, his expression could not hide a trace of panic and embarrassment, his face turned a little pale, he bit his lip, he didn't speak, and he didn't know what to say.

After all, she lowered her head, bit her lip, and subconsciously grabbed her cuffs, full of uneasiness and helplessness.

Shen Shen looked at her and suddenly asked softly, "I went back to look for you, do you know?"

Xiao Tianhuang was stunned when he heard this, and suddenly looked up at him, a little surprised: "What...... What?"

His tone was calm, with a hint of helpless regret: "The night you said those words to me, I left because the impact was too great, but I didn't go far, but I was too shocked in my heart and wanted to be alone and quiet, and I went back to the courtyard the next afternoon, but when I went back, you were already gone!"

Xiao Tianhuang said in his heart that he was not surprised, it was false.

He went back......

Shen Shen looked at her fixedly, pursed his lips and said: "At that time, I was eager to see you, there was a sentence I wanted to tell you, and you had already left at that time, so there was no chance!"

Xiao Tianhuang's heart tightened: "What...... What's that?"

Shen Yan looked at her very seriously, his eyes were sincere and hot, and he said word by word: "I don't dislike you!"

Xiao Tianhuang was stunned.

"Actually, this sentence should have been told to you when you told me those things, but what you said at that time had too much impact on me, my brain was very messy, I just wanted to find a place to be quiet, and I thought about my heart, but, from beginning to end, I never disliked you, I said that I liked you, it was sincere, I said I wanted to marry you, and it was sincere!"

When Xiao Tianhuang heard his explanation, his heart became more and more shocked, he opened his mouth, and wanted to say something, but he couldn't say a word, and those words were stuck in his throat.

"Actually, I know who you are, at that time you said that your surname is Xiao, you are from Liguo, and you don't want to be from an ordinary background, after you left, I couldn't find your traces, so I went to Liguo according to my guess, and I found out your identity and past with the portrait, I could have found you at that time, just because I was afraid, I had nothing at that time, I was hunted down and killed, and there was a big revenge to avenge, even if we were together, I was not sure that I could give you a stable and worry-free future, so after I found out your origin and past, I set off back to Xihan, and came back to take revenge with my uncle, and only that, I can be sure to keep you by my side and protect you from any harm, originally I had planned, when this place is stable, I will go to look for you, this day is not long, but I didn't expect that you would appear in Shangyong City, do you know how happy I am when I know that you are under my nose? Stay by my side, okay? Marry me, in the future, I will take good care of you!"

When he said these words, his eyes looked at her reverently and seriously, the sincerity in his eyes, seeing that there was no trace of fraud, the thick love and distress, pierced Xiao Tianhuang's already shaken heart, she bit her lip, and asked softly: "But do you really not mind my ridiculous past?"

There's no man who doesn't mind.

A woman, even if she is not innocent, is understandable and tolerant, but she is different, how ridiculous she used to be, no one knows better than her, prostitutes are more or less forced, but she has no way to defend herself.

She doesn't want to defend herself, this is the past she can't erase, even if she forgets it, even if she has come out, but after all, this is what happened to her, maybe it was because she bewitched Tang Hui in order to get revenge on the Tang family, but it was also her own depravity, she didn't love herself enough, so she made herself dirty.

This question stopped Shen Yan, he didn't speak for a while, and just when Xiao Tianhuang thought that he couldn't answer, he smiled bitterly and asked a little obscurely: "If I say I don't mind, you must think I'm lying to you and coaxing you, right?"

Xiao Tianhuang didn't speak, but in fact, it was.

Shen Yan said directly: "Then I'll tell you the truth, I mind!"

Xiao Tianhuang's heart tightened, and he looked at him a little nervously.

Shen Shen suddenly turned his head, turned sideways to her, looked at the night outside, and said lightly: " You are my first attractive woman, before you, I always thought that I would never be tempted by a woman in my life, I just need to follow my father's wishes, marry a well-known family woman at the right age, respect her like a guest, as long as you can give birth to an heir, nothing else matters, I don't want to turn myself into a father like that, love a woman with a humble heart, and finally end up being trampled and humiliated, to be honest, I never understood before, why did my father turn himself into that, knowing that his mother hated him in his heart, no matter how much sincerity he took out, he would not change, he still had no hesitation to be good to her, even in the end, even if he knew that she was going to poison him, he was willing to take that pill, and I, absolutely not allow myself to be the same as my father, until I met you!"

Xiao Tianhuang listened quietly and did not speak.

"The first time I saw you, it was in the woods outside the city of Fengzhou, when I passed by there, I heard the cry for help and walked over, before I could make a move, you appeared, you saved the girl who was almost defiled, and killed the two big men, you covered your face at that time, but the whole person obviously looked very gentle and elegant and calm, when killing, but shot neatly and did not hesitate, the decisive and ruthless in the eyes of the moment shocked me a little, obviously so contradictory two emotions, but in you did not violate the harmony, I have never seen such a woman, I thought you were very interesting at the time！”

Listening to his narration, Xiao Tianhuang also recalled the incident in Fengzhou City, and was a little surprised: "You were also there at that time?"

"Hmm!"

"And then?"

"The second time I saw you, it was at Hengshan Temple, you should still remember!"

"Yes, yes!"

Shen Shen smiled faintly and said, " At that time, Shen Zongnan's people were looking for me in secret, and there were his people hiding in that area, I was a little injured at the time, and I didn't want to cause trouble, so I went to Hengshan Temple to recuperate, I didn't expect to see you alone in the temple, just follow you, at that time you may have something on your mind, so I didn't notice me, I just looked at you outside the Buddha hall looking at the Buddha statue inside for a while, seemed to hesitate, looking at the Buddha statue's eyes were extremely contradictory, but then I walked in and worshiped the Buddha statue, intuition, I think you should be a person who does not believe in Buddha, and even extremely disgusted with the Buddha, but still so devout to bow down to him, both feel very strange, maybe it was that moment of distraction that alarmed you!"

Xiao Tianhuang pursed his lips and was silent.

She really doesn't believe in Buddhism.

Back then, the so-called proverbs of those high-ranking monks became the source of her sister's misfortune for half of her life, but at that time, her sister was not in good health, and June was also weak and sickly, Rong Jue didn't know her whereabouts and didn't know life and death, so she went to worship with a trace of luck.

But is there really a Buddha in this world?

Buddhism has always paid attention to the cycle of cause and effect, what is sown and what is fruited, but those who have sinned deeply have never received retribution, and innocent people have suffered all the pain and pain in the world.

"The third time we met, you saved me, got along with you, and unconsciously moved my heart to you, but at that time, I just wanted to try with you, Xu is too lonely alone, I always want to have someone by my side, but it is also strange to say, so many years, I have never wanted someone to accompany me so much, until I met you, I had this idea, but marriage at that time for me, in fact, is very far away, I don't even know what my future will be, and how dare you and me face these hidden dangers together? So at that time, you asked me if I wanted to marry you, I was very hesitant, but when I saw you leave gloomily, I had a thought in my heart, you, I was married, but you refused me......"

With his words, she also remembered the days in the other courtyard, and the bits and pieces with him, every sentence in it, every scene of getting along, he remembered, and she never forgot it.

Speaking of this, Shen Shen suddenly sighed and said with some helplessness and grievance: "To be honest, I grew up so big, the first time I fell in love with a girl, and the first time I expressed my intentions, I was rejected, which hurt my self-esteem!"

Xiao Tianhuang couldn't help but smile, raised his eyebrows and asked, "Since it hurts your self-esteem, why don't you retreat?"

still relied on her not to leave and stay, not hesitating to pretend to be pitiful.

Shen Yan sighed very honestly: "I thought about it, but it's also a matter of self-esteem, the more you can't get it or it's hard to get, the more you want to get it, and if you are rejected once, you will be defeated, and you will lose face!"

Xiao Tinghuang: "......"

How dare you say it!

Just because he couldn't be sincere, if he was an ordinary girl with a big temper, he would have slapped him on the wall a long time ago!

"Later, that time, you deliberately avoided me, I really couldn't stand to go to you, you said those words to me, and told me your past......"

He raised his eyes to look at her, his eyes were sincere, exuding a little brilliance, so affectionate and pity, holding her shoulders with both hands, and his tone was so gentle and gentle:" I do mind, I mind what happened to you in the past, I mind that you have been depraved and confused, I don't mind that you have ruined yourself like this, as a man, I also mind that you have had someone else before me, I mind that you have lost your soul, and I will not be able to complete you for the rest of my life, but I know what is the most important thing, no matter how bad your past is, it is not your fault, I regret, I regret that I did not meet you before all this happened, and I am also very glad, I am glad that after you have gone through a thousand sails, I am glad that I met you, I am glad that you are still willing to let me into your heart, everything you have in the past, I have no chance to participate in the change, only let you let go, forget, from now on, stay by my side, marry me, everything you have lost, I can give you, the grievances you have suffered, I can't bear it for you, but at least I can guarantee that these will never happen again!"

He knows her life experience, and under the full investigation, he also roughly knows some inside stories, and in combination with some of the words she has said and her existence, he has already guessed these things, and naturally he can imagine what she has endured since she was a child, how many grievances and how many sins she has suffered, and how desperate and painful it should be after learning all this, the more she thinks about it, the more distressed she is, the more distressed she is, the more she wants to love her with all her might, hug her tightly, and no one is allowed to hurt and wronged her.

So, compared to these, what she said is not important at all.

After hearing his sincere words, she stared at him for a long time, and then she suddenly withdrew her gaze and smiled bitterly, and said in a low voice: "I always thought that people like me were not qualified to have these!"

Hearing this, Shen Yan frowned and asked softly, "A person like you?"

Xiao Tianhuang stopped talking.